eyeslikewatercoolers

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Before I go, here's the last few pieces that I need to settle.

Whether you consider me an internet friend or that user that deserves all the hate in the world, I'm still going to say my peace.

I'm not sharing the user's username in this. They have exposed me publically, but I won't be doing the same. People still deserve privacy and dignity, no matter how much they try to hurt others.

First off, the haters-

I'm assuming you were sent here by [READACTED], or, you felt the need to 'teach me a lesson' yourself. Either way, welcome to this (now) dead blog.

I never really got the chance to share my side of the story about what happened. I shared what an anon told me more about something Plane said since [REDACTED]'s post that I reblogged had misinformation. This person answered my ask by bringing this to the public, and saying that I was a fangirl that blindly supports a misogynist. (Note- I've never interacted with this person before, and neither of us follows each other.)

I then brought this to private messages, as I felt like it should have been handled since the beginning. I attempted to explain to [REDACTED] that I was upset that they took my ask and used it to air out their grievances. I explained that I respect their opinion, but I felt like they had cherry-picked the information by taking the joke out of the context of the source.

They kept bringing up how this conversation was about my blind loyalty to Plane, and did not acknowledge what I had to say at all. I eventually left the conversation, telling them that I was not taking anything of value from it.

I left with a sarcastic comment, before blocking and moving on.

But I did look later on my alt account, out of curiosity. Here's some highlights of what they said about me:

-I am an insufferable pick-me

-I am a victim/martyr

-I am a fangirl of Plane and I want her to notice me/fuck me (Note: I found this particularly offputting to say, especially since I am an out lesbian)

Later, I received an anon that called me a raging misogynist for Plane being my fave. (Note, again: Plane isn't my fave, I just said I am a fan)

I decided to move to a private account and transfer my fics to a separate account. I wanted a fresh start after all this.

And now, moving on to friends/supportive readers/just those that are curious-

Thanks for sticking with me. Thanks to those that check in on me when I say I'm taking a break, or just want to chat. I cherished our chats about ships we like or brainstorming a fic idea.

I love my supportive anons. I smile to myself whenever I see someone who responded to an ask game or asked for my headcannon of something. I really appreciate coming in to say hi, whether its a good or bad day.

I told a few of my mutuals my new account, and some have already followed me there. I'm happy to continue seeing you on my dash.

I'm keeping this account up, but I won't be using it. I have a lot of fics on here that I would hate to see deleted. Maybe someone reads one for a source of comfort, or discovering a new pairing. Or maybe a queen will find a fic of mine and share it to their socials

Unless it wasn't obvious, the last part was a joke.

Goodbye to eyeslikewatercoolers, nobody will ever take this bomb-ass username.

Thanks for reading, and thanks for being here <3

-Erin

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Hey love, I just wanted to say I've read some of your fics (mostly vandergerd) and then found you on tumblr and have been a mostly silent follower since

I genuinely don't believe you deserve the hate you're getting, and I hope you'll be happier in a more private account

Much love 💛

Thank you for the sweet message, anon 💖

Much love to you as well.

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Here’s my plan for this account

Soon, I’m deleting eyeslikewatercoolers. Due to the hate spread about me and the harassment from anons, I no longer want this account.

It’s severally impacted my mental health the last few days. My reputation has been tainted, and so many users will believe what others say about me.

I’m not playing ‘the victim’ anymore. I’m done.

My writing is moving to @itserinwritenow and this account will just have anything fic related. It’s the only thing that will have eyeslikewatercoolers attached to it.

I have a new personal account, but I’m not giving it out publicly. I’ve told a few people that it’s me, but that’s it. I’m using a different name on the new account as well, for security reasons.

If you genuinely want to follow my new personal, dm me for it. I’m being very particular on who knows it’s me and what I share.

I don’t know if this is what the people that shared hate about me wanted, but it’s what’s best for me right now.

TLDR; Viking funeral for eyeslikewatercoolers is next week, send positive anons in lieu of hate.

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Everything that has been said about you is absolutely true but instead of owning up to it you can’t just stop fangirling over the awful human being so you’re just going to whine about it like you didn’t bring this on yourself. Definitely a raging misogynist yourself. Learn and grow.

This.

This is the stuff that I can’t keep up with.

I’m sorry you feel this way about me. I’m sorry you believe what’s been said about me is true. And I’m very sorry you think that sending this anonymously was an okay thing to do.

I’m not the fandom pariah, that’s not what I’m here for. I don’t understand how calling me misogynistic is a productive thing to do.

I hope you feel better after sharing those words to me. But at least you get to hide under anonymous, so congrats on winning.

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Maybe just starting with reading fics or only focusing on blogs you’re okay with would be a starting point?

Hi anon. I’ll explain more later, but here’s the reading/writing part of it.

All of my writing is going to a new account @itserinwritenow . That’s all that account will be for, and it’s the only thing that’s going to have anything related to eyeslikewatercoolers attached to it.

There’s not much on there atm, but give it a follow if you’d like 🩷

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

This is a long post, I’m sorry.

I’m so tired of how rancid the drag race community on tumblr has gotten.

I hate how every time I get an anon, I get a small panic feeling that I’m going to have to defend myself. Or I don’t even open it for so long to make sure it’s not something that points out my faults.

Yet when I try to defend my perspective, I get called anything under the sun. I’m a pick-me, I’m a martyr, and I’m a victim. I try to stay respectful and patient, but everything I say gets backfired on me.

I hate the way I’ve started to display myself online. I hate how bitter and negative I’ve become. And I really hate seeing people I used to consider internet friends vague post hurtful things about me.

I’ve said mean things too. I’ve made posts that I probably shouldn’t have. I’m sure I’ve hurt some feelings, whether they had a username attached or not.

