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call me the pitbull friend the way I’m short and known for being aggressive ‼️

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idk man

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do not autocorrect me I am always correct and right

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Alice and Alice my beloved

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The light Nona casts on the confrontation at the end of Harrow the Ninth changes so much about it. Not what happened, really, but the underlying assumptions. It drives me insane. It's tragic, it's infuriating, and it's also, just a tiny bit, on a meta level, hilarious.

Mercy was wrong. There is no perfect process. John didn't do anything perfectly. He'd flailed his way into godhood with all the control and intentionality of a toddler having a meltdown in a china shop. He ripped his cavalier from her body and never put her back. He did consume her; she persisted because her soul was simply too big for him to contain.

There is no perfect lyctorhood. Mercy was wrong, and John didn't argue with her.

He could have, is the thing. If he'd laid everything out for them, then and there, he could have made a strong case that what he did with Alecto can't be replicated by human beings. That nothing he'd hidden from them would have changed Cristabel's fate, and had Alecto been human, she would have turned out just the same as the others. I doubt he would have really believed it himself if he had, but he's hardly above lying. He didn't even try. Why did he just agree with her and not even try?

That's the kicker of it. Nona had already answered that question before it even inspired the asking. He didn't try because people don’t forgive, not really. He didn't see a point to arguing with her because once people start to doubt, you’ve already lost them. They'll believe whatever they want to. The details would have done nothing. Which is both a fascinating insight into what was going on there, on an interpersonal level, and also.

We stewed on that reveal for years. We built castles of meta on that perfect lyctorhood theory, and all along, John was letting us misunderstand. Because it was easier than telling the truth. Godfuckingdammnit, Tamsyn.

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what’s crazy is there’s so much depth to explore with Harrow being both schizophrenic AND haunted (i.e. not knowing whether something is real and a byproduct of the haunting or the psychosis) but people seem to think the two can’t coexist.

i’d say “sorry for swinging a bat at the hornet’s nest,” but i’m not, actually! it’s been almost five years since harrow the ninth was released, and i STILL see people insist that harrow isn’t schizophrenic; she’s just being haunted. fandom takes representation of an intensely stigmatized mental illness (that the author candidly says she has!) and ignores it!!!

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staying close w people long distance really is about the mundane stuff. i get texts like "made quesadillas" "spilled mop water all over the floor :(" "lady on the bus has not one not two but three tiny dogs in her purse" andits like wow. i love you more than words can express

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feeling soooooo mentally well rn

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straight up “jorking it”. and by “it”, haha well. let’s justr say. My mental illnesses

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a reminder that Alma Cortez is not a morally grey character or a complex victim, she is straight up evil, a coward, a pathetic and hypocritical human being, a colonizer whose biggest dream in life was making a literal residential school (and she did), who believes that the Na'vi are inferior beings and that humans not only should impose their superior ways on them, but also have the right to steal their children and forcibly assimiliate them into their culture to achieve that goal. i am not saying that she’s not an interesting character; she definetely has a complicated and fucked up mind, but i am sick and tired of people acting like there’s any sort of nuance in making a fucking RESIDENTIAL SCHOOL. you gotta be pure evil for that. period. just because she believes she had good intentions or that she was a good and decent person who was ultimately misled, doesn’t mean that it’s actually true. have a great day

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happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!

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Happy Autism Awareness/Acceptance Day/Month!!

❤️💚💛💙🩵🧡

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fuck you. [breaks you down into your base elements and deletes them one at a time]

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who does it like the pandora hearts trio. ur writing a manga and u decide to make ur main characters 1) severely mentally ill 15 year old boy with the soul of a stuffed rabbit 2) delusional girl who personifies hell and also she bites and 3) lamest 24 year old on the planet

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illustrating lines from poems I wrote a couple years ago to deal with artblock

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turns out when you type "doctor sex" into the google search bar, the first result is not the short story by Tamsyn Muir starring Palamedes Sextus and Camilla Hect. turns out most of the results are something totally different from that. in other news I'm an idiot