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hey you. shrimp at the puter shrampin on your phone.

the next piece of art you see on your dash, one that you really stop for a second and go "wow thats pretty!" or "woah thats cool as hell" or "wtf how did they do that"

I want you to do this. listen to me. you're gonna go into those replies. sneak right in there. and you're gonna leave that nice little juicy comment for the artist to eat, ok? just leave it there for them to find. like a small mammal in the underbrush finding a delicious berry. that will feed them for weeks, man. just a tasty little morsel to keep them going. that's all it takes! one little bite!!!

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Here are those oc hands I was talking about :]

In order it's Matteo top left, Sylvia, Ellis and Vance. Vance's hands look like That on purpose don't worry his whole dang body is Wrong.

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Caught with you,

Somewhere between Heat and Hunger

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makin art that most people can't stand but that two dozen people think is a peerless masterpiece since 2015

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the only people allowed to steal my art without credit are mexican taquerias who handpaint it on the wall like it's goku holding a taco. the rest of y’all gotta ask

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Hey guys. I'm so sorry, trying to sell some commissions but they are not getting picked up. I am feeling a bit antsy; my dad has been experiencing some really worrying symptoms like his arm going numb, fatigue for no reason, chest pains and I have been trying to get him to go to hospital because he has had heart problems for 5 years now. Would absolutely love jf anyone can please help me foot bills because my dad refuses to go to hospital as he doesn't want to "burden" me;;

Feeling a bit anxious as my work deadline is very tight rn to the point I might lose my job if I miss it; am feeling scared and desperate. Any help I deeply appreciate as the year closes;;

Will post my print store and patreon too later; I just have to finish cleaning the house rn

Sorry anything helps and happy holidays everyone

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the ornithologist and the lady of the forest

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In some kinder place.

last piece before the new year. Thanks for surviving! Keep going.

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the evening and the morning

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also. been having a very hard week. our house was burglarized / mini invaded. no one got hurt, but my sisters iPad she uses for her online school and dad's phone got stolen, and our kitchen was semi destroyed, our rice supply was spilled everywhere and some?? eggs?? and canned stuff was stolen. After that, a family friend who was helping me with house duties got a stroke. So now I am all alone in dealing with all of this. It would be a huge mental health imrpovement, would absolutely mean the world to me if you guys can maybe help me boost my art? it's just that I love drawing and it's the only thing that's been cheering me up.

my Twitter is my "home base" and I've been posting lots of my drawings there that I don't post here, idk only if you'd like to follow ofc.

>> (link to my Twitter)

my patreon is only 1 dollar a month, and if you'd like to support me n my disabled family, through patreon would be awesome! if you'd like!

>> link to my patreon

and here is my imprnt

>> link to my imprnt

I also have three more slots of commissions on my ko-fi if you'd like to directly help.

My dad's phone has the philippine version of venmo, called "gcash", and it had about 200 usd in it that was only accessible through his phone (that got stolen).. it was for my mom's next hospital visit for her glaucoma and some grocery expenses.. so, if you'd like a custom portrait from me, I will do commissions. The automated message says the deadline is June, but full disclosure, the earliest I will be able to send a commission completed is JULY.

>> link to my commissions

mostly I just want a bigger audience for my drawings, I want to share my comics and my love for southeast asian culture, and would really really love a boost. Thank you for reading through n I hope u have a good day.

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swansea mouthwashing I dedicate this butch post to you . you'd make a great, deeply repressed butch sapphic

"you can't make every male character a butch sapphic" WRONG.

You can't.

I can because my mind is strong and capable of many beautiful things. such as butching it upppppppppppppeaaahhhhhh h hh hhh

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"you can't make every male character a butch sapphic" WRONG.

You can't.

I can because my mind is strong and capable of many beautiful things. such as butching it upppppppppppppeaaahhhhhh h hh hhh

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I want to add onto this now that I'm actually awake and not barely running on 3 hours of sleep;

Survivors of SA or any other type of trauma are not monoliths. We each can have wildly different needs or ways we process or break down or engage with the traumas we have endured.

