faunabella

[faunabella]

eurhghgrrrr rant, unrelated to sexy stuff this time i just don't want this on my main because i'm Very Hateful Towards My Shitty Mother

p ht zv zv zv zv zv zv zv mbjrpun apylk vm tf tvt. zol jhu ipajo hz tbjo hz zol dhuaz iba pm p nla thk hivba Huf Mbjrpun Aopun zol flssz ha tl huk puzbsaz tl iljhbzl nvk mbjrpun mvyipk p mlls ltvapvuz aoha pujvucluplujl aol xbllu vm aol mbjrpun bupclyzl. nvk mvyipk p dhua av ahrl aol aptl av jhst kvdu dpaovba oly ""mpepun"" zopa iljhbzl zol jhu'a ohuksl HUFVUL'Z mbjrpun ltvapvuz vy zpa dpao kpzjvtmvya mvy adv tlhzsf mbjrpun zljvukz. oly olhk pz zv mhy bw oly bnsf mbjrpun hzz aoha zol qbzapmplz lclyf vbujl vm ibsszopa zol zwldz. zol'z wlymlja huk jhu kv uvaopun dyvun :) zol ohz uv mshdz :) lclyfvul lszl pz aol wyvislt :) zol'z zv mbjrpun jvuayvsspun iba uvvv lclyfvul lszl pz aol wyvislt mvy ilpun avv zluzpapcl iljhbzl zol jhu ulcly il pu aol dyvun LCLY.

p dpzo zol'k qbza mbjrpun kyvw klhk hsylhkf. zol hjaz sprl zol'z zvvvvv zlsmslzz huk wbyl dolu zol jhu'a lclu kv aol ihyl mbjrpun tpuptbt. p't wylaaf zbyl zvtlvul dov dhz ZV dvuklymbssf zlsm zhjypmpjpun huk jvuzpklyhal dvbsku'a zjylht ha aolpy jopsk, vy ovsk aolt kvdu huk opa aolt, vy npcl aolt glyv zwhjl av mlls ltvapvuz, vy thrl aolt aol vul dov ohz av ahrl jhyl vm fvb huk fvby ibsszopa, vy flss ha aolt dolu gvupun vba hmaly ilpun zjylhtlk ha, vy bzl mvvk paltz av wshjhal aolt av hcvpk ahrpun hjjvbuahipspaf, vy wbywvzlsf slhcl aolt mbjrpun klwluklua vu fvb iljhbzl fvb'yl zv nvkkhtu whaolapj fvby luapyl pkluapaf ylzaz pu ilpun h "nvvk" tvaoly. oho. mbjrpun opshypvbz. nvvk tf hzz. fvb'yl uva lclu kljlua ha aopz wvpua.

Lbno. p't cpvslua. p dhua av zayhunsl aoha kpznbzapun ipajo. p ohal oly cvpjl. p ohal oly mhjl. p ohal oly hwwlhyhujl. p ohal oly thuuly vm zwlljo. p ohal oly xbpyrz. p ohal lclyfaopun hivba aoha cpsl jylhabyl.

p klzlycl h tlkhs mvy aol htvbua vm zlsm ylzayhpua p ohcl av lelyjpzl. p klzlycl h Ayvwof ha aopz wvpua. Nvk.

[faunabella]

ok done complaining again i FINALLY found this rly niche website where the video still worked. Good. i am a master at finding lost media (not really i just search google very thoroughly)

siiiiighs even louder

why was my fave joi video deleted bc of a copyright claim. who Caaaaares. i found the video on another website but it won't play or let me download it :/

[faunabella]

siiiiighs even louder

why was my fave joi video deleted bc of a copyright claim. who Caaaaares. i found the video on another website but it won't play or let me download it :/

[faunabella]

i'm soooo irritated by how many of my fave videos have been deleted. literally Why. out of all the crap i've saved, why is it my favorite ones.

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Sighs Loudly

[faunabella]

OH THANK GOD I FOUND ONE OF THE DELETED VIDEOS

thank you people who reupload videos to alternate websites i am KISSING you on the MOUTH i am doing literally whatever you want as thanks 🙏🙏🙏

except now i'm too irritated to be horny so ig i'll just download it for later lol

[faunabella]

u don't understand how cranky i am it was such a good video it was a creampie compilation where the guy was actually extremely vocal and u could see his dick throbbing close up,,, ghghgh i'm so irritated trying to find similar videos. STOP FUCKING PULLING OUT it's NOT a CREAMPIE if you PULL OUT if anyone dared to pull out during sex i would smack them in the face. Keep It Inside For Fucks Sake.

yeah i think my breeding kink makes me cranky LMAO it just,,, does things to me,,,,, and it's so. fucking. difficult. to find breeding kink content that appeals to ppl on the receiving end of it.

i wish i could at least remember the channel name but nOoOoOo all i remember is it had princess in the title >:(

oh and THEN, stupid google chrome replaced the title of the video w/ "video disabled" so now i can't even look it up on google to find a replacement!!!!!

i will seriously cry if i can't find it again. come on. work with me. also i need to go through and dl all my faves because this is ridiculous. do you know how much time it takes to wade through crap to find the good stuff??

