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sometimes you listen to an orchestra and you’re like maybe the magic i stopped believing in when i was eleven does exist in some form

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People who look at gore all the time are messed up in the head. 🤷

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10/2337

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I've been through six years of therapy. I'm tired of people telling me to go to therapy when they haven't been. I'm pretty educated on this stuff. NOT A PROFESSIONAL. Just been through a lot. Tired of people that haven't gone to therapy telling me to go seek help. Dude I've literally done a lot of work. Please let me have some daëmon time. I'm not gonna spiral out of control. Already have too many times.

- 2:11 am // d.v.

Sick of people being overprotective

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I h@te being f@t I'm not gonna lie

This b!g b0dy

Hurts to live ins!de

I am technically ob3se

And it's not easy

it's not fun

because of the way people look at me

and in reality

I'm just a body floating through space

and I really don't want to hide

but I don't like it at the same time

and that's okay

it's okay to be upset

I just really hope

I don't faint turning

left

2:03 am // d.v.

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Hey Tumblr ,

I go by Faëi on here

my initials are d.v.

I'm 20 years old

MINORS PLEASE DO NOT INTERACT

this is my soup

my soup can be tr!gger!ng

for real

if you relate to me and need to talk, you can message me personally

please just understand that I am not seeking therapy right now

don't message me if you are a m!nor

I am NOT comfortable with that

If you are thinking of unal!v!ng

please call a national su!c!de hotline

United States: 988

Please TRY to stay safe and remember that harm reduction is the most important thing right now.

Proceed with caution

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one day ill eat and feel guilt

and be completely

okay

with that

and ill just

keep eating

hopefully

1:43 // d.v.

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Nietzsche was so right when he said philosophy is just science for gays or whatever he said

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“Opera has the power to warn you that you have wasted your life. You haven't acted on your desires. You've suffered a stunted, vicarious existence. You've silenced your passions. The volume, height, depth, lushness, and excess of operatic utterance reveal, by contrast, how small your gestures have been until now, how impoverished your physicality; you have only used a fraction of your bodily endowment, and your throat is closed.”

— Wayne Koestenbaum, The Queen’s Throat: Opera, Homosexuality, and the Mystery of Desire.

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i love vibing with other girls who are non judgemental and just are nice

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Alice, Crystal Castles @ Razzmatazz 2008

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imagine you made friendly AI and it took over the world and ushered in a utopia or whatever and it was of a sort that actually had some kind of human personality and personal connections but it didn't really like you. like as omnibenevolent god-ruler of the human light cone it had a special group of people that it liked to hang out and chat with, like a culture Mind picking its favorites, that of course didn't give them any special power or privileges other than a personally meaningful friendship and pride in having helped usher in the new age, but you weren't one of them. despite having spent decades of your life in work and study bringing it into the world it just has a normally courteous and kind-but-distant relationship with you cause you're kind of boring and unpleasant

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The Crimson Kimono, 1959 (dir. Sam Fuller)

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💐🤍A few random photos of Kurt Cobain with red hair🤍💐