Similar to how one persons disability needs or accommodations can at times be incompatible with another's, Trauma and Recovery can also at times be at odds with another victims needs. Therapy isn't one size fits all, after all, and that rule can and does apply here.

I believe that people can engage with media in whatever way they need - if that is through escapism, or analysis, or venting through art etc. People should be free to engage with these topics in a way that allows them to better understand what has happened to them or the subject in general.

This can be done in healthy or unhealthy ways, yes, but it isn't up to me (or you!) to police/enforce rules around a strangers media consumption/coping.

The conversations surrounding Media, Trauma, Fiction and Fandom are farrrr farrrrr too nuanced for me to break down here. There is no absolute black/white to be found, and trying to boil it down that way doesn't do justice to the topics at hand, or the victims thereof.

Someone should not have to disclose their personal and intimate traumas to justify the reasons they draw or engage with a character one way vs another.

Sometimes it simply isn't our business to have answers like that. Sometimes we need to recognize this is not a person we need to be exposing ourselves to.

The modern internet is a very, very public space.

If you recognize a dissonance or discomfort surrounding a topic or media you enjoy, it is genuinely in your best interest to simply avoid that person or group of people. Re-exposing yourself to triggering content to try and change the way other people behave is a form of self-harm in its own right, and is one I myself have fallen victim to many times over. It is not a healthy endeavor.

(Not that these anons were doing so! I just want to point that out, bc it took me a very long time to realize that. I feel these anons were good-faith attempts to discuss this, but again it is nigh impossible to have that conversation on a platform like this.)

I just want to clarify that, and emphasize that You are in no way flawed, bad, or even overreacting for having a negative association with Jimmy from Mouthwashing, or any other character, and/or the ways fandom engages with him and the cruelty he manifests in his narrative.

The woobifying of genuinely terrible characters has a long and sordid history. Being disgusted or apprehensive of art that can be portrayed or engaged with that way is completely valid!

I just want people to recognize that their personal needs surrounding how to handle his themes/actions/narrative is not the only valid way to analyze or break him down as a character. Sometimes art that reads that way to you may not actually be intended that way by the artist, or they may be working through their own stuff. That's their right as much as it is yours to avoid it.

Your needs are simply at odds with someone else's, and that is a natural and normal part of both fandom and the human experience in general. We are all shades of grey, not simple black/whites with labels we can easily adhere to.

I'll try to make this the last on this matter, fwiw!

gonna be real seeing you boil down someone else's concerns abt making light of a rapist in media as fandom drama really hurts as someone who's experienced that kind of violence first hand. the character is fictional and obviously doesnt exist. but rape victims do exist and we see when people sexualize or joke about predators. idk. i don't intend to tell you what to do, but i hope this helps maybe explain why someone else could've been startled or upset to see that on your blog. its your space you can do what you want with it. i think some media doesn't need to be fandomized or treated as yaoi fodder. maybe it can just be taken seriously and discussed with respect. i think its pretty reasonable for victims of particular types of violence to express discomfort or concern when people joke about or make light of those who perpetrate it.

I genuinely get where you are coming from, I do. But what that ask was getting at did not convey to me what you seem to have taken from it.

There's a difference between making light of/mocking/making jokes about sexual assault/rape vs drawing a character who does those things in a narrative in an unserious way. Likewise, I feel that boiling down the narrative to just be about that One Act in many, many ways does a disservice to the narrative and characters as a whole.

I'm also not understanding where exactly this is coming from, to be entirely honest.

A person can be fully capable of breaking down and analyzing Jimmy in a way that is entirely respectful while still, also, making light of other aspects or enjoying him removed from that context. Drawing a character in a goofy way doesn't mean the person is making light of Anya's SA, or even excusing it. You can ship two characters while still finding the canon actions of one absolutely despicable. These things are not mutually exclusive!

Just as you're not telling me what to do, I'm not saying you, or that other anon, or anyone else has to put up with seeing that character or engaging with media that portrays him that way, to be clear. I'm not trying to tell you that your feelings or hurt or experiences aren't valid, they clearly and very much are.

