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lord the peasants are so loud today

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love downloading a pdf to never read. just in case. like lol. you’re coming home with me

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[through tears] yeah i remain whimsical

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have we tried sitting completely still in a dark room, my liege?

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The real thing with ADHD is not "I forgot", but that forgetting is this ongoing process. I remembered! And then I forgot.

At ten this (hypothetical) morning I remembered that I have a meeting at six. And then from 11 through 3 I worked on other stuff and had zero thoughts about that meeting. Maybe even thought about what I was gonna do with my evening at home. Got attached to the idea of taking the time to make a good dinner, maybe play some video games.

And then at three I said, "Oh! Fuck!" and remembered again, hopefully long enough to set an alarm. And then I went to the bathroom and remembered that I need to clean the counter and spent twenty minutes cleaning the bathroom and went to get a snack and then at five I said, "OH! FUCK!" and had to scramble to dress like a real adult and get out the door.

It isn't one clean forgetting. It's a constant process of forgetting and then, with an exhausting adrenaline spike, remembering. And then forgetting. Baby, I can forget the same thing more times in a day than you ever forgot your parents' anniversary.

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love the grotesque. love the macabre. love the peculiar.

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but when will it be prejudice month

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REBLOG IF ITS OKAY TO TALK TO YOU.

Please.

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A Home for Spark The Dragon

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‘hilson is canon!’ i yell into the mic. everyone cheers. ‘wilson isnt gay.’ its him. robert sean leonard.

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women’s bodies weren’t “made” to do anything, nature didn’t “intend” anything, no human action is “unnatural” and there is no inherent “purpose” to a human life

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This has definitely been said before. this is just my take on it.

I cannot stress enough how important it is to have a hobby that you genuinely love.

I think nowadays it’s common to see comments like “unemployed behaviour” under posts of people doing things they like. And while it is true that in this economy work takes up a LOT of time, finding even just a couple of hours a week where you can do something you enjoy is CRUCIAL (even more so considering the mental and physical stress of working).

So (even though it has nothing to do with what i usually post/reblog about) i feel happy to say that i’ve picked up an old hobby of mine.

When i was a kid i used to play football (⚽️), but i stopped at 14 cus the team went bankrupt. At the time, that destroyed my mental health, worsening my relationship with food and sports. For years i could only think of physical activities as a way to “become fit again”, and not as something i could actually enjoy.

This kind of thinking scared me away from signing up to any other team sport, and when the football team was recreated i thought i didn’t want to join.

But this year i’ve told myself i would just try it, and if i didn’t like it i’d stop.

Long story short i’m LOVING it.

It brings me SO MUCH joy and excitement that even after a long day of work i jump out of bed to go to practice. And i realised that while i’m on the field my mind is completely free of worries and anxieties. I am simply focused on the training/game, on giving my best, but most importantly on ENJOYING MYSELF.

So let this be your sign to pick up an old abandoned hobby, or to try a new one. I don’t want to sound like a boring ol fart, but it really does make a difference.

Side note: any kind of physical activity releases dopamine, so for people with adhd (like myself) even if starting out is quite difficult, in the long run it really is worth it (it’s helped me with my depression and anxiety, and it’s given me such a boost on self confidence. I still overall have a bit of imposter syndrome with everything i do, but that has decreased as well).

And if physical activity is not for you, even an active mental one does the trick (by active i mean: painting, writing, crocheting, creating something, instead of scrolling on social media, watching tv etc).

I guess what i’m saying is take care of yourself. You are loved❤️

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Everything is Them.

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i'm back, y'all

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kill the imposter syndrome in your head because not only is there someone out there doing it worse than you, they’re also using chat gpt to do it