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LETS FUCKING GOOOOOO

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I heard ppl talking shit about Turning Red, that it “unlike Encanto, didn’t do a good job of explaining about the family/generational trauma”. Well LET ME EXPLAIN THIS IN ASIAN AMERICAN’S PERSPECTIVE.

As East Asian, I cried like a bitch in this scene. This three images were the perfect representation of how Asian family deals with trauma. If you don’t know, seeking counseling/therapy is basically frown upon in Asian culture. It doesn’t matter what it is, ppl will think you are a looney.

(Btw, in Korea when you go to a therapist THIS SHIT IS NOT PRIVATE. this will be on you PERMANENT RECORD as if you are some kind of fucking criminal. If you seek out therapy, EVEN A BLOODY SCHOOL COUNSELOR DURING MIDDLE SCHOOL, this will jeopardize you getting a jJOB/CAREER. Because no company will hire you!!!). I suffer from Long term stress disorder and my doctors recommended that i see a therapist. on my first therapy session, during ride back home, my mother flat out told me that she didn’t believe in therapy. and told me that EVERYONE HAS A BURDEN TO CARRY AND WE DO IT IN SILENCE AND STEADFASTNESS.

Sounds harsh right? But to the older generation, this is honorable act. to bare, and suffer for the family is something to be honored.

No matter how destructive it can be……

Many older generation Asian/parents carry this. they bare all the weight and don’t tell a soul the suffering they had to endure. 

So what happens WHEN they can’t bare it longer?

chances are, the oldest child of the family plays therapist. 

because the parents (ESPECIALLY THE MOTHER) has no one to lean on regarding such matter. They rather take their trauma to their graves then tell non-family members or a worst a STRANGER (therapist)

I am the oldest child of my family, I was my mother’s supporter, helper, her confidant and listener. I comforted her and listened to all the horrid, heart breaking trauma she suffered. She was also the oldest child of her family and she bared all the weight of the family. the difference between my mother and i, is that i grew up in west. i was told that speaking out my feeling/mental health is critical and important. and i seek out help when i wasn’t okay. meanwhile generations had taught my mother that seeking therapy is shameful.

so, us, the kids, who learned of emotional support and health, leads our parents out from the trauma.

just like how Mei is doing in this scene.

so yeah, this movie doesn’t tell trauma like Encanto. but that’s the point, every nation/generation have different way to deal with trauma. and turning red perfectly represented how west born/raised Asian kids deals with family trauma. 

This movie isn’t encanto, it’s turning Red. And I think that’s beautiful on its own.

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Fanart of Fy’ra Rai the fire genasi monk from Critical Role’s Exandria Unlimited, played by Anjali Bhimani!

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「Essek Thelyss」

A portrait I drew of the floaty wizard boi last year

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Kerbasi, wizard necromancer! Small visual update for an oneshot♡

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The Firebird segment — Fantasia 2000 (1999)

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It’s been years

Hi. I left tumblr after my country blocked this site because of stupid reasons.

And now...I’m back? Gonna post a lot of art stuff and dnd stuff and just random things. Hope to interact with some old moots again. >.>

Lord I’m rusty.

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Disney’s Pencil Test for Frozen (2013)

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Loyalty, honor, a willing heart - I can ask no more than that.

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On some real shit, I do not fuck with people who ride those boat things at the carnival. People who get on those do not give a fuck about life, they don’t care about you, ya mama or your kids. They literally have nothing to lose. You don’t care about life so there’s no need for me to fight you because you’re not going to give a damn about my face. 

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Filhis got them teeth

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I know how to make memes now guys I feel like I’ve unlocked a new power

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like this post to HUG a dragon. reblog this post to SMOOCH a dragon

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someone probably already post this but i got this from @/marvel.hood on instagram and i-

it’s one of the many videos getting me through this week 😔🤠

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this scene was sexy