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beautiful drawings and a beautiful story, highly recommend reading!

These are the things you hide, when you’re John Winchester’s oldest son:

A feather Sammy found and gave you.

A piece of satin you cut from a nightgown you swiped from the thrift store. You like to keep it in your pocket and rub it between your fingers.

A romance novel left behind in a motel. You tape the cover of a Stephen King novel on the front.

A picture of Robert Plant hidden under the fabric on the bottom of your toiletry bag.

A cassette of Queen, a cassette of The Beatles.

You like to draw. Knights and dragons and cowboys. A mockingbird. A lily. A boy in your class. You rip that one up and burn it.

Art I have created for These Masks We Wear written by @deansnuggles for DCBB 21. This is such a great story. I really enjoyed creating a combination of canon shots and original scenes from the story. If you enjoy the art please give it a read here.

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Guys I’ve just made an absolutely insane discovery and I am losing my entire fucking mind

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So, two year soberversary on Wednesday (celebrate with me!). To celebrate, I requested a Cameo from Misha. I'll share the full thing on Wednesday, but I wanted to share a snippet, because hey, reciprocated acceptance and love would be really lovely, and I can't keep that to myself even for a couple of days.

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Slow Morning

Little something

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Happy pride! 🌈🎉

Better late than never

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PEACE AND PRIDE

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this seems appropriate to repost today after Misha made the pride Cas post on Insta using CAN'T HELP FALLING IN LOVE 😭

(we’re reading twist and shout if you can’t tell) seacon16 photo op with misha !!

please credit me if you use!!

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Please I need some cutesy cockles photos to cleanse my dash after all the drama.

Here you go 👬

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There’s a rip in the air, when Cas comes back. Dean tries to ignore it for a while, chalking it up to general exhaustion, to Cas needing to find his footing now that he’s human again. But it stays there in the back of his mind, like a weight, a balloon waiting to burst.

Dean remains on guard. Chuck might be gone and they might not be hunting monsters every other regular Tuesdays anymore, but he’s been waiting for things to rain down on them their entire life and it’s not something you can shake that easily.

It’s when Cas experiences his first nightmare that Dean finally gets it.

It’s late, probably bordering 3AM when he’s taken out of his slumber by the sound of Cas sobbing beside him. The covers have been wrecked and most of them are on the floor on Cas’ side, and the sheets are a mess where they pool below Cas’ ankles. Dean extends an arm and wraps it around Cas, bringing him closer to him on instinct.

His brain is still pretty fogged up but he instantly knows that something’s wrong- if not for the way Cas keeps crying steadily, because Cas doesn’t curl into his chest right away like he’s been doing ever since they started sharing the same bed since he came back. He stays resolutely away from Dean, only allowing his arm to stay around his waist because he’s unable to fight it.

This is it, Dean thinks. This is the thing that hung over us for the past weeks.

“It’s me, sweetheart,” he murmurs instead, trying to keep his voice steady. “You’re okay. We’re in the bunker, you’re safe.”

“No,” Cas let out, his voice watery and broken up. “You need to stop. You can’t- you need to stop bringing Dean into this, I know you’re just playing me. You’re not real, you’re not him.”

Dean sighs slowly, his stomach churning unpleasantly. He knew Cas’ experience in the Empty had been terrible, but so far Cas had refused to talk about it, plain and simple. Judging by what he seems to be going through right now, Dean guesses the entity had tortured Cas with images of Dean, and probably Sam and Jack too.

He extends his other arm carefully, and when his hand touches Cas’ cheek, his thumb running tenderly over the line of his jaw, Cas closes his eyes and lets out a breath.

“It’s me. I’m real, babe. It’s okay.”

Cas shakes his head, eyes still closed.

“N-no,” he stutters, voice weak, exhausted. “Can’t be. Can’t be him.”

Somehow, Dean feels less reluctance in Cas’ voice, so he draws a bit closer. His hand cups Cas’ jaw as he brushes his nose against his. Cas exhales slowly as Dean watches him. Finally when he opens his eyes again, Dean can see the blue shining clearer than before. Cas seems more composed, as if Dean managed to break through him somehow.

“I’m real,” he whispers, his breath lingering on Cas’ bottom lip. “We’re real. I promise. You’re home, you’re safe. I’m right here.”

“How can I know for sure?” Cas asks, voice steadier.

Dean smiles despite the exhaustion threatening to snap through his bones and brushes his lips against Cas’.

To anyone on the outside, the kiss would seem chaste, pure even. To Dean it feels like saving grace. Like pure, liquid supernova being poured out inside his veins. Warmth and utter love shoot through him as he lingers, his tongue grazing Cas’ bottom lip before retreating just enough to watch Cas open his eyes to stare at him again.

“Was that real or not real?”

Cas nods, his nose brushing against Dean’s cheek.

