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HELLO YES! I FINALLY DID AN ARTFIGHT ATTACK! YIPPEE!!!!!! I needed to draw a critter and luckily this guy is literally Named Critter.

playing around with backgrounds..... i had fun with the swirly bits, hopefully it looks as nice to others as i think it does??? ehehe...

oc is owned by my friendo @act11as !!!! thanks for being such a good bud to me dude

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super late halloween selfie!!!!!!!!!!

posting this before i get scared and go back on my decision to share....

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is there truly any relationship more intimate than between a very dangerous person and the one person they trust to stop them?

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Didn't mean to make a whole ref sheet but the doodles were nice so i... just kept going

any mistakes are from my body deciding it was done but my brain needing to finish!!!! .

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alternate reaction image:

when [SPOILER] [SPOILER] right in front of Faust "Everyone can change for the better and have good inside them if I just try" Maples

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when [SPOILER] [SPOILER] right in front of Faust "Everyone can change for the better and have good inside them if I just try" Maples

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allegory for depression what allegory for depression (: dunno what you're talking About

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There is an ache inside of me.

It's always there, stalking the back of my mind. Sometimes it's just a lurker, almost imperceptible. Sometimes it is all encompassing, a nagging, dragging feeling, falling, into stillness, into the cold.

I feel a constant chill, deep in my chest, my stomach, my bones. A feeling that aches rhythmically, but also numbs, like sticking bare hands in snow. When I am around others it almost disappears into laughter and cheer, but as soon as I find myself alone again...

... There's a reason I haven't been to a doctor since I was a child. Once, during a down spiral, I wondered if I even had a heart and counted the beats. Do you know what I counted? Four per minute. ... Is the cold from my blood? Is the ache its longing to return home, to the warmth and comfort of my heart? It would explain why I feel it from my core to my fingertips but.... No... It's something else, something More, something missing. A desperate feeling between nostalgia, déjà vu, and loneliness. I try to place it, to figure out just what it is that I need, but it's always just out of reach. I desperately try to claw my way towards it, sometimes, I even feel like I make progress, but it never truly lasts.

Have you ever felt longing for something you aren't even sure exists? The pain of knowing that you don't know. A total absence of knowledge. The non existence, thick and raw and screaming. Nerves on edge from knowing the nothing in and of itself feels like a physical, dangerous thing?

... I'm not afriad of what's inside of me.

I'm afraid of what isn't.

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AF attack on @mpc07-foundtheinternet 's pokemon irl oc Kc!!! :3 hanging out together with my oc Shilo n having some hot drinks

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AF attack on @a-photo-of-a-cryptid 's character Sprite!!!!! Its doggie is worried 3:

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AF REVENGE ATTACK ON @act11as on its oc Paris!!!!! RAAAAH VENGEANCE IS MINE!!!!

RATBOY PETTING HIS BOYRAT

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"CONCUSSIVE BLAST!"

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Alright so I'm trying to draw without picturing the end product, and not forcing myself to clean it up unless I have the energy. And I am enjoying drawing a lot more already. I do want to try to make the pictures in my head one day, but for now making myself think of just the basic idea and seeing how it goes as I do it helps me not spiral into loathing. :D however I did forget her horns. They're small nubs anyways but. Pretend there are nubs. I already uploaded it. Djhdhd

Big big big thanks and shout out to my friendo @dreamsy990 for advice on how to not get super upset at my own drawings, it's really helping. Hope it's okay to tag you i can undo it if you want

Me rambling about lore under cut

Ri does a thing where they can go into a berserk frenzy and ignore pain and massive wounds as part of having a dragon lineage, but due to not being a full dragon the recoil afterwards is Very Bad. (So that the character I also use as my fursona isn't completely a Mary Sue lmao)

At some point later in the universe she's in I am heavily considering that she eventually loses an eye in a fight and gets a glass eye. Luckily their universe has magic so at least it's enchanted so that she doesn't completely lose depth perception. That would probably be bad for flying. The turn of events has some story symbolism and stuff but I've already talked a lot on a post that I just meant to show a semi decent sketch on. Woops.

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Writing down both of these to try to think About which sounds better

Faust: Hey, Lucas... I was wondering...

Lucas: Mph?

F: Do you ever want to find the people who killed you?

L: Eh, why would I?

F: You're always hunting down bad people for justice's sake... But what about yourself? Don't you want to find who did this to you?

L: .... Hmph. In lotsa stories I've heard, whenever there's a vengeful ghost or some sort of spooky weirdo, when they complete the whatever stupid thing that kept them tied down to the mortal realm, they disappear. I don't exactly know what I am. But if I'm a ghost...

... I don't wanna disappear.

F: ... But what if they do it again?

L: .... I've never really thought about that being possible before... But... I have to think of myself. *Touches his neck scar* this is a reminder... that I come first. To never let anyone in, not anymore.

F: *genuinely upset* you really mean that?

L: *not quite realizing the implications of what he's saying* No one, ever again.

-OR-

Faust: Have you ever... Thought about hunting down the people who murdered you, Lucas?

Lucas: Mmm... Sometimes. I'm sure some of the cult members are still around. Maybe even worshipping still. Just don't know where.

F: Oh...

*A few beats of silence*

F: ... It just makes me nervous to think about.

L: ?

F: in those old movies and ghost stories, whenever there's a spirit that needs to do something important... they disappear after... to wherever we go.

L: ... Hm... Guess we'd just have to see.

F: ... i dont want anyone i care about to disappear...

L: ...

F: ...

L: ... we'll just have to see.

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Was told to draw an oc in Victorian Dress, 'n I decided to choose Miles, who would act like he hates it. Sorry my dude that I finally drew you again and instead of a proper ref sheet it's a shit post...

Not bad? My own opinion in my art is admittedly really abysmal tho. I think I'd give him darker fur in future drawings if there are any.

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I've decided that in Crystalverse the main character (who is basically my fursona but just also her own character) is older she'll have lost one of her eyes in a fight, paralleling her father losing his eye, and that being his turning point to a path of murder and resentment, her turning point in her arch is learning to control her temper and be less egotistical and understand the hardships others go through. Also the new glass eye will look mostly like her original but have slightly different colors around the pupil, it will be the color of her late mother's eyes. Possibly more symbolism that she is taking more after her mother.

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Artfight attack on @justketerthings :3

Couldn't reach my AF goal, but I did really good I think on number of drawings. Sorry it's sketchy, still recovering. Such a cute lil fox character tho, I can't resist foxes.