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I wonder what it feels like to be a priority in anybody’s life.

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Time and time and time and time again I’m shown that you’d rather spend time with anybody but me. So fucking sick and tired of being treated as an afterthought while begging to be seen.

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I wish my dad was proud of me

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I feel so fucking unseen and invalidated. Like my wants needs and desires don’t matter and there’s no hope that they ever will.

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My mother's prayed for my peace

But it's been years and she waits

For me to break

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That moment when the room is talking about how they were grossed out as young kids hearing their parents have sex. At that age I was masturbating to the sounds. When did my trauma start?

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All I want for Christmas is my best fucking friend back. Why’d you have to die?

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Even after all this time it still feels like there’s a huge gaping fucking black hole in my life. I miss you my nerf herder.

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I’m thankful for a sound system loud enough to interrupt my thought process.

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Ever thought about it?

You've been in this world for so long and still not used to the pain. You've gone far enough and still don't know where you are going. You've been tough enough but you still dont know how to cry or have cried too much and still cannot stop yourself from breaking down. Met a lot of people and still lonely. Said goodbye but still not leaving. Having life and still not knowing how to live. Old enough to know better and stilll not know your purpose.

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I hate hate HATE that I require so much reassurance like things could be going perfectly fine but there’s always a part of me that believes that all of it is a lie

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Bout that time again

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I still feel like a piece of shit

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Sometimes I wish they never would have noticed me.

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“It’s all in your head” yeah that’s kind of the entire problem innit

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