“Real.”

Dean brings his hand to Cas’ hair as the ex-angel tumbles into his chest, burying his face in the crook of Dean’s neck. He cards through the mess of dark hair steadily, waiting for Cas to talk again, but he only clutches him harder, his nails digging into Dean’s back.

“Hey,” he finally whispers into Cas’ hair. “I’m not going anywhere.”

It takes a while before Cas answers, his voice muffled from where he’s pressed against Dean’s skin.

“Real or not real?”

Dean smiles, brushes a kiss into Cas’ hair.

“Real.”

Dean can feel Cas exhale and little by little his grip loosens, until they’re just resting in each other’s embrace.

“I’m sorry,” Cas mumbles after a while. “Didn’t mean to wake you.”

“It’s okay,” Dean yawns. “I’m here for you. You know that.”

Cas doesn’t respond for a long while, and after Dean’s placed several kisses on the side of his face and into his hair, he figures he finally went back to sleep. He’s about to do the same when Cas’ voice cut through the silence, his breath warm where he’s still pressed against the line of Dean’s throat.

“I love you.”

Dean smiles into the dark. He used to dread those words, to attach their weight to something he’d end up losing or fucking up. But now that he has Cas- truly has Cas, in sickness and in health or whatever crap they say in those chick-flicks Dean absolutely doesn’t watch- he associates it with something else. Something bigger, heavier, in a good way. It fills him with something incredible- dread, sure, but joy too. And as he ducks down to catch Cas’ lips with his own, he can feel Cas’ heart beating steady against his own.

Real.

“I love you too,” he whispers against Cas lips and delights when those same lips stretches into a smile before kissing his one last time.

Cas doesn’t ask real or not real this time.

They both know.

There’s a rip in the air, but it’s okay. Whatever comes their way, it’s good.

It’s real.

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Since cas is inside jimmy that makes mr Novak a fruit basket

this is funnier than anything i could ever THINK to post

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a little domestic destiel scene

my contribution to the @takethefandomtowork challenge 😌

This is I think the longest I’ve spent on an art piece. 24 hours of straight drawing over the last 3 months, but it was so much fun! Especially deciding on what to put on the shelf and what are they gonna wear and what book will I let Dean read (it’s Outlander btw :D)

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Cas is not Dean's Colette, Sam is. But, you seem pretty sure it's Cas. Please, tell me how is this so?? What are these parallels? When Cas is the one that suggest that they kill Dean. When Cas hardly been around Dean during his struggles with the Mark. When did Cas pull Dean from the edge of Darkness??

Alright my dear sassy anon, I apologize for the late response but I wanted to do this right and school had been getting in the way. So buckle up. I’m going to take you for a ride. *cracks knuckles* 

Moving on to my overall argument. Let’s look again at Cain’s speech and dissect that, shall we?

This is a perfect parallel to me. In this scenario Crowley is Abbadon. So do you remember when Abbadon was possessing Colette in 9x11? 

And then she has a very interesting conversation with Cain, that hints very strongly at a previous romantic relationship between them.

And Abbadon then goes on to literally tell Cain “Well, if I can’t have you, than neither can she!” before manipulating Colette’s body to the point that Cain attempts to stab her with the blade as she smokes out. This parallel between Abbadon and Crowley later becomes incredibly important because of what happens after the fight. Moving ahead to 10x14 and what do we see?

 What is this!? The obvious Colette parallel being chosen over the Abbadon parallel? The physical embodiement of Cain/Dean’s addiction being put in the hands of Colette to take care of? 

The Abbadon parallel looking visibly aggrieved about being passed over for the Colette parallel? The Abbadon parallel feeling wounded and wronged about Cain/Dean’s actions because of the history they share?

It must all be a coincidence right? Ok well let’s look at the next part of Cain’s speech.

The second person close to himself that Cain killed was Colette, and this effectively places Cas in that position in the lineup of future murders. I suppose you could argue that Dean technically was the one who killed Abbadon, but by giving Dean the Mark for the express purpose of killing Abbadon Cain essentially signed her death warrant. She was the last person of close relationship with Cain to die, putting her parallel, Crowley, as the first to die. So my first point of Cas being Colette is simply the order in which he appears in the Cain speech. Beyond that you had asked when Cas had pulled Dean back from the edge of darkness. Well…

Cas has been intimately involved in the removal of the Mark. I have my own complaints about the show has been writing Cas as going out hunting for cures for Dean and not staying with him, but the fact remains that that is what he’s been doing. He’s literally put everything else on hold to try to fix Dean.You mentioned that Cas hasn’t been around Dean for a lot of his struggles with the Mark and I would argue that there is a pretty obvious reason for that. It makes more sense for Cas to be the one out doing this because he’s an angel. Thinking about this logically, one person should stay with Dean and one person should be out doing the legwork the search for the cure requires. Once it was clear that the search for the cure was going to take them to Cain, why the hell would you ever send Sam to do that? An angel didn’t even stand a chance against him, what’s Sam going to do? It’s totally valid that Cas be the one out searching and it doesn’t diminish his feelings for Dean or Dean’s for him. You don’t have to be around someone all the time to love them. 

