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Good morning! I’m salty.

I think we, as a general community, need to start taking this little moment more seriously.

This, right here? This is asking for consent. It’s a legal necessity, yes, but it is also you, the reader, actively consenting to see adult content; and in doing so, saying that you are of an age to see it, and that you’re emotionally capable of handling it.

You find the content you find behind this warning disgusting, horrifying, upsetting, triggering? You consented. You said you could handle it, and you were able to back out at any time. You take responsibility for yourself when you click through this, and so long as the creator used warnings and tags correctly, you bear full responsibility for its impact on you.

“Children are going to lie about their age” is probably true, but that’s the problem of them and the people who are responsible for them, not the people that they lie to.

If you’re not prepared to see adult content, created by and for adults, don’t fucking click through this. And if you do, for all that’s holy, don’t blame anyone else for it.

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tfw you describe an experience to your friend trying to be relatable and they say “dude,,, are you good?”

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I took to many when I had a bad allergic reaction, (at the time I didn’t know what was causing my reactions. Still don’t to this day sadly), and I swear I saw monsters before passing out. I had nightmares but couldn’t wake up until, (which I assume), the drugs wore off. This is something you should take only once and if you’re still in pain or have allergies ask your doctor for something else. Don’t get high off of these that’s so dangerous.

Benadryl, when taken in high volume, causes hallucinations so vivid they are indistinguishable from reality. - weird, interesting & funny facts

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Yesssssssss

This is probably how that particular convo went down, right?

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LGBTQ+ Manga Series ‘Love Me for What I Am’ To be Published in English

Yesterday, Seven Seas Entertainment announced that they had licensed the LGBT+ manga series Love Me For What I Am (Fukakai na Boku no Subete o) by Konayama Kata. This manga includes characters of multiple LGBTQ+ identities, including the central character Mogumo, who is non-binary.

Iwaoka Tetsu notices that his classmate, Mogumo, is often alone at school. Want to help Mogumo make some new friends, Tetsu invites them to work at his family’s cross-dressing maid café. However, Mogumo is not a boy or a girl, but non-binary. Soon the character meets the LGBTQ+ people from all walks of live and diverse identities that run the café and begins to learn their stories. This compelling series explores gender, sexuality, and the ways society pressures people into conformity.

The manga has been serialized on Comic MeDu since 2018. Two volumes have been published in Japanese by GOT Corporation. Readers can look forward to experiencing this queer series when volume 1 releases in English digitally and in print on Jun 9, 2020.

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diferent style…

same gay shit…

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thank you for being here for us ♡

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School Judgment Pt. 2

So a few days ago I broke down in my class. If you haven’t seen my first post you can look at it on my profile. Either way in my massage class me and Diva, a girl who I don’t like and is only a couple of years older than me, got into a heated debate. We were talking about if video games were a sport. I said yes and she said no, which is fine everyone has their own opinions. So our teacher made us state our case in a “friendly” debate.

This debate was anything but friendly. I stated my case and told my points. Then Diva goes on and tells her side, then she goes on saying, “Gamers don’t even do anything, they aren’t healthy, they’re fat, and all they do is move their fingers.”

I felt offended because I am a gamer, not a professional one but just for fun, but it was offense to me. I do have friends that are professional gamers and yes there are some who happen to be unhealthy but there are others who are healthy. There are so many different type of gamers but she just used stereotypes about gamers and that made me angry. She claims she’s a MMA fighter. She claims she works out and trains and that she also has a personal trainer who comes to her. So she claims. I don’t know if it true or not but these are all claims. She says she fights professionally and has beaten up people. Who knows maybe she has and maybe she hasn’t but she is not only a rude woman she acts like if she’s a gangster. I know this for a fact that she did not live in the ghetto, she did not live a poor life, she didn’t live a life where she needed to be a ganster or a thug or anything. She’s a fake girl who acts like she’s owns everything. She’s also a mother, and I don’t have children yet but I know that being a mother is hard. And it’s good that she came back to school for her kid, that’s amazing. But that doesn’t give her the right to put down people.

Going back to the debate, I told her, “You do realize there’s more than just “moving your fingers”. People move their body. They use certain muscles in order to move their fingers. They tighten their muscles when they play. Just like other sports.”

She just kept being ignorant and continued to say, “No that doesn’t count,” or “It’s not that hard.” And it continued like that for a while. I kept stating my argument but I didn’t care if she agreed or not but I wanted her to understand why. She continued to be closed minded and when I kept making points she said, “You don’t even know anything child.”