But it's not my job, or even obligation, to protect you from it. Or any other trigger, for that matter. I do what I can with tags, but that's a courtesy I try to apply when and where I can.

That's what I'm getting at here. I tagged for him and that ship so others could avoid it if they found it upsetting. The anon did not do that, so I explained my stance.

People will engage with media in ways that are upsetting to you, or ways that even disgust you. I can't stop them, I make no plans to, and if my opinions or behaviors around this are upsetting or disappointing to you, if I endanger you or anyone by behaving this way, it is in your best interest to block me and have a safer and less stressful experience online. Those tools are readily available for that very reason.

I know far too many others who have also experienced that kind of violence, family included. I know the frustration and hurt of making light of that kind of thing, and how it can and does impact others.

But this is not that.

If, however, you feel it is, that's your right! I can't tell you how to engage with anything, nor do I intend to. I cannot change my space to fit your needs, and I'm genuinely sorry if that makes you feel unsafe or upset. I'm not trying to make light SA or the victims thereof.

I'm trying to, as best as I can, explain that policing how others engage with a fandom and its characters simply does not and cannot work. That isn't "fandom drama" - it's the psychology of humans and the media they connect with. Humans are complicated creatures, and our needs and interests vary wildly.

There is no monolithic way to demand others engage with a source material, and attempting to do so does more harm to you than that effort is worth. I hope you and that other anon can have a less upsetting day/night/etc - again, I'm sorry if this is frustrating to hear, but I fear this is an impasse we simply won't agree on in this way.

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gonna be real seeing you boil down someone else's concerns abt making light of a rapist in media as fandom drama really hurts as someone who's experienced that kind of violence first hand. the character is fictional and obviously doesnt exist. but rape victims do exist and we see when people sexualize or joke about predators. idk. i don't intend to tell you what to do, but i hope this helps maybe explain why someone else could've been startled or upset to see that on your blog. its your space you can do what you want with it. i think some media doesn't need to be fandomized or treated as yaoi fodder. maybe it can just be taken seriously and discussed with respect. i think its pretty reasonable for victims of particular types of violence to express discomfort or concern when people joke about or make light of those who perpetrate it.

I genuinely get where you are coming from, I do. But what that ask was getting at did not convey to me what you seem to have taken from it.

There's a difference between making light of/mocking/making jokes about sexual assault/rape vs drawing a character who does those things in a narrative in an unserious way. Likewise, I feel that boiling down the narrative to just be about that One Act in many, many ways does a disservice to the narrative and characters as a whole.

I'm also not understanding where exactly this is coming from, to be entirely honest.

A person can be fully capable of breaking down and analyzing Jimmy in a way that is entirely respectful while still, also, making light of other aspects or enjoying him removed from that context. Drawing a character in a goofy way doesn't mean the person is making light of Anya's SA, or even excusing it. You can ship two characters while still finding the canon actions of one absolutely despicable. These things are not mutually exclusive!

Just as you're not telling me what to do, I'm not saying you, or that other anon, or anyone else has to put up with seeing that character or engaging with media that portrays him that way, to be clear. I'm not trying to tell you that your feelings or hurt or experiences aren't valid, they clearly and very much are.

But it's not my job, or even obligation, to protect you from it. Or any other trigger, for that matter. I do what I can with tags, but that's a courtesy I try to apply when and where I can.

That's what I'm getting at here. I tagged for him and that ship so others could avoid it if they found it upsetting. The anon did not do that, so I explained my stance.

People will engage with media in ways that are upsetting to you, or ways that even disgust you. I can't stop them, I make no plans to, and if my opinions or behaviors around this are upsetting or disappointing to you, if I endanger you or anyone by behaving this way, it is in your best interest to block me and have a safer and less stressful experience online. Those tools are readily available for that very reason.

I know far too many others who have also experienced that kind of violence, family included. I know the frustration and hurt of making light of that kind of thing, and how it can and does impact others.

