Update post: I have graduated and I do have a job. I went to beyoncĆ©s concert. I have a sassy cat? Two crazy ones anywyas āš and a boyfriend who is participating in my fanfiction obsessions YAY
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Finally watched Koe no Katachi (A Silent Voice)
Iād been a bit scared to watch it because I heard it got really emotional, and those are movies I tend to only watch once. Iād been dealing with random anxieties in my own life at the moment, but wanted to stay in and caved to the temptation of watching it. Below is a little review with spoilers, so if you donāt skip the rest of the post if you havenāt watched it!!
Trigger warning: this movie deals with serious issues such as suicide, anxiety, bullying, and death.
**disclaimer: this review is my opinion. Its ok to disagree with it, and to think iām wrong, or what not. I ask that you take it as a grain of salt.Ā
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Iāll start off by saying that the set up of the movie was not what Iād expected. It opened with the elementary years of our main character Ishida Shoya, and his experience meeting, and later bullying Nishimiya Shoko. Though the fictionalization of the story was pretty obvious (teachers not punishing Shoyo for disrupting the class, etc), the elements of bullying and victimization were reflective of potential real life experiences.Ā
I think the transitions between scenes were a bit difficult to follow as I was not sure whether something was dreamt by a character ( i.e, Ishida meeting Nishimiya again after so many years.) The movie was able to recover from these strange transitions with great dialogue though.
Besides its cinematic features, this film surprised me with how it portrayed teenage life and growing up. Not only does this film discuss rekindling friendship, making amends for past conflict, and growing up, but it also discusses serious topics such as suicide, anxiety, and guilt. Though the movie was frustrating to watch because of Ā how cruel Ueno was to Nishimiya, I think it provided a realistic relationship between two different people.Ā
What I really would like to discuss is the portrayal of anxiety and social anxiety throughout the film. It was not completely obvious at the beginning of the film, but Ishida suffers from social anxiety. Most likely, the anxiety developed as a result of his fall out with elementary school friends. Following the fall out, his past classmates ostracized him by spreading rumors about him, blaming him for Nishimiyaās transfer. Ishidaās coping mechanism was ignoring everyone, never looking up, and accepting his isolation. As the movie progresses, we see various characters make breakthroughs at befriending him starting with Nagatsuka.Ā
Like Iād said in the previous paragraph, Ishidaās social anxiety is not completely obvious. He he copes by treating everyone else as just a space holder. However, the bridge scene is the first clear moment where Ishidaās anxiety comes out. With his past being revealed, he crumples to the floor unable to stand. As everyone attempts to defend themselves or him, he speaks the first thing on his mind without thinking of the consequences. He succumbs to anxiety. All these moments were not completely obvious moments of social anxiety to me when i first watched the movie. I didnāt realize it until I watched the final scene.
In the last few scenes, we see Ishida practicing how heāll introduce himself at school. This occurs multiple times throughout the film, and this is a habit those suffering from social anxiety often have. He arrives to school, and is suddenly overwhelmed by it all, the crowds, the sounds, the people. He crumbles again, telling Nishimiya how he cannot look people in the eye, and about the fear he has in being surrounded by all those people. Nishinmiya helps him get through this. She guides him to his class, but immediately falls into a frenzy, a panic attack. Nagatsuka goes to his side, helping him calm down.Ā
The final scene is where we see a breakthrough for Ishida. Having asked his friends to walk around the festival with him, he has a support system for dealing with his social anxiety. As he stands in the middle of the festival, surrounded by both his peers and family, he begins to see those around him as not just space holders and judgement, but as people.
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100% agree, but iām still sad to see her go š
Looking at the comments of Jenna Marbleās apology video, I became increasingly uncomfortable with the amount of people saying sheĀ ādid nothing wrongā or that what she didĀ āwasnāt that badā. This is false. What she did was wrong and did hurt peopleās feelings. You donāt have a right to say that just because it didnāt hurt YOUR feelings.
Looking through the comments, I became increasingly uncomfortable with the amount of people claiming that āyou canāt joke about anything these daysā and āpeople are so easily offendedā. The truth is, you can joke about many things but you cannot make jokes that are racist or sexist and something about this makes you feel like YOUāRE the ones being attacked for making and laughing at those jokes and not the people those jokes are in the expense of.
Jenna Marbles has grown and continues to grow and that is part of why she is leaving YouTube, either temporarily or forever. She is filled with guilt, a guilt that has been building up. She even apologized for a video that no one had mentioned but she just felt guilty about and Iām glad for it because, while I know that she has grown and doesnāt believe statements from the past, I still remember some of the slut shaming things sheās said. I love Jenna Marbles. I love her content. I will gladly welcome her if she decides to come back to YouTube.
Know that if you are white, like I am, it is not our place to forgive her for anything racist she has said or done even if it was ~10 years ago and definitely donāt say that no one should have ever been hurt by those videos because clearly some people were hurt
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This is for you one person who commented on one of my posts like a few minutes ago that I spent ages on trying to figure out what to say but then ended up typing āit do be like that sometimesā this ones for you
Tumblr needs a feature that will enable me to ā„ļø comments.....I donāt know how to talk to people very well without sounding awkward, especially when I donāt exactly know what to say
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I sound like a boomer lmao
Family isnāt genes and DNA, Family is your discord server full of gay nerds that send each other memes
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Iāve taken asl for a year now, initally I thought this is a great way for me to communicate. Iām terribly socially anxious.
Oh how wrong I was. Did you know you can stutter in sign language too?
At least I can read panels from Hawkeye #19 lmaoooo
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Freind: Hey can I crack your neck?
Me: No
Freind: I want to be a masseuse, let me crack it. I could be like *cracks own neck* and then you would say āoh how did you do that?ā -
Me: ((lolll))
Freind: - And then Iād have to say āI cant tell you that, Iād have to crack your neck for the last timeā
Me: ...
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Lack toes and toddler ants š
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