endophobias

[endophobias]

It’d be kinda funny if I seriously came back to this blog, but it’s still tainted to me and I love my new niche on tumblr very much. 

But for the many, many anons I’ve seen of people asking me if I’m alive and whatnot...well, endophobias is back, baby! Kind of! 

For a life update, I’ve been adopted after being taken from the custody of my biological parents. I live with my biological cousin and her husband now. My family’s expanded to include the wonderful Hermes and her relatives too. Linden has been dormant for quite some time now, and in our therapy for DID we’ve moved past terminology for roles like “host” and “protector.” We’ve gained friends, we’ve lost friends, but in the end...it was life, and it was beautiful, and it was worth it. 

If you ever want to reach us, our new blog is @thomasthetankengine. I’d love to chat and reconnect with all the friends we used to have here. 

May your oceans be calm and your day be bright. 

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I really hope your system is able to get the irl help you need to deal with what happened, you didnt deserve whats happening and i hope if you do charge j-at it works in your favour!

hey its hermes from @blizzardphobe!! ive relayed this message to lindens system and theyre all very grateful for messages like this. the reason im answering and not them is cuz they moved off of tumblr

im going to use this message to provide a little update since. i actually know these guys offline 

more specifically. theyre out of their abusive parents custody and live with my grandparents now. temporarily. theyre going to be with a relative when the school year ends. so right now, theyre in a position where they can absolutely get irl help with any of this stuff. if they were still on tumblr lmao. since my familys poor and i dont know the economic situation of their relatives its safe to assume j-at will unfortunately not be charged over this

lindens gone dormant but. the rest of the system still wishes to keep the evidence against j-at online and even make it more accessible for the sake of receipts

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‘Moral obligation’ yeah ur real cute

hey, its hermes! from @blizzardphobe! anyways, linden made that post a while ago. like a long while ago. i dont know who reblogged it to make yall see it in your feeds now

secondly, linden went dormant. hes no longer fronting and experiencing the world cuz of yall. so, pardon my french, but fuck you 

can yall finally fuck off now? are you done? is your sick fantasy of hurting children fulfilled? 

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I Live

I know, I’ve been gone a while. I don’t even remember how long I’ve quit tumblr but I’ll blame my DID for that. 

I can assure you all that I’m alive and not physically endangering myself. Of course, I still have other issues that may endanger me, but I’d prefer I don’t discuss them here. 

A lot of my frustration and fear over this suicide discourse has since died down...but I still feel unsafe on this account. I’ve said too much about myself. I’ve dealt with violent, predatory harassment for weeks. I don’t want this blog anymore.

But I can’t and shouldn’t delete this.

I have a moral obligation to keep this blog up as a way for people to know the truth about just-antithings. That they are abusive, a harasser, and have encouraged their follows and friends to send me gore and porn. That they have no remorse and would prefer their accusers die rather than face facts and self-improve at the very least. Do not stop talking about this, is the one thing I ask of you. I do not want to be swept under the rug; I do not want to have fought and discoursed in vain. I do not want my abuser to feel they have gotten away with ruining my life nor do I want them to have the confidence to ruin anyone else’s life. 

I’ve been a healthier person without tumblr, in all honesty. The toxicity that’s built up here is fatal. There’s abusers in so many people it terrifies me. So after this post, I won’t be active anymore. I’m keeping the url, but if Hermes decides to give it to a system that’s fine.

Bye folks

-Linden

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It's interesting that you hate endos but also hate truscum? When truscum is the same concept, just with trans ppl

hi its hermes im singlet and im here to handle the situation and linden and his system are not here and i dont know how to answer so. this is a very bad time to ask this lmao

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Whats wrong with blocking? Literally the only prople who complain about that shit are people who are annoyed that they can't harrass their victims anymore.

lindens been trying to get an apology from j-at for exploiting his suicide attempt but j-ats an abusive freak with no remorse over the shit she pulled. the blocking showed she wont even do the absolute minimum to fix anything 

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hi its hermes from @marvelphobes 

linden invited me to this blog cuz he got too overwhelmed by all the hate hes received. specifically, dms of images of gore and real penises. yep, yallve been sending a fucking kid penises cuz hes got a reason to be mad at your ‘uwu unproblematic fav @just-antithings uwu’

ive meet linden offline now and. i got to say i honestly would kill a man for him. hes a brilliant, creative guy with a lot of great ideas and love for the world. and its sad and fucked up that yall keep hurting and hurting him when all he wanted here was his fucking dignity and a sincere apology 

i am not sure if or when lindens coming back to this blog or to tumblr. he doesnt feel physically safe on this website. 

so, i have something to say to @just-antithings and all the other anti antis involved:

congratulations, you won! who cares that a kid was sent gore, dick pics, and death threats? who cares that said kid was hospitalized during this shit cuz he was suicidal again? who cares that said kid has fucking flashbacks to this suicide discourse more than his own fucking suicide attempt? you anti antis dont give a fuck about real people. you only want anyone who is rightfully pissed at you dead. it fucking shows and its showing right now with whats happened to linden

im staying here to answer anons. if any of you fuckers want to try to fix shit dm @cowpokeetagspeople

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You referencing your own discourse in your title might actually be the most tumblr cringe thing I've seen in a while

And I thought tumblr cringe was anti antis insisting I blocked just-antithings when it turns out it's most likely the other way around.