Now I this pissed me off.

Diva doesn’t know me. She doesn’t know what I went through in my childhood. She doesn’t know what I suffer from. She doesn’t know and she doesn’t have any right to call me a child. She got drunk and decided to drive. She got pulled over and went to jail for it. That was irresponsible and overalluc dumb. She even said, “I don’t care it was fun and on my bucket list.” Really? Going to jail? Almost getting killed? Almost killing someone’s? Getting your lisence suspended? I don’t think that’s fun or something that should be on your bucket list. She has no right to call me a child when she left her home and her husband who didn’t hurt her at all, traveled to another state, started partying like nothing, getting pregnant by anothern man her first year in another new state, not even getting a divorce yet, living with her baby daddy when she still has a husband in her birth state, and drinking and partying still while her baby is sick and needs therapy. It’s fine to have fun, it’s fine to let loose once in a while, but her main job is her kid. And she is acting like a teenager who doesn’t have any responsibties.

Who’s the real child?

Now I know I shouldn’t have said what I said but I got mad. I called her a dumbass. I was just so mad because ever since I met her, she has shown me anything but respect. She doesn’t have to like me but as her fellow classmate she owes me at least some respect because I have shown her respect and I welcomed her to my class and I tried to be nice. But all she does is belittle me, tell me that I know nothing, and acts like all my opinions are invalid. I do not like her.

Once I called her a dumbass my teacher ended the debate. And she went on teaching again but I...I couldn’t hold my temper anymore. I hide my feeling a lot. I bottle them up because I don’t like causing a scene but that child comment just pushed me over the edge. I felt my heart pound so hard I thought I was going to scream. So I excused myself and went to bathroom. I had a panic attack and I couldn’t breath. I managed to text my one of my best friends “SOS” and she instantly called me and calmed me down. She knew what was going on and how the girl has been being mean to me. Thankfully I’m fine now. She told me she believed the girl is a bully and I should tell my teacher that I shouldn’t work with Diva anymore and how she is affecting my work.

I did tell my teacher and she said she’d talk to her. I like my teacher, even though we don’t agree on everything, but I called Bullshit. I don’t know if she ever talked to her but my teacher even said we were both in the wrong. I told her about everything Diva has done to me and she said “yeah but you called her dumbass,” and I told her, “she called me a child and put me down. I know I shouldn’t have called her that but I was just protecting myself.” Still I felt her judging me.

I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to report it to my teachers boss but I don’t know if Diva will change. I’m almost done with the program, I graduate in February 2019. I don’t want to move classes because I go at night and it works for me because I go to another school in the day. I just I don’t want to have another panic attack. I don’t want to cry in that class. I don’t want to be bullied again. But I don’t know what to do anymore.

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School Judgement Pt. 1

So I go to two different school in the morning and at night and I don’t drink coffee a lot. I drink a cup coffee like every three to four weeks minimum to maybe every two weeks max. Unless someone buys me a coffee then I drink it but normally I don’t drink coffee. Coffee also makes me sleepy which is another reason why I don’t drink it. Point is I don’t drink coffee a lot. Well in my morning class at my first school, my teacher is chill about us having drinks because it’s from 8:00am to 10:00am class, and since it’s college he knows it’s a lot to get to school with parking, traffic, and it’s early in the morning. He lets us have our breakfast and drinks because he knows it’s early and it’s fine as long as we don’t make a mess and clean up. But when I go to my second school at night, here is where the problems start.

