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EmoCanvas - Blind

The season of receiving gifts is Christmas. A broken heart was the gift I received from the man I love. For two Christmases straight, I deserve as I was blind to the red flats?

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EmoCanvas - Pain

Everytime I thought of you I remembered what I received

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EmoCanvas - Crushed

My heart is still piercing, and I have occupied myself so my heart will not wonder to the place of hurt.

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Emocanvas - Price I paid

I felt my heart was skewed. I'm going through a numbing phase. I can't blame someone who doesn't love me enough. After all, this year, I have adapted to let you be free. And this is my cost a year of pain.

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EmoCanvas - when it end

It’s a pity that I didn’t become your preference and exception, but you became my love that I had to regret.

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Emocanvas - CRUSHED

My mind is heavy, and my heart is sad. I went strong and naive to love someone, and in return, I have none. I left with confusion about why I missed the mark and a humiliated smack on my face my inability to receive love. Why am I defending it and still pursuing it unceasingly? Was was i trying to prove something, or does this diminish my self-worth? Did I fail badly for not getting what I wanted? I felt hurt, betrayal, and a head full of gaslight.

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EmoCanvas - Not getting it.

I always get what I wanted. When I don't get my way, it's usually because I stopped wanting it a long time ago or I didn't really want it.

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Emocanvas - When I get broken

I owe myself this. I hold back my tears from falling. Press my lips tight and hold in the pain; breathe deeply through my nose, plaster part of my heart that was still hurting and breaking. I forgive myself and give myself time. I read books to wash my mind, I write to express and straighten my entangled heart, and I paint to calm my anxious heart. I sleep to calm my racing nerves, and I create to make me smile again. I put myself back together, piece by piece..