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As soon as September hits the eating disorder starts disordering like it’s supposed to every year. Anyone else feel the same way

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I’ve been reading my old blogs from months back and I can’t even recognize myself, I was such a difficult person to myself… in all honesty, we all are. Doesn’t mean I love my body but I can love my outfits that bing out what I find desirable on myself. This growth and I hope all of you can get to a similar place.

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I have an honest question. To those of us that are ana and Mia, does it actually work? Do you actually lose weight?

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Life Updates:

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I got a treadmill so walking or running won’t be as embarrassing as running in public

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New scale (can do weight updates so much better and faster)

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A 20lb dumbbell to do some heavy bottom lifting

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And cat for emotional support :) I love my baby

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Tw: please ignore and dont report <3

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My fave blue themed inspo <3

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I do this thing we’re I come back to tumblr when I’m really sad and bomb I’m back so yay. I’ve been eating 1 or 2 meals a day and I’ve been walking a lot so definitely doing great. I also got a waist trainer so bet your ass I’m gonna get curvy <3 in a good way at least.

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I ate 3 donuts and I want to cry.

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I binged today.

I had egg and tortillas for breakfast and then for dinner I had 4 slices of home oven baked pizza. I will kill myself if I don’t work out.

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I talk about his body so now let me talk about him. He’s kind, talks to me for hours and hours. His eyes are so beautiful. Green blue. His hair is so soft and passing his colar bone. He makes me laugh, is so understanding, actually listens to me, and respects me. We both love the same shows and have similar ideas of perfect dates. Even though my body is disgusting, sh scars, stretch marks, and fat in every place it doesn’t need to be, he likes me and caresses me the way I’ve longed for. I think I love him.

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I love the feeling of his ribs and waist. I want that on me. His boney wrist, his hip bones poking out, the way his thigh gap looks. He’s prefect and I’m not even close to being as good as him.

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We are the same height, but I’m 4x his size. He likes thicker ppl but I want to be as thin as him. Can I please just be 170? I promise I won’t be Ana anymore. Just let me have a flat tummy and a fat ass. I promote I won’t binge anymore.

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I went from eating only 1 thing for 3 days to eating 2 meals. I’m upset at myself. I’ll try to not eat tomorrow. I haven’t puked yet but I feel like it.

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I think I really want to stick to a diet. Ik i will restrict and i wanted to share it with you guys.

-no eating outside of home

-no eating til 12pm (if home)

-no meat until 4pm

-no meals after 7pm

-no snacks after 8pm

-walk at least 1 hour (not including errands)

-do small workout routine

-look at th1nsp0 before eating

-drink 2 cups of water before eating

-no chocolate

-puke if you eat more than 2 sweets

This is for me and me only so if you follow that’s your problem not mine. Why am I posting? Cuz I Can and I need to vent.

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Haven’t posted in a while. I’ve been so stuck in my head lately that I haven’t counted cals and I fuckn binged yesterday. I have 2 donuts, a big bag of chips, and 2 ice creams. I need to die rn.

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Guys be proud of me! I got this calorie counter app and yesterday I had left over calories! In total I’m supposed to consume only 2,451.

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The urge to take apart my sharpener :)

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Bro it’s been shit not having my scale. Like damn why won’t it work. I think my day ass broke it ;-; apparently it goes up to like 300 or 400 idk.