My night teacher has this rule where she doesn’t like energy drinks, juice in a can or bottle, soda, gum, or junk food. Mostly anything unhealthy she forbids it in class. She does allow water, coffee and tea but she lets us bring “fresh” juice but she knows a lot of us can’t afford healthy dinners so junk food is okay but not soda. I bring juice in can though because that’s what I can afford. She lets it pass but every god and goddess forbid that we bring in soda. I happen to be a soda person, I know it’s not healthy but I prefer it over coffee and tea since I’m not a tea person. Same goes for coffee, like I rather drink coffee than tea, it’s just my prefrence and that’s fine. I don’t judge people who drink tea over coffee and soda because that’s what they like and that’s fine. She says she’s accepting but I know she is judging me. She was very nice to me on the beginning when I started her class but once she got to know me and I got to know her, I could tell that we weren’t going to agree on everything. And that’s fine that we don’t agree, no one has to agree on everything. Yet what sucked is that two new people joined our class. (I’m going to be using fake names to respect their privacy.) The first person to join our class was a girl, we’ll call her Diva. She is a nice person but she’s very pushy. She calls herself a “rebel” and acts like she’s all that. She even went to jail for drunk driving and said her experience was fun and that it was on her bucket list. Going to jail shouldn’t be on your bucket list and she’s a mom to a very sick but pretty baby girl. She shouldn’t have done that but the point is she acts like what she’s doing is right. Now the second new student is a guy, let’s call him James. He’s an okay guy and we got along for a while. He does yoga and he’s more on the thinking logical and science spectrum. And the class is a massage therapy class so yes there is science to it, but our teacher promotes a more natural way of “healing” people. And so he questions a lot of the things we do, which is fine but he expects an answer for everything. He even got into a debate on vaccines because my teacher didn’t vaccinate her daughter because she’s against them. But either way Diva and James are both very healthy I guess and are active in a way. Which works with my teacher who used to be very very active and flexible and healthy. She’s still healthy but she’s an older woman now so her healthy is different from my classmates healthy.

With that said, I’m the fat girl in my class. And I’m not just saying that so people can be like “oh you’re not fat” or trying to get those type of comments. I’m around 200 pounds and I’m 5’1. I’m a very big girl. I’ve accepted that and I know I should lose some weight, and I do struggle with weight all the time. I know that. I have tried diets, exercise, and a lot of things but things get in the way and I just can’t do them anymore. I have a lot of problems emotionally and I’m working on them. I also have sleeping problems, which college student doesn’t, but I’ve had them since I was a baby, so I struggle with that too. Also I’m kinda flexiable but I have a knee problem that I’ve had since birth so it limits me a lot. I know I have a lot of problems but with all said and don’t I still like doing massages because it helps people relax and helps them feel better after a long day of work. That’s why I want to be a massage therapist, in order to help people.

Back to the topic in hand, coffee. My teacher drinks coffee and so does Diva. I’ve seen them drink coffee like maybe three to four times a week. They even say they drink a lot of coffee. Well tonight with the weather and time, it’s getting darker and colder so I went to a fast food restaurant to get coffee. But since I don’t like extremely hot coffee, I got a iced and hot coffee so while I drank the iced one, the hot one can get cooled enough for me to drink. So I went to class and took the coffees with me and in the beginning no one said anything. Then towards like the middle of class James asked why I was drinking two coffees. I explained that I don’t like extremely hot coffee but I was tired and in order to not fall asleep in class I got an iced one while the hot one cooled off. Then my teacher said, “This is why you have sleeping problems.” I just looked at her confused and surprised because I don’t drink a lot of coffee and she knows that. And I even said, “I don’t drink a lot of coffee. In fact this is the first time I’ve drank two different coffees.” And she just gave me a judgemental look. You know the look that people give when they don’t believe you and think you’re bullshiting. That’s the look she gave me. I felt hurt because I’ve been going through a lot in my life and I’ve revealed personal stuff to her before because I felt like I could trust her but the look she gave me, I just felt worthless. She said, “Why don’t you just drink water then.” I told her, “I’ve been drinking water all day and that I have two water bottles on my bag to drink too.” And she jut kept giving me that look and I felt like I was an outcast. Diva brings energy drinks even though she isn’t suppose to, she doesn’t get called out or gets judged. I bring two coffees one time and suddenly this is the reason I’m having all these problems. Either way she said, “water is better.” And I didn’t want to deal with her anymore so I just shrugged and said, “I wanted coffee.” She then went on how that is the reason I don’t sleep and I can’t focus and all the time she’s talking no one stood up for me. My classmates just judged me and I felt so alone. It’s only four of us including the teacher so it’s basically three against one.

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I just went home after class and cried in my room because I was critized and judged when I was supposably in a “safe space”. I felt so worthless and powerless. Everyone was against me. I’m alone in that class. I don’t talk to anyone and I’ve been smiling a lot less now. My friends want me to get out of the class but the school is already expensive and I only have a few more months left, I finish in February, and I really want to become a massage therapist already. I don’t know if I should confront my teacher or not. I’ve kept quiet for so long but I feel like I’m ready to explode. I thought my depression and anxiety would have lessen in college but I fear that I’m getting worse. I thought I was finally getting better but now I feel like my world is crashing and I’m drowning in it.