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Everyone look out I got this text and I’m just looking out for you guys, calling out the preds 😭

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Finished here’s my breakfast/lunch/whatever

It was 185 cals, now imma drink so peppermint tea to feel cleansed as well as a Diet Coke 😂

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I’m gonna give myself a little bit of room in my cal limit today because I’ve been pretty strict and I need my mom to see me eat so she doesn’t think I’m relapsing, so I’m setting the cal limit to be 650 today after I complete my 40 hour fast 🫶🏼

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Y’all some how I managed to get my mom to help me get all these low cal foods, like apples, low cal yogurt and shit like that and she did this after the conversation of when talking about my ed “I’m not gonna do this shit with you again” and then right after buying that stuff for me and letting me skip dinner 😭 I call this perfection at it’s finest 🤌🏽

Not to mention the fact that I literally have been fasting successfully which hasn’t happened since I was a literal child soooo I’m so proud of myself for finally doing something right. When I give my stats after weighing myself I want y’all to know I gained so much because I went from being a really bad bulimic and losing a massive amount of weight to people threatening me into “recovery” kind of and then I sorta got a binge eating disorder where I wasn’t even doing anything to get rid of it smh so embarrassing but now my therapist wants to give me a new diagnosis with Ana in the name which kinda bosted my ego a bit tbh…

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New month

That means that even if u b!nged or smt u can reset

U can and will do better this month

This month is for us

Whatever you’ve been manifesting will become true

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🌸🍄❤️reblog to manifest successful fasts for everyone❤️🍄🌸

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Total calories for today but I deadass just got done purging so idek how much is in my body, I’m just crying and I feel so pathetic like dude I thought my last relapse was bad. This shit is real now… imma do hella workouts tmrw and I was never one to work out when my ed was active before but um like I said this shit got real asf this time so here we go, imma try my best not to eat tmrw fr I will be perfect! Im sorry for being such a failure today 😭

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Not my ex boyfriend telling me how shitty he feels about cheating on me and how sorry he was that he didn’t change in the multiple chances I gave him and not him telling me he still loves me and always will like no bffr

Like shit you helped my relapse become more intense that’s the only thing I can thank you for…

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i love receiving sweet messages 🎀

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So here’s todays meal, I’ll just pretend eat if I have to for dinner, I’m putting the before and after of what I ate, supposed to be like 240 gals but I took two small bites of the oatmeal and was done lmao, now I’m about to make my dietary supplement/weight loss powder drink!

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fasting while depressed is literally so boring like i have done nothing but lie in bed all day

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Only make it 12 😭

something inside of me died that year

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I started a 36 hr fast, completed it, and it’s still running, debating whether imma break it and eat under 500 or if imma just go even longer and not eat today, but if I do it then I wanna burn it all off, or maybe just purge and call it a day, idk? Decisions am I right?

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idk if those “spells” work but………. somehow it’s working, is it a placebo? anyways 10 lbs weight loss spell!

like to charge

reblog to release

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Literally same

i refuse to acknowledge that i have an issue until i look like i have an issue

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Real

I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me

Why can’t I be the way I want to be