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Jiang Lost-my-family-as-a-teenager-raised-nephew-with-more-love-than-my-parents-ever-gave-me-and-reformed-my-clan-singlehandedly-while-mourning-the-loss-of-everyone-I-called-home Cheng, having a stare down with his brother-in-law: I am burdened with the great purpose and responsibility.

Lan parents-were-dead-to-me-since-I-was-a-child-could-only-see-them-once-a-month-lived-perpetually-haunted-by-the-fear-of-repeating-my-father's-mistake-just-to-lose-the-love-of-my-life-and-live-13-years-regretting-my-inaction-while-also-beaten-near-death-by-my-clan-and-acting-as-a-single-father-to-a-child-I-just-met Wangji, returning said stare with a glare: I am burdened with even more purpose and responsibility.

Meanwhile in the other room:

Lan been-a-single-parent-to-my-brother-since-the-day-he-was-born-while-carrying-the-weight-of-my-clan's-expectations-and-father's-sins-needing-to-be-perfect-at-all-things-yet-powerless-to-stop-the-self-destruction-of-everyone-I-love-to-add-insult-to-injury-manipulated-into-the-very-tool-they-utilise-to-hurt-one-another-a-smile-that-hides-a-self-loathing-more-than-anyone-in-the-fucking-series Xichen, beaming at his brother-in-law with a little laugh: You know, Wangji does this adorable thing with his nose when he's upset. It's so cute.

Wei Lived-to-see-the-death-of-not-one-not-two-but-three-cherished-families-he'd-once-called-his-own-and-loved-more-than-life-itself-died-being-used-as-a-scapegoat-for-someone-else's-plans-and-feeling-like-he'd-not-only-failed-everyone-he-loved-but-that-he-was-the-very-weapon-that-cut-them-down-still-greeted-with-hate-in-some-places-till-this-day-being-a-genius-is-tough-when-you-don't-have-noble-blood Wei Wuxian, excited to be with his brother-in-law: I know right! Jiang Cheng does it too. Aaaaah, our younger bros are too cute, it's unfair.

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No Home / 20240404

完稿跟草稿根本長不一樣

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This was so sweet but also heartbreaking cuz like eunyung noticed the signs so fast because he lived thru the same stuff

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This is another post abt chapter 244 of no home cuz I cannot not acknowledge eunyung's suicide attempt mention.

It wasn't rly suprising to me bcuz we already know eunyung wanted to escape his family and death is also an escape.

It was sad but unsurprising.

One thing I liked a lot was the similarities between haejoon's and eunyung's attempts tho.

Like they both backed off cuz they were scared but on haejoon's end it was an impulsive, spur of the moment decision

Eunyung's on the other had was probably not spur of the moment thing. We already know eunyung went on the rooftop a lot so chances are that while it might hv been impulsive, it was way more controlled and honestly maybe imagined a lot

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Honestly while reading ch 243 I expected haejoon to go beat up his dad, so I was pretty suprised when I read the whole running into traffic thing.

But, I think this show's such a big distinction *and* development of haejoon's character that his response to his anger wasn't to hurt his dad but to hurt himself.

Yes, it's not any better but it's also a pretty big difference between him and his dad

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Just read chapter 244 of no home and goddamn, I have so much to talk abt.

But most importantly, eunying saving haejoon and then immediately almost choking him to death was so fucking awesome

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I finished heaven official's blessings

I didn't cry.

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@discountsoysauce

Another screenshot of my Daemon AU:

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Jesus fucking Christ, man

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Defeating the White Star so easily relied heavily on Kim Rok Soo - not just what he learned from reading The Birth of a Hero, not just his special powers, but all his experiences, his way of thinking, all the things that made him who he was .

Fair warning, if haven't finished part 1 you might want to skip this. I'll be talking heavily about Kim Rok Soo, and I don't remember which chapters we learned this... Just that it's fairly late.

Kim Rok Soo is an analyst first and foremost. Record allows him to remember and process information at ungodly speeds, but it takes real skill to take masses of information and filter out all the irrelevant and distracting details.

Cale, as the transmigrated KRS, has that skill. He has repeatedly been able to take information from the books, information he gained as a noble (whether purchased from an information guild like what Deruth gave him at the beginning, or just reports or books he has access to) and pull it all together to find the most important factors.

Like why the crown prince might want a naval base, or why Ubarr would be a good location for one.

Or that the Mogoru Empire would want slaves for their alchemical experiments, and that that slaver noble he learned about was probably selling them to the empire (though, naturally, he found the evidence to back up his intuition. It's just knowing where to look and what to look for probably sped the process up tremendously).

And given how much he knows about the importance of any sliver of information, it's no surprise he constantly looks for sources of it.

He repeatedly asks Choi Han to capture rather than kill their enemies, and it's not just that he dislikes killing. Every captured enemy is a source of information - from the Arm member they captured at the elf village, to Cloppeh, to Syrem, to the dragon half blood... Cale learns a tremendous amount of information about the organization they are fighting. He even got the dragon half blood to lead them to one of Arm's bases on the Eastern continent.

And he's able to get even more through encounters with people like Hannah, and even the bandits on the Eastern continent that he shanghais into serving as waitstaff in his hotel.

He also denies information to the enemy as much as he can. From the silly fake uniforms that Choi Han dreads to his insistence they kill or blind the mage who saw Ron's face, he and his people are constantly able to take Arm by surprise.

Imagine if we were in Birth of a Hero, and Choi Han just straight up killed all those sources of information? And didn't wear a disguise, so he became a known opponent that the White Star could plan for and target?

Then we get into his experiences taking down corrupt guilds, which he used on corrupt nobles and priests alike. From selling of the treasures he found to the priest of the sun god, to handling the Stans and more..

He has the skills and experience - as well as an ability to quickly plan with the resources on hand and the flexibility to adjust his plans as needed - to handle almost anything thrown his way.

The foreknowledge from The Birth of a Hero and the wealth and connections he gained as a Henituse are only partially able to explain his success.

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Everytime ao3 goes down life just becomes empty. Like what am I supposed to do now instead of reading the 50k fanfic I planned to finish????

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When I say I almost had a panic attack when I saw this i mean it

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Between Bar Close and Passing Out

Between the hours of bar close and passing out are the loneliest hours of the entire day Empty and sad and everything is empty Alone in a tiny room Drinking warm beer in silence

It's in that hour when we're desperate for company that we make the worst decisions It's where the broken go to shatter glass Why bother changing Sleep in the same pair of jeans for day three

I welcome the dark space of passing out I'd rather that then to fall asleep and dream So I guess I've got that going for me None of it matters Not when you're in full solitude

Sometimes I wonder if it's possible to lose the ability to talk, if you have no one to to talk to It's early on one side and late on ther other This whole city should burn And we'll start with your old place on Fratney

How does one go from having it all to not having anything at all And even my cares have died in the dark I thought I knew what sorrow was But here I am, alone at three AM again

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I'm reading the woyang capital city part (around ch 166) and I have no idea what's going ok but I know it's Jun wu's fault

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Two living man

In one moving coffin

Zero feet apart

*and* they're gay

Two living men

In a coffin moving haphazardly

And they both begin to have

A little problem

(but nothing happens )

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Sometimes I read heaven official's blessing and think abt how it would've felt if I hadn't consumed all spoilers like moon cakes

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Underwater kiss supremacy!!!!!