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late valentines repost lmao

now with

Sherliam🔎

Hualian💍 🦋

Beefleaf 🍃 🌊

Happy Valentines day! it's almost over and i don't have any fun posts made already cause i’ve been super busy so heres just all of my ship playlist lmao

Satosugu🖤🤍

Satosugu but only Mitski 🤍🖤

Obamitsu🐍💞

Soukoku🥃🍷

Ranpoe🤎🖋️

Vanoe ⌛️🎩

Togachako🩸🩷

Eruri☕️🗡️

i also have a Hannigram + Hannigram but only The Nbhd, Symbrock, and Aziracrow ones on my account. I just only wanted to link my anime ones🫶

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Little something

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STORMBRINGER MANGA TODAY AND I WAS RIGHT !!! MY SILLY DREAM RANT ACTUALLY GOT IY RIGHT

A LONG POST ABOUT CHUUYA DREAMING BECAUSE WHY NOT

i know it’s already a popular belief that he does dream but i still see things saying he doesn’t every now and then so here’s my reasoning on why he does

but TLDR: chuuya does dream, he just can’t remember them bc of trauma

So first-

“It's unlikely that people never dream. It's far more likely to have issues with REM sleep, memory recall, or other sleep disturbances” and pairing that with this SB quote

and considering that 16 year old Chuuya only has 8 years worth of memories with the 8 years he doesn't remember being full of pain and suffering, it’s not unlikely his brain has just blocked it all out

Freud believed that the unconscious expresses itself in dreams as a way of resolving repressed or unwanted emotions. Our brain is essentially working out problems while we sleep. and, still talking about SB Chuuya, he has 8 years worth of pain to work out.

and even tho he isn't in that environment (the lab) anymore he still works in a very stressful setting. adding his sheep days and new pm job to those missing years he only has memories of pain and suffering for his brain to work through. there's lots of theories on the actual /purpose/ of dreams.

"Dreams are used to regulate emotion, like dealing with fears; to consolidate memory, replaying things from your day to help remember them; to solve, or on the other hand to forget, real-world problems”

continuing my point from above, think about the emotions he would have to regulate, the fears he'd have to deal with, and the memories that would be replayed. In addition to impacting our sleep quality and quantity, trauma can have an impact on our dreams.

“PTSD sufferers often wake from sleep with the covers torn off, or may even find themselves on the floor. Some remember in precise detail what they've dreamt; while others wake with no memory of a dream”

Now I know it's not canon but i refuse to believe a character like Chuuya doesn't have PTSD and as stated here it's common for people with PTSD to either vividly remember dreams, or not remember them at all.

A quote from SB i thought was cool

He woke up and had clearly experienced some strong emotion. and going back to the PTSD point as well as the fact that dreams work out memories he very well could have been dreaming of N, or anytime in the 8 years he has no memories. So when he woke up from such a distressing dream, obviously he was sweating and worked up.

All of this is mostly focused on SB/16 yr old Chuuya but I think it's likely Chuuya still goes through this.

The lab, the Sheep, the Port Mafia, he's never had /fun/ memories your average person would have. So even though he is happier and better now he still has a high stress job where he loses people and get's hurt often.

Long story short, chuuya does dream lmao.

OKAY THATS ALL at the small chance someone is still reading ty! i hope this made sense😭 and like i said i know this isn’t a new thought, most chuuya fans believe he does dream, but i had to share

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"The Lobster" as vanoe !!

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WE FUCKING WON

yutamaki kaisen is so real

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again this year

so how’s everyone’s day going

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Stsg + Mitski lyrics ✨

“they’ll never know how i’d stared at the dark in that room, with no thoughts, like a blood-sniffing shark”

“i wish you could take me upstate to the little place you would tell me about”

“it’s been you and me since before i was me. without you, i don’t yet know quite how to live”

“and all the quiet nights you bear, seal them up with care. no one needs to know they’re there for i will hold them for you”

“i know that i ended it but why won’t you chase after me?”

“i don’t blame you if you want to bury me in your memory, i’m not the girl i ought to be

but maybe when you tell your friends you can tell them what you saw in me and not how i turned out to be”

here’s a playlist dedicated to them told by mitski

PT 2

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“you’re my best friend, now i’ve no one to tell how i lost my best friend”

“you believe me like a god, i destroy you like i am.

i’m sorry i’m the one you love, no one will ever love me like you again

so when you leave i should die. i deserve it, don’t i?”

“your low warm voice curses as you find the strength to strike within me that rings out a note heard in heaven”

“you know i’d always been alone till you taught me to live for somebody.

that love is like a star. it’s gone, we just see it shining cause it travelled very far. keep a leftover light burning so you can keep looking up.”

(PT 1 of this for anyone interested)

(and if anyone’s interested here’s a playlist as well as just a normal stsg playlist)

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sherliam with songs from my sherliam playlist

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“i wanna pinch his cheeks and give him hard candy from my purse” - me describing to my friend how much i love louis

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i’m experiencing so many emotions rn i can’t even process them all

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yutamaki kaisen is so real

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still in shock the family ever is back together again

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~ooops~

it was awkward

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JJK 268 SPOILERS

ITAFUSHIKUGI ARE BACK!! MY FAMILY IS ALIVE AND HAPPY!! IM SOBBING

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I've recently read Stormbringer and it's done things to me. I also Really wanna see it animated

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Yaoi so toxic they circled back to being extremely compatible