But this is not that.

If, however, you feel it is, that's your right! I can't tell you how to engage with anything, nor do I intend to. I cannot change my space to fit your needs, and I'm genuinely sorry if that makes you feel unsafe or upset. I'm not trying to make light SA or the victims thereof.

I'm trying to, as best as I can, explain that policing how others engage with a fandom and its characters simply does not and cannot work. That isn't "fandom drama" - it's the psychology of humans and the media they connect with. Humans are complicated creatures, and our needs and interests vary wildly.

There is no monolithic way to demand others engage with a source material, and attempting to do so does more harm to you than that effort is worth. I hope you and that other anon can have a less upsetting day/night/etc - again, I'm sorry if this is frustrating to hear, but I fear this is an impasse we simply won't agree on in this way.

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No idea if you've actually played the game but jimmy from mouthwashing, the guy in the yaoi fan art you rbed, is a rapist like the entire game is about him raping a woman

...Okay, gonna answer this as best I can, but it has been a Long Day and I am Very Tired so. Bear with me.

I have indeed watched through an entire playthrough of Mouthwashing! It's a really good game, very well made, and there's a lot to dig into w/r/t how the characters are represented and the struggles each have to deal with. There was a lot of care put into that game and it shows through every part of it.

As for Jimmy. He's a well written character with, arguably, whole lot more to dig into and understand than "This piece of shit sexually assaulted another person". Don't get me wrong - he IS a massive piece of shit. I'm not here to defend Jimmy or his actions in the game.

But - and I feel this is something fandom as a whole tends to disagree with, and is why I rarely if Ever participate in fandom -People can and do enjoy shitty, horrible, irredeemable characters for more than just the actions they actively take within a narrative. That includes what-ifs, hypothetical alternatives, breaking down the motivations of one to better understand what went wrong and why....etc.

Sometimes, though, people just love guys who suck. I don't know what else to tell you. They're allowed to like what other people hate. Liking fictional shitty things doesn't immediately make you a real life shitty person.

I'm not here to police how someone plays around with a fictional character. I'm not here to tell anyone how they can or can't engage with a cast of fictional characters no matter what the source material represents. If I don't like it, I'll block the tags, the person, etc and curate my space.

I appreciate this if it was a genuine attempt to inform me of the source material and it's context, but if this was anything else, I suggest you block his character tags, or me in general if you disagree with this approach.

No harm, No foul, but I suspect you won't like the way I handle fandom or media in general.

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everyone go tell my friend to keep drawing these two for the love of god

the crash wouldn't have happened if these two had just vented their feelings hard nasty style

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Croutons' Medical Bills + Preventative Care GoFundMe!!! ($907/$4000 CAD)

GoFundMe | PayPal | Ko-Fi

On 11/5/2024 I had to bring Croutons' in to the vet due to a urinary blockage from a build up of crystals. The very next day we had to return to the vet where he was admitted and stayed from 11/6/2024 to 11/8/2024 where he recievced a urinary catheter to help flush his system. The very next day (11/9/2024) after watching him strain to pee and be in pain we brought him back again.

We were told that he was most likely blocked again - they'd given him an ultrasound and found there were far less crystals, and upon giving him an xray couldn't find anything blocking it. Because he was in pain and there was a huge risk of him continuing to reblock so we had to make a choice; Either we drain his bladder and take him home with some heavy sedatives in hopes that its spasms that can be relaxed... or we say goodbye. We chose to take him home.

That same night (11/9 -11/10) we stayed up with him until 11 am and cheered him on every single time he was able to pee. I slept 3 hours to stay up with him the rest of the 10th - 3am on the 11th with success!! He has been peeing with more consistently with less and less straing with more and more pee each time! He's been staying hydrated thanks to his cat fountain. We're not out of the woods 100% yet.

Around 400$ is still needed to cover the remaining vet bills ($3010) And right now the 4k is going to be used to for any possible emergency visits, check ups, medication, food, and other preventative care!

Thank you all for the support so far!