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"On the first day I thought about killing myself. On the second, of becoming a priest. On the third, of drinking until I fell. On the fourth day I considered writing her a letter. On the fifth day I started thinking about Europe. On the sixth day I began dreaming of the nights in Lisbon.

In six days god built the world and I rebuilt mine."

Machado de Assis. Memórias Póstumas de Brás Cubas.

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ladies? i have GOT to ask. what is going on

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Tea Brewing Dark Aesthetic

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Kim Addonizio; Death Poem

Do I have to bring it up again, isn’t there another subject? Can I forget about the scrap of flattened squirrel fur fluttering on the road, can I forget the road and how I can’t stop driving no matter what, not even for gas, or love, can I please not think about my father left in some town behind me, in his blue suit, with his folded hands, and my grandmother moaning about her bladder and swallowing all the pills, and the towns I’m passing now can I try not to see them, the children squatting by the ditches, the holes in their chests and foreheads, the woman cradling her tumor, the dog dragging its crippled hips? I can close my eyes and sit back if I want to, I can lean against my friends’ shoulders and eat as they’re eating, and drink from the bottle being passed back and forth; I can lighten up, can’t I, Christ, can’t I? There is another subject, in a minute I’ll think of it. I will. And if you know it, help me. Help me. Remind me why I’m here.

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Edouard John Menta, Pierrot’s dream, 1908

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Kunsthistorisches Museum (KHM)

Wien, Österreich

17.09.2021

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"Being perfect is an emotion, not a state. Some days I want to feel perfect, while other days I don't want to feel anything at all."

Ataphya

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chaotic academia:

-writing notes on your arm when you run out of paper

-glasses sitting crooked on your face no matter how many times you get them fixed

-playing a string instrument for years with tapes on it you don’t even use because you can never be bothered to take them off

(📸: top left- Times Higher Education, top right- me, bottom- me)

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trinity college

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Chet Baker, Paris 1963

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Do you keep a commonplace book? It’s not entirely a journal or a scrapbook – it’s more a carefully curated notebook compiled of texts copied from anywhere and everywhere. It can contain anything as long as it affects the compiler. I’ve had this one since I was 16, it is reserved for my most favourite lines from poems, books, songs, films, etc.

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STEM/dark academia moodboard

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Fragments of a Beethovenfest deko I found at a thrift store in Vienna - 2020