NOOOO WHY DID ANOTHER ONE OF MY FAVE PH VIDEOS GET DELETED i swear to god i am going to end someone. its hard to find stuff i like. let me fucking have this 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

[faunabella]

NOOOO WHY DID ANOTHER ONE OF MY FAVE PH VIDEOS GET DELETED i swear to god i am going to end someone. its hard to find stuff i like. let me fucking have this 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

[faunabella]

did you know that masturbating is 100x better with a needy dom pressed beside you, kissing and biting you and begging you to cum for them, telling you you're doing so good and they're so proud, asking you "yeah baby?" in a desperate tone when you get loud and twitchy because you're close, and holding you tight with their hand over your mouth and praise on their lips when you finally do cum for them?

[faunabella]

[faunabella]

yall ever masturbate so hard you start begging like “fuck-pleasepleaseplease” even though you’re the one fucking yourself? or is that just me.

[faunabella]

bangs head into wall

why oh why must i be into things that people deliberately misunderstand and stigmatize?

bang bang bang bang bang bang

[faunabella]

Subs who get all needy easily are so precious and cute. All their dom had to do is kiss their neck and they're squeezing their thighs together, letting out little whimpers and yet their dom has barely started "such a needy angel" say between kisses.

[faunabella]

it is So Weird being into things when ur 14, then being like "nah i wasn't into that i was just confused/figuring things out" then years later at 22 being like ........ so actually young teen me was right all along

[faunabella]

.......ahhhhh so it turns out i'm extremely into the caregiver/little dynamic. like i want someone to be Niceys to me n take care of me and i already act rather childlike sometimes anyway just as my general personality.

ough the effort it's taking me not to immediately turn it around because i feel so uncomfortable and guilty wanting that sort of thing when i'm used to being the one to give and nurture instead

my maladaptive instinct is to push care away and flip it around so i'm taking care of someone instead. even in fictional scenarios i get embarrassed and panicked!! aahhh!!! what do you mean you just want to be nice to me because you Want To and not because you're trying to get something from me????? what do you MEAN you're not doing it out of obligation that will lead to inevitable resentment??? what do you mean i'm not doing you a favor by pushing you away and rejecting your care?????

well anyway. i'm going to be mulling over this for a while i guess. i love it but it also genuinely utterly terrifies me. which kind of kills the sex appeal (and emotional appeal) obviously if i'm sitting here trying not to break something or randomly start crying from how distressed i am merely thinking about it. like ough it feels so pathetic and burdensome like nooo you dumb bitch you should be the one to take care of others instead!!! you should be mature and serious and useful and Not Weak!!! i admire those who can embrace the desire openly because i for one feel like i am radiating radioactive levels of shame.

the dynamic may be reciprocal and both parties may receive something from it but hmgh my brain struggles to compute that so it makes me panic. like taking care of me could make someone happy? and provide them care in return by the simple act of it?? not royally piss them off and make me indebted to them???? not make them slowly hate me and resort to yelling at me or hitting me or complaining about how annoying i am??? hmmmmmmmmmmm. Odd. Weird. Bizarre. Unheard Of.

[faunabella]

Cumming on your hand in front of her and making her lap it up out of your palm like a good pet earning a treat.

[faunabella]

oh i forgot one of my alters is literally into this but in a dom way LMAO he hasn't fronted in ages,,,,,

well my point still stands i didn't know i liked it in a submissive way until now and it feels Weird

anyway. ehhhh. i didn't think i was into the whole daddy kink thing at all. buuuuuut.....

i read something recently that made me go oh that's odd. then oh wait do i like it. then oh shit i think i like it. then OH NO I REALLY DON'T HATE IT

so. hmmmmmm. the whole associated community isn't my thing. also me being demisexual definitely impacts my interest in it as i have NO interest in complete strangers calling themselves daddy or anything of the sort it actually makes me cringe like who are you to think i'd trust u for even a second?????

but hmghh,,,, someone who is niceys and takes care of u and supports u being that,,,,,,, appeals to me i can't lie,,,,, feeling safe is so sexy (i have crippling ptsd so it also unironically terrifies me)

also don't ask what i've been reading lately to be learning all these new things abt myself it's kind of a long story lol