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But also thank you to the many kind anons I got and for all the support I got through one of the toughest times of my life ❤️❤️

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When Megan forgot what she was doing for a second

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People constantly calling whismical a drug addict for (what I'm remembering as) taking psychedelics and smoking weed, to me, the person who would talk about snorting oxys at school

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Had to go searching for this one after remembering it

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Also I wish that tumblr had had ad revenue back when this blog was getting 300+ hits a day because shitttt id of been rolling in cash

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When someone suggested I would've gotten in legal trouble for this blog

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This person who was a little to fucked up on their ego

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Idek what this one was???

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When an anon tried calling me out after I said I don't agree with self diagnosis

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Epc here for the first time in fuck knows how long and I've been reminiscing about this blog pretty tipsy and maybe drunk for the past hour or so because I'm unable to sleep. My followers have been like cut in half on this blog since I stopped using it lol. But I'm just remembering all the fun and not so fun times we all had. What really made me go through some of my old posts was remembering when some anon harassed me, a then 16 yr old girl, about having an abortion when I was obviously extremely emotionally wrecked over it. Blah blah blah bad mental health day=self hate=making myself sad. I haven't really thought about this blog for a few months, but shittt how did y'all put up with my personal posts? I sounded sooo cringe half the time "blah blah blah drugs blah blah blah out of context story that makes no real sense here" (but I am proud to say that literally everything I stated on this blog about me and my life was 100% true, from the drugs to the dude who fucked his dog and the friend who pretended to not be masturbation during mlp role play with said dog fucker while I was in the room) But I am honestly surprised that this blog gained sooo much attention. Esp considering how dead the general "community" is now. I guess that era is over. Sometimes I wished that I hadn't started the blog. It became very stressful at some points. People were very demanding of me like I wasn't trying to run the blog to the best of my abilities while dealing with all my personal shit. And anons did get very personal, from insulting me, telling me to kill my self, and prolly more things I can barely remember anymore. And the constant negativity honestly wore me down. Another thing that bothered me a lot, now that I'm looking back from a more mature mindset, is the whole eboni/Luna/whatever her name was situation. If I could do anything over I wouldn't of let the self submits go on. I wouldn't of allowed people to say such hateful shit to a minor. Not saying that I would've banned all confessions about all minors, but I wouldn't of allowed the hateful ones to go through. I wish I hadn't let this blog be a platform for a child to record a very obviously troubling time. I was going through very similar things, and I realize how social media and online attention can factor into it all. If you're out there: I'm sorry and I hope you've gotten the help you need. Idk what else to say but I caught a few screenshots of rather funny confessions that I read through so I'm going to post them, and hopefully by the time I'm done w them I'll be tired. And feel free to follow on my main @oxyrot

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for anyone else who wants to follow me elsewhere 

oh and don’t send confessions in to me anymore! i dont post them, and have 0 desire to surround myself with negativity anymore

If your ever on here again what's your other blog? Sry that im on anon.

I actually checked on here for once lmao, but my personal blog is @alpetraum since i don’t really need my anonymity anymore. 

oh an my insta is violentdaylight if you wanna follow me there.

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On medications

Ik I never post on here anymore but I try to keep my main less personal and ranty now. So fuck anti medication people. I am certifiably crazy when I'm off my meds. I'm not talking white girl "cute but psycho" crazy. Like actually needs to be hospitalized crazy. I don't even like the word crazy and it's connotations but idek how else to describe it. I have smashed mirrors, thrown too much shit to count, hurt everyone close to me, gotten uncontrollably suicidal, cut deep enough to have nerve damage, pulled out my hair, gone days without showering or changing (yeah it's nasty but I'm not going to lie about it), done stupid impulsive ass shit, fucked multiple people in less than as many days, gone off and done dangerous drugs with strangers, just too much shit to list ya know? And I have hurt everyone around me. My sisters are scared of me, my mom probably needs therapy because of me, my stepdad resents me, and so much more. Not even mentioning the cost of treatment while I had no insurance. The 4th or 5th time I tried to kill myself no one was home. They had to call an ambulance. It cost over $900 (that was just for the breathing tubes). Off my medications life is terrible. I can't even describe the feelings I go through, I can't even describe how much I've hurt myself and my family. And it's been so hard finding the right medications. I've been on over a dozen in less than 2 years. They've caused fucking terrible side effects, headaches that were the worst pain I've ever experienced, hallucinations, withdraws, brain jolts (?), so much weight gain, manic episodes, extreme paranoia, ect. But I am so grateful for what I have now and glad that I kept trying. In the past 4 months since I've been on my current medications I've gone back to school for my GED, been social, been filling out job applications, I've had less panic attacks, I've been more sober than I have for the majority of my current life, I've been able to try to bond with my sisters and family, and just everything's gotten so much better. I still get sad, I still get anxious, I still get the same feelings, but they're more manageable, they're less intense, and they're more spread out. I went off them last weekend because God knows why and it made me appreciate how much better everything is for me now. So I'm going to tag the fuck out of this because I really do hope that someone in the same boat as I was in sees this and reads it and relates. And I hope that whoever they are decides to try whatever medication it is this time (or the first time). I just hope that I can help someone else out.

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So I logged on and people are still deciding to follow me? Ok loll. But if anyone wants my personal or ig dm me or send me an ask!

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Hey would anyone want this blog? Like I'm bored w the drama but if anyone else wants to rebuild it just hmu

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Lin-Manuel Miranda helped to heal a nation last night at the Tony Awards; this is my thanks.

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