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The grave of feelings , hopes and life within me craves the graveyards,

Where I sit, breathe and pretend to live.

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Just read The Choice by Nicholas Sparks and got my mind blown as I entered the part two of the book , boy was tht unexpcted, damn.

"There were moments when it honestly seemed as if the world were conspiring against her."

DON'T YOU JUST FEEL THIS IN YOUR SOUL , BODY , HEART WHTEVRR U HAVR?????

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ALMOST A YEAR AND I WANT THE SAME THING YET.

So basically i can hear all the crap that humans speak and i can't understnd when a dog calls me by sm name or just asks to get out of his way and stop staring? OKAY . FINE.

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The neverending desire to yearn for something but not knowing what, ultimately leading to a yearning for yearn itself🤌🏼

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How do you find people? Genuine people who won't judge your pimples , your weight , your laughter , your reclusive nature , your depressed phases , your infatuation with fictional men , your choice of songs , and the whole you???

Um. Probably in a mirror?

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Is there an epitaph writer? Like how does this wrk? Who writes the epitaphs? Its just inscribed ? There should be a professional epitaph writer and imagine his life. He gets to know about the dead from the people who are crying , maybe sm people aren't quite prepared about wht words do they want to write on the tomb so they keep going on about the person , some bodies might not have any people who knows them , so the epitaph writer will just write a quote or smthing about the day or smthing and think about it at night and some might just be too prepared maybe with a chit of sm sort with the things written and they l just hand it to him quietly.

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Well its not tht bad.It didnt turn out to be the end of the world.

NO. THE WRLD DID NOT END. THAT S THE PRBLM. I AM STILL FREAKING ALIVE.

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I dont have a phase in life , my life is a phase in this infinite universe.

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If the "travel -time " is the only time you have to yourself then you are officially a part of this chaotic world.

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Highlight of my day :

I got to know a new word through a stranger , 'saudade' which is actually a portugese untranslatable word meaning 'melancholic longing or yearning ' or 'presence of absence' and I am convinced that this word was exactly what was missing from my life.

The person has no idea that this word is actually going to be one of the reasons for my existence.

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Winston Churchill once said , " if you are going through hell , keep going. " And i have never felt more alive.

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The only certain thing in life is death.

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If the whole world was watching , I 'd still dance with you.

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A shoutout to my unknown Friends who have no idea how peaceful and happy they've mde me feel.

▪︎A few days ago , I was stuck in parkstreet while it was raining heavily and was actually flooded and I was soaking wet with water literally dripping from me and I was a mess when this stranger gave me the most decent smile and consoling look while offering to share his umbrella with me. I wonder if he knows that I ain't forgetting him for the rest of my life and that his gesture was one of the sweetest things that has ever happened to me .

▪︎I was once having a bad day and some stranger called me regarding some work and he strted off with a "Hi , how are you today ?" , alll these emotions rushed inside of me and it is not everyday that somebody asks this question , unknowingly he made me be a bit more kind to myself.

▪︎Back in class 10 , while returning from school I bumped into a girl who was going for her examination and was tensed as anything , all i could do was wish her best of luck , which I did and she reciprocated with the best tensed smile and a Thank you. Made me feel seen.

▪︎Back in class 12 I had joined tuitions , which I used to hate going to since it involved me getting out of my bed , but i met these two adorable dogs worth everything. They used to play and figh and chill near the building i went to and seeing them twice a week had become the highlight of my life for those few months. There were times when i just went so that I could look at them , make their videos and be the happiest I could ever be .

▪︎In 2019, my bestfriend and I were on our way when we met this old lady who found us worthy enough to share her problems with. Talking to her taught us a lot of life lessons we hardly would have learned otherwise. I hope she is in a better place now. Amen.

▪︎Back in class 11 , I had to give a speech on stage and somehow i started off by making eye contact with this unknown guy and I maintained that eye contact and that guy was decent and kind enough to do the same , infact he had that friendly consoling kinda expression and didnt do anything to distract me and smiled when i finished. I have no idea who he was and i doubt if he knew me but he had my heart for the day and will never be forgotten.

▪︎ A fee days back I replied to a girl's comment under some post and she replied with just 2 3 lines but those lines made me feel so important , worthy and seen.

It might be that these may seem as something really common but these aren't common to me at all. These people have made me feel emotions i never knew i had and i am not exxagerating. They've been a friend to me , even if it was for a few seconds. I m sure i have more but this is all i could come up with for now.

Happy Friendship Day ♡

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Finding an Escape room is easy only if you know what you wanna escape.

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Okay here is something people tend to overlook or misunderstand.

Respect and fear are two completely different things. You need to respect your parents , you need not fear them.

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Okay lets talk about why aren't we humans capable of showing love and normalising it. Like no i am not in love wid you or I am not interested in you romantically , i just adore you as a person and i respect you and I want you to be happy and I pray for you and I find your soul amazing.

Why can't we normalise this????? You know what's stopping us???? US. (Not the United States lmao.)