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Dear Void,

This is very interesting to me as a Buddhist. I think it may demonstrate the interesting case of what it means to be an arahant. They talk a lot about arahants in some of the talks I've been listening to lately and it's hard to imagine what it would be like to destroy hatred. But this? Is being an arhat is like only having the first reaction? Or is it what I suspect -- that it's purifying the second until its reactions are entirely good and without views or beliefs?

having anti punitive justice morals sucks because you want to say "man that guy sucks he should get hit with hammers until he dies" but you also want to make it clear you don't think anyone should be put in charge of the 'hit people with hammers until they die" machine.

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Alternatively, treat them like a group of toddlers. Give them two choices and let them pick between them, preserving the illusion of choice while actually retaining the power.

the secret to organising any kind of trip with your friends is to become the benevolent dictator. do NOT wait for everyone to provide a consensus on things before you book anything. do it and then ask for feedback after. do not ask people what they would like to do just tell them what is happening and let them all nod along like the sheep they are. this is the ONLY way to coordinate a group of adults in their 20s/30s

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Dear Void, So I put out a call for beta readers and was SOOO gratified when not one but three people responded. But. I've contacted all three, one after the other. And every single one ghosted me. One of them didn't say anything at all when I told them I'd take them up it and the other two? Told me to send them the story. Then never said anything again. I know I'm not supposed to make everything about me. That they've got their own motives for behaving like this and that it probably isn't anything I did. Because they've got their own lives and their own problems and it's nearly impossible for them to realize that I'm not worth after only one excruciatingly polite exchange. So why does it feel like it is?? How does everyone know that I'm just not worth it? Why do people say they'll help and then not show up? wHY??? Help me, dear void. You're my only hope. Love, Me.

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Dear Void,

So I was making a poll earlier and I tried to put the plot point I was discussing in generic terms so that people could more easily vote--

--which was when I realized just how stupid the question actually was. I mean, it's an improvement over realizing just how stupid something is only after I've actually posted it, but honestly. Wouldn't be easier just to install some sort of brain upgrade?

There should be an app for that.

Love, Me

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Dear Void, I learned about yelling from Night Vale. Hope you're having a nice night. Love, Me.

I miss when everyone on my dash listened to Welcome to Night Vale so there’s be a good chance that on any ole day someone would reblog a quote that would grab me by the throat and forcibly ascend me to a higher plane where I understood myself and the universe better and with more kindness but also a little spook

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Dear Void,

Honestly, what does 'fanfic author' say to you if not 'autistic'? 'Cause, dude, you wanna talk hyperfixations? Trains, pfft. How would you like to hear about the complete back story of a guy whose elbow we saw on camera exactly once?

Love, Me

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Dear Void,

Do you ever feel like you're invisible? Like you're talking and nobody's listening? Are you talking? Are you screaming back at me, praying someone's listening? Hit me up. I even promise not to scream and to talk at a reasonable volume. Unless the screaming is mandatory. I don't know a lot about voids other than that they're for screaming into. Love, Me.

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Dear Void,

I just realized something interesting. I mope a lot about how people are ignoring me and get all depressed and think about killing myself as you do and then I get high and I'm happy and it doesn't matter if anyone likes me and I have this brilliant idea and I'm going to post it right now!

So. That's why no one likes me.

Good to know. Unpleasant realizations for the win.

As always, thank you for listening.

Love, Me

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Dear Void --

Why do people ignore me? Why do they look past me? Why do they pretend not to hear me when I speak? What have I said that caused this reaction? WHAT DID I DO???!!

I've been polite. I've been on-topic. I've done as asked. And yet. "We couldn't hear you, your mike was cutting out, but we loved what we did hear." Please. "I love talking to you." Then why are you facing away from me with your headphones on? I know I'm whining. I know I can't voice these thoughts where actual people can hear, but it feels like no one likes me, that no one will ever like me and that every word out of my mouth is an offense to God.

I want to cry.

Thank you for not judging. And not pretending to listen when you're actually not. The honesty is refreshing.

Love, Me.

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Dear Void,

My opinions are so controversial that when I post them, all I hear is an echo. Is that you?

Love, Me.

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Dear Void,

Just deleted two posts on my main because they got no engagement.

Which.

There's screaming into the void and then there's SCREAMING INTO THE VOID. At least when I scream at you, I'm doing it voluntarily with the full knowledge that you're an anthropomorphic representation of an ineffable constant. On my main, it feels more like I'm sitting on the side of the street begging and everyone's walking right past. So, yeah. Glad you're always here. At least someone's listening. Love, Me.

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*I have an impossible question for you and it's too long to write above, so here it is.

I have a self I'd want to be if I could, but I can't believe in because she's everything I'd like to be if I could. On a good path, destined to succeed. Delusional. I'm thinking of writing a journal of my day as though I were her. Writing her reactions to what happened to me, her perspective of the events. Encouraging a grandiose fantasy. Should I? (As a courtesy, given that you have no way to respond, I will not be voting. Let both sides of the conversation be an unsolved mystery.) Love, Me

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Dear Void,

You're prettier. And you'll swallow them all someday anyway. I look forward to our inevitable meeting. Let's have tea and talk about how weird it is that Earth is the only flat planet!

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Under the "has cleared its orbital neighborhood" and "fuses hydrogen into helium" definitions, thanks to human activities Earth technically no longer qualifies as a planet but DOES count as a star.

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hi hello you use the same talking tag as me (at least when you're writing to the void) and i thought i'd say the way you write to the void is very very interesting to me and idk maybe you might find a bucket in that void if you'd like to look for it

idk just thought i'd say hi and that i'd like to stay around a little bit if thats alright, i wanna hear what you have to say idk

Thank you! I appreciate it. It's painful sometimes thinking no one's listening. That no one wants to listen.

🫶🏻🥰

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Dear Void,

Still have not heard back from the incredibly desirable gentleman in front of which I made a fool out of myself in a comment in a public forum. Should I continue to pretend that it didn't happen or grovel like a really apologetic earthworm?

WHY ARE YOU IGNORING ME?! WHY AM I SO CRINGE?!!! WHY AM I SO KARKING STUPID?? Even on the Internet, I'm still terrible with men. We eldritch entities can't get no love. Maybe I shouldn't have asked him to fix my roof?

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Dear Void --

I wrote a fic that I thought was funny and posted it. I have heard nothing. Why does this bring up so many negative emotions that threaten to spill over like a tidal wave and drown me? Is there something flawed about me that I need to correct? Thank you for being there for me when I need to whine about my insignificant problems.

Love, Me.

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::sigh:: You won't believe how stupid I am. I upvoted an ad, void. It was really amusing and I thought I was in the curated-tumblr reddit, but no. Humansarespaceorcs. Wow. Super embarrassed. Your support is, as always, much appreciated.