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Elf undercover. Don't drop the tray, don't get exposed, don't slip out..

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an angel falls from heaven straight into your trash can wyd?

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shirts that would go hard in the transbian bdsm scene

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Several documentaries publically treating Luigi Mangione as guilty before his trial even started got released over the past 2 months.

Here's the billion dollar companies behind them.

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What should have happened on their parents' couch. :3c

I quite like drawing in greyscale, haven't had a good opportunity to do so before these beauties.

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despite Salem being a purple rabbit he is def a NIGGA!

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my fits the 1 in 15 days I dont have horrible dysphoria:

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Have been trying to get away from my social media sources (reddit and tumblr primarily) for awhile with moderate success. Going downhill overall recently, really do not feel that safe in my rural town (although there are alot of lovely people here). One of these days I will move to Portland and attempt to stop being a basement dweller. I need to somehow overcome my sort of hoarding habits and make a space for myself that is conducive to mental health, focus, and growth. I know change comes from within and moving somewhere else, or adopting new internet habits will only be a small piece of the puzzle but I am hoping that I can work on bringing myself to a better place though internal and external factors. I had a very clear image of my true goals when taking shrooms for the first time. I was brought out of my mental haze. I remembered how much there is to appreciate, how much I take for granted, and how much I can actually do and change about myself. I have come a long way in the past few years (and lost progress in spots too), I just need to be patient and not loose sight of my goals.

Battling my very weird sort of brain fog depression is hard. So many variables, all of which interact. I fear I have been relying on weed a bit too much for alot of coping (it really helps me with sensory processing at the expense of my already shit short term memory). SSRIs did help me in the past (when I was forced on them for SH and other stuff), although they changed my life for the worse in the long run permanently altering(flattening?) my emotions. I fear that genetically I am doomed to fight this for the rest of my days. I respect mental illness as part of me, and part of the decisions I make (on an artistic and self expression level), but at the same time would like to manage.

Not sure exactly why I am writing this but I hope someone can ither relate, or future me will read this and reflect. We will see I guess.

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old mikurin thing i dont think i ever posted here

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hello my name is drama YouTuber #434255 and today's topic is this transgender creator who became a lolcow so I will do the honors of deadnaming and misgendering them and showing personal information from their personal life including their kinks and sex life and show you how crazy they are by displaying their psychotic meltdowns for thousands to see but they did an oopsie so I am completely justified in dehumanizing this person for bottom of the barrel slop content that's on par with reheated fast food. btw I'm the good guy of all moral standing.

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portland is so much more chill than my small town, love it here

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I dont know who this is addressed to but here goes:

I am in a community college course on my way to getting CCNA, although I have no idea what to do or where I am going after. I do not want to work for a large corporation, and I definitely do not have what it takes to start my own buisness... and on top of all that im trans so my options for places to work as a network tech in my town are limited. I want to be a software developer, I have been daily driving linux for years now and learning its inter workings, (as well as learning java for a class) but I just have no idea where to go that is not massive corporate/things that do not align with my values...