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i did some research on whether not @endophobias could successfully sue @just-antithings and its a yes its absolutely possible 

for one, id assume its for emotional damages. considering that tain was hospitalized cuz of how emotionally distraught the suicide situation had made him, there is undeniable evidence of extreme emotional distress 

there also has to be a logical reasoning behind the emotional distress. cuz tain had documented the process of the suicide situation, from the lack of decent apologies to the harassment he received from just-antithings followers to the dates of when things were posted and sent, there is a plethora of evidence of just-antithings being the reasonable, primary cause of the emotional distress 

im rather close with the lawyer who represented my dad, and when tain first made the lawsuit threat, i screenshotted and printed all the evidence i could and asked for his perspective. while lawsuits were not his particular area of expertise he did remark that due to the situations current trend, a court case could absolutely be a solution 

id personally say that a lawsuit should be considered if its affordable and it gets to that extreme. i hope anti antis stop dismissing the severity of @just-antithings actions. keep in mind—this is a real person who was hospitalized, harassed, and so on due to j-ats actions, not petty internet discourse. a person—a kid nonetheless—was seriously physically and emotionally harmed and yall should be respectful 

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this is a dumb question but whats an endogenic?

It's a system that claims to have been formed without trauma, which is not possible.

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I have never blocked just-antithings. I check, I keep checking because everyone’s insistence on it makes me doubt myself, and they are not blocked. Considering I don't show up in their notes, they may have even blocked me. 

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you should seriously talk to j-at privately if you're so hard up about this.

They never responded to my DMs. I've sent a few to them, but no answer. 

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If there's  just a few bad eggs, how come I only see those bad eggs? 

I happened across a lot more of those bad eggs in anti anti/pro fujo circles since I made this post. Just-antithings, for example, used my suicide attempt for discourse points and has made no indication of regret or sorryness. And there were a bunch of anti antis guilttripping antiantistoblock for not wanting people to talk about sex on their posts (and don't get me started on the people blaming them for anti antis abusing them beforehand). And abledphobic and marvelphobes, two very dear friends of mine, had to deal with an anti anti writing porn of them. That’s right, child porn. Your “bad eggs” wrote child porn. 

“Bad eggs.” It's funny, isn't it? What's the probability that my friends and I have only met “bad eggs?” Aren't you a “bad egg” too, considering your pro-map history, Deku?

I don’t understand fujoshi. 

I really don’t.

When I was younger, I joined a fujoshi discord server. I said I was mlm and had a boyfriend. They were all really nice to me when I said that, and I thought they were my friends! So when I told them about how he was abusive and asked how to break up with someone, they would’ve helped, right? That wasn’t the case. They told me to stay with him. That our relationship was cute, even after I had described what he did. I left the server after that. Even today, I have a lot of difficulty telling others about my abuse because of that reaction.

On my previous discourse blog, after posting some anti fujoshi stuff, I received some horrifying anons from pro fujoshi. Some told me, a minor, to do sexually explicit things. Others accused me of lying about my abuse and addiction. A few called me ableist slurs or were ableist in general and misgendered me. I had a breakdown and was so scared of them coming back that I switched blogs.

Fujoshi accused a friend of mine of being a map supporter, went to several discourse blogs to spread the accusation, and tried to twist his support for prison reform as proof. He had to take a short hiatus and had a breakdown. 

I don’t understand how fujoshi can get away with all that. I don’t understand how fujoshi don’t say they fetishize abuse, then encourage an abuse victim to stay with an abuser and harass two mlm into breakdowns.

I don’t understand how fujoshi could say the community as a whole isn’t bad, but make every experience terrible. Or never address the obvious issues in their community. Or dismiss every criticism of them as too emotional or personal to be legitimate.

I don’t understand. 

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Yeehaw!

Go win the yeehaw contest, cowpoke. Good luck!

I have a question about shipping, if the creator expressly asks you not to ship something, do you stop? im just curious

Nah, I don’t think I would. I feel that when a creator puts something out into the world then it’s out of their control.

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“endos ARE real systems!! :( you’re mean for invalidating me!! i’m just as valid as you are!!”

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So, @just-antithings isn’t sorry for exploiting my suicide attempt and they’re still talking about it? That’s unfortunate but unsurprising. 

I am going to be brief about this. 

If @just-antithings does not apologize to me directly for exploiting my suicide attempt, promise to never speak about it again, and show they understand that what they did severely traumatized me, I will not hesitate to pursue legal action against them. This is a serious issue, so it requires serious consequences. 

Please spread this around, and also have a nice day, because I am not. 

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anti psychiatry endogenics are the same as anti vaccine parents. you cannot change my mind.