I joined this community so I could write gay drag queens and maybe, make some friends too. These things feel like occasional fun things for me now when I log on. I used to read other fics and reblog and cheer on other writers.

I don’t even remember the last time I did that. I’ve become a really shitty internet user, I feel like I’ve let this community down big time.

I really, really hate the person I’ve become online.

I want to be better, I just don’t know where to start. The internet is huge and scary, it’s so hard to navigate it the ‘right’ way.

This is one of the only communities I’ve actively been a part of, and I miss the love and friendship there used to be here.

I don’t know where to go from here. I wish I did.

I just want to be a better human.

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

I’m back, this user is now blocked and I will continue loving misogyny 🩷

Taking a break from tumblr, iykyk

(Gonna say this twice but DO NOT SEND ANY HATE)

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Taking a break from tumblr, iykyk

(Gonna say this twice but DO NOT SEND ANY HATE)

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Shoutout to my former mutual who continues to spread misinformation just to try to cancel someone they don’t like 💖

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

reblog if you're a sick individual who's attracted to women over 30

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

i don’t think chappell roan needs pr training or a pr person i think she is perfectly clear in everything she says i think she knows what she is doing in that regard and i think she is reaching the exact audience she wants to reach. i also think it’s very naive to think maybe if she were ✨niceys✨ people would take her more seriously. they would not. they would use that as an excuse to harass her and violate the boundaries she is so adamant about, as they have done to other celebrities. maybe if people weren’t so goddamn violent to women in her position she wouldn’t have to take this position but alas. she is not the one in the wrong here

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

hi! I saw your repost about plane 'hating' women and wanted to answer because I'm tired of people using misinformation for cancelation

So basically it's from the episode of t&k bald&beautiful where plane was a guest. P and K are talking about P being booed at their live shows (7:10 timestamp to be accurate) and P jokingly! calls their fans fat broads and face horsed lesbians which is a reference to this moment https://x.com/treeaston/status/1495051790252916736?t=3-2F5tQWJE3IVmZsetzLkQ&s=19 that became viral

But I guess she didn't say jk... also I wonder if katya is misogynistic too and hates her fans caused she laughed at the joke or we blame only pj

Hi, anon! Thank you taking the time to do this and give a more detailed explanation.

I still haven’t watched the podcast episode, but the op did tell me where the comment came from. I figured that if she said this on t&k’s podcast, it was a joke. There’s too many people behind the scenes (editors, managers, PR reps) to let that slide if she was serious.

Misogyny runs deeper than a few sarcastic comments about women. A lot of PJ haters are quick to find small pieces of ‘evidence’ and use it for cancellation. If you hate her so much, then why are you engaging with content that she’s featured in?

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Wip Wednesday- Halloween 2024 fic

I've been working on the next chapter of Between If, Maybe, and When lately, here's a new snippet!

“What the hell is this?!” The two turned to see Sasha storming up to them. Anetra and Mirage looked at each other in panic, unsure what to do. 

“Sasha, what are you doing here?” Anetra asked as she tried to straighten up.

Sasha crossed her arms. “You two have been hooking up for who knows how long—and behind my back!” she hissed at them. “I thought we were best friends.” 

“We are, but we haven’t had the chance to tell you that Mirage and I are dating-” Anetra tried to explain, tears gathering in her eyes. 

Sasha threw her hands up in defense, “You know what? Forget it. I never want to see either of you again.” she said, before heading to the club’s exit in a huff. 

Mirage turned to Anetra, giving her a comforting touch on her arm. “I’ll go talk with her, you stay here,” she said before following her to the door.

Sasha stood motionless in the dark alley, just as Mirage charmed her to do. She had no emotion in her face, staring straight ahead. 

“You did so well, now let's give you a rest,” Mirage told Sasha, before snapping her left hand.

Sasha turned into a crisp, white mannequin as the parts crashed to the ground. Mirage pulled out her oversized bag, placing each part into the bag as it grew in bulkiness. 

The last part she picked up was the head, which looked at her with hollow eye-less sockets and a small slit for a mouth. 

“Ready to be Anetra?” Mirage playfully asked before putting the head in the bag, heels clicking as she strode down the alley.

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Pregnancy runs in my family. Over half of my ancestors had it at some point.

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

Wip Wednesday- Halloween 2024 fic

I've been working on the next chapter of Between If, Maybe, and When lately, here's a new snippet!

“What the hell is this?!” The two turned to see Sasha storming up to them. Anetra and Mirage looked at each other in panic, unsure what to do. 

“Sasha, what are you doing here?” Anetra asked as she tried to straighten up.

Sasha crossed her arms. “You two have been hooking up for who knows how long—and behind my back!” she hissed at them. “I thought we were best friends.” 

“We are, but we haven’t had the chance to tell you that Mirage and I are dating-” Anetra tried to explain, tears gathering in her eyes. 

Sasha threw her hands up in defense, “You know what? Forget it. I never want to see either of you again.” she said, before heading to the club’s exit in a huff. 

Mirage turned to Anetra, giving her a comforting touch on her arm. “I’ll go talk with her, you stay here,” she said before following her to the door.

Sasha stood motionless in the dark alley, just as Mirage charmed her to do. She had no emotion in her face, staring straight ahead. 

“You did so well, now let's give you a rest,” Mirage told Sasha, before snapping her left hand.

Sasha turned into a crisp, white mannequin as the parts crashed to the ground. Mirage pulled out her oversized bag, placing each part into the bag as it grew in bulkiness. 

The last part she picked up was the head, which looked at her with hollow eye-less sockets and a small slit for a mouth. 

“Ready to be Anetra?” Mirage playfully asked before putting the head in the bag, heels clicking as she strode down the alley.

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

she said it on t&k's podcast x

Thanks! I’ll be sure to check it out soon 💖