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Feeling so fucking low I wish the world knew what was good for me and killed me 3 years ago

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Wahhhh I hate spending money

I tried to save money buy not getting groceries and relying on my parents but that is depressing food, same meal for dinner makes me sad. And if I'd ask for an ingredient out of the every week list I get investigated and then asked by my dad if he could have some which I hate cuz I never want to give him food I put effort into

I feel so stretched thin every week and the last thing I need is him asking for food I made that I need to make it through the week

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Not good day

Social anxiety was out to kill me, wishing I was dead having to pass people, and feeling like I needed to get the hell out of work and feeling bad I don't want to talk to people

Why do I even try to conserve my social energy at work I can't use it outside of it

I can't change my inner reactions of being terrified of everyone/everything

Unfair I'm doomed

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Italian bind off

Why get into so much trouble when the regular cast off is much easier and faster?

Because the Italian bind off looks really neat and is stretchy. It’s ideal for 1/1 ribbing, double knitting and brioche.

It’s all about finding the right technique to fit the needs of each specific project.

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I would like to carve out the piece of my heart that wants connection

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🌟 How to Practice Self-ERP and CBT for AVPD

Step 1: Identify Your Triggers

What situations do you avoid (e.g., speaking in groups, meeting new people)?

Write them down and rank them by how much anxiety they cause.

Step 2: Start with Small Exposures (ERP)

Pick a low-anxiety trigger and plan to expose yourself to it.

Example: Say hello to a coworker instead of avoiding eye contact.

Resist the urge to “escape” or self-criticize during the exposure.

Celebrate the effort, not the outcome.

Step 3: Challenge Your Thoughts (CBT)

When avoidance or anxiety strikes, ask yourself:

“What’s the evidence that my fear will come true?”

“What’s a more realistic way to view this situation?”

Replace critical self-talk with affirming statements: “I am learning and growing. Perfection isn’t required.”

Step 4: Track Your Progress

Keep a journal of your exposures and thought challenges.

Reflect on your wins, no matter how small.

Step 5: Practice Self-Compassion

Healing takes time, and setbacks are part of the process.

Treat yourself with kindness, as you would a close friend.

💡 The Path to Healing

While AVPD might make the world feel like a scary, judgmental place, it doesn’t define your future. Self-guided ERP and CBT give you the tools to rebuild your relationship with yourself and others, step by step. Over time, those walls of avoidance can come down, revealing a life where connection feels possible—and safe. 🌱💛

Start Your Recovery Plan Now 🐾

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I want to complain Sooo bad

I'm a bad partner because I'm so moody and my isolation is making me hate people who are happy, which makes me feel like a bad person

What if I never get better what if I'm like this the rest of my life? I'm going to lose everything because no one wants to be around someone so negative.

I don't deserve my partner and one day someone nice will take them from me

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Had terrible day of my own making because I thought too long about the present

Looking back to the past is the source of current pain. Ill never be able to go back even though I hated nearly every minute. The good times feel so bleak knowing what's to come in the present

Or desperately trying to fling myself into the future where I'm loved and my meager hopes and dreams come true

Bringing up either because that's where my memories and hopes lie irritates my loved ones

Nothing is here, if the future falls through I have nothing to live for

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Wild kratts drawing references

thought i'd upload what I use to help me with drawing the kratt bros since i am horrid at drawing from memory/imagination :)

Heres a link to see it in better resolution:

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1xTtwEutXcgJzmbbKFcQtnlkZ9t2kRCxytNNu5Y-LmLk/edit#slide=id.p

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@strangeravatar made a great point

i was gonna focus on the spike-hotboxing-celestia aspect but i got distracted somewhere along the way and i think i forgot what joke i was trying to make

but dont you think its interesting how many guards of the exact same color/body type she's managed to accrue?? i do

ooohh you want to go look at our stickers so bad

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Recippy I want to make this week

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Cedric the Great (Puppet Version)

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"You have the power to forget anger and get along again."

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I feel really stupid and Im going to mess up the one constant in my life that gives me happiness. I'm so afraid to ask for what I want because its never going to happen and I'm a big fool for thinking it is.

Being patient isn't my strong suit, and I feel like I'm wasting my life