But mostly I just think that Cas is Dean’s Colette because he fits the way Cain described her. 

“I’ve tried. I’ve tried, Colette. To see myself as you did.“ 

“I know you watch over me still.”

“She forgave me.”

Basically I just feel like Cas loves Dean the way Colette loved Cain. Unselfishly and unconditionally. Complete devotion right to the end. Always putting Cain’s needs before her own and doing what’s best for him, literally to her dying breath. So now we have the final part of Cain’s speech and I’ll be wrapping up my rant soon here.

Your message that Sam is Dean’s Colette  was honestly just really surprising for me to read because I thought it was totally obvious that Dean and Sam were Cain and Abel respectively in this scenario. They are literally their descendants. Lucifer wanted to possess Abel and Lucifer wanted to possess Sam. And then  Cain said the whole “You’re living my life in reverse” line. Sam is Abel in this scenario because that’s where Cain placed him in the lineup of people Dean would kill. Abel’s spot. Not to mention that Abel is Cain’s younger brother and Cain gave up his very soul to save him, just like Dean did for Sam. I mean, in terms of parallels I think the Dean/Cain and Sam/Abel links are possibly the single most obvious parallel in the entire series. Unless your argument is that Sam is somehow simultaneously Colette and Abel, which, if it is I’d be interested to read.

So in conclusion, that’s why I think that Cas is Dean’s Colette, although I will admit that sometimes when I really try to remove the Destiel-colored glasses entirely I have considered that Dean doesn’t have a Colette (thanks ephemeral-castiel). What I’m saying is that I think that Cas fills the roles that Colette filled for Cain, but I do think that in the end Dean will learn how to overcome his issues on his own. I don’t think that any one person, not Sam or Cas, would be able to stop Dean just by begging, because that didn’t work while he was a demon and because this is the season of self-discovery and I really think Dean will be able to find this strength in himself. He really needs to find his own will to live at this point in time, rather than just hanging around because Sam and Cas need him. So yeah, that’s why I think that IF Dean has a Colette, it’s Cas.

TLDR; If Dean has a Colette, it’s fucking Cas.

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Do we think Benny was if not openly, at least comfortably queer? And if so, how did Dean react to big beefy manly man being queer?

i think it goes like

dean: [kills random werewolf] :3

benny: huh. think i fucked that guy once

dean: haha. wait what

benny: i think i fucked that guy

dean: what the fuck are you talking about

benny: i said i f

dean: i heard you. i mean . What

benny: do yall not do that anymore

dean: do. what?

benny: did everybody stop having sex or somethin? what do you mean what. i had sex with that guy. toothy sonofagun

dean: that GUY? that GUY? youre can’t just drop something like that and not. explain

benny: wait a minute. hold on a minute. dont tell me youre not into dudes

dean: im. so not.

benny: [vampire surprise]

benny: wow. brother thats my bad i just got some kinda vibes from you. tthats my bad. i guess this trip is gonna be more boring than i thought

dean:

dean: WHAT.

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I made this fan art of Alien!Cas that was inspired by @malmuses fic Earthly Desires which is currently being posted with weekly updates if you wanna check it out! Beware it’s a sequel, you should probably read the 1st part before reading this one. 

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Misha instantly recognizing the french mistake sweater is everything to me

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The Adventurous Eaters Club

Hi buddies!  Welcome to the first post of yet another project I have chosen to take on because I apparently don’t enjoy sleep in any form. 

To make this even more FUN, let’s do a THING (just in time for #RACultivatingKindness and the Random Acts Food Equity initiative)

One hundred percent of author proceeds from Misha’s cookbook go to charity, including the following: The Edible Schoolyard The Garden School Foundation Whatcom Farm-to-School Fund

One week after each blogpost I do for this little adventure, I will count up the notes on that post and donate $1 per note to one of the above, or to @randomactsorg​.  

If you make a donation to any of these (in any amount!) or buy Misha’s cookbook and send me the receipt in my asks I will match your donation AND you can pick the next thing I cook!

[I say this like I have clout here, but hey why not feed some people, do a little good, and make this interactive!]

With all the preliminaries aside, let’s cook some chicken, under the cut! 

(warning: the photos below the cut contain pictures of raw chicken in case that is a “ew” trigger for anyone.  just warning ya)

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"Ribbons and Pearls" - Digital Oil Painting

One more painting of the courtship ceremony lingerie because I love it so much...

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