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Everyday I grow closer to giving the Death Reaper a blow job.

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Now comes the part of the drunk when I did a social faux pas and I feel shitty for letting my inhibitioned ass make a total fool of my self. I honestly don't know how I could have gotten into any relationship with anyone romantic or platonic.

I wanna say I wish I was dead, but it would be a lie. I very much want to still live. I just want to move out of the country I live in, nuke all my social media sites and try a new persona, one that isn't a bitch, navigate adulthood again without support and maybe grow a fucking little from the experience!

I don't want to berate myself all night, but my fucking meds haven't taken any effect to let me sleep and my friends don't want to hear my doom and gloom shit talking of myself. I kinda get why, but also maybe I need to vent some of this toxicity back to the universe to repurpose all the fucked upness in my life and just unfuck myself. Not my life, I think nothing short of a miracle will do that after the shit I pulled tonight, but my identity

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Whyyyyyyy am I still awake

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I don't feel bad telling y'all because you don't fucking know me and can't really do anything to stop me except hurt my feelings and bitch! That ship sailed years ago! Just add you to the pile of bitches that thought they could make me feel like shit and set you on fire!

I have a drinking problem...

I can easily admit it is a problem, but I don't feel shame for having it or even shame of lying to people about it. I lied to a whole bunch of AA folks that I have been sober for over thirty days!

I'm also taking more of my panic medication than is recommended, but still I don't feel like stopping or that I'm a bad person for doing these things. The only person I am actively hurting is my self and ain't no one give a shit about what happens to me. LIVE FAST, DIE YOUNG is my new motto and I think it makes me a more interesting person. Definitely more cognizant than the cocktail of meds that make me pass out for hours only for me to wake up still fucking mentally ill!

[everythingtasteslikeash]

I have a drinking problem...

I can easily admit it is a problem, but I don't feel shame for having it or even shame of lying to people about it. I lied to a whole bunch of AA folks that I have been sober for over thirty days!

I'm also taking more of my panic medication than is recommended, but still I don't feel like stopping or that I'm a bad person for doing these things. The only person I am actively hurting is my self and ain't no one give a shit about what happens to me. LIVE FAST, DIE YOUNG is my new motto and I think it makes me a more interesting person. Definitely more cognizant than the cocktail of meds that make me pass out for hours only for me to wake up still fucking mentally ill!

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I am so tired of feeling sad and like shit. It's not even my mental illness! It's people having bad communication skills.

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you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

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why do grooms get one boring black jacket and brides get the most jawdropping gowns ever like when i get married i want pearls and lace and a train is that too much to ask??

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never-ending self-pity party

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is anyone else feeling stuck and waiting for something that will never come in order to start living or is it just me?

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Social Security includes the number for a suicide hotline on the envelope they use to tell me they have decided to deny my disability

There’s a depressing ass poem hiding in here, but im too tired to put it together.

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mentally a living corpse

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“Update: The student who wrote the letter has been found and we’re in the process of finding a way to reward her for her actions. Very grateful for what she did”