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Please universe let something super lesbian happen to me during pride month

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they should invent a world that's worthy of having trans girls in it

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every day you wake up and there's new trans girls in the world. they just realized a little bit ago. isn't that wonderful?

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so many of the transfems i know spent their time pre-transition performing a kind of lifelong exercise in self-deprivation, the goal of which was to find out exactly how little a person needed to live. they starved themselves, dressed carelessly, shunned friends, and hollowed themselves out so as not to be burdens on anyone but themselves.

i see it now, too, in the girls around me. i'll ask if they want care – a home-cooked meal, relaxed company, sex without the expectation of reciprocation – and they say no, no, thank you, i don't need it; what would you like, what do you want, because in their head they're still doing that awful calculus, still training themselves to disappear in the eyes of the people around them.

i don't think i'd have died without transition – not in the conventional sense, at least – but to take that leap, i had to stop thinking of myself as a human experiment in fuel-efficient living and start nurturing the anemic, atrophied flame of desire in my heart. i had to learn to eat well, to exercise, to style myself beautiful, but harder than that, i had to learn to ask the people around me to work on my behalf in order to enrich my life and give me the things i wanted.

and i did it; i learned. and it was agony, but courage is a muscle you can train, and every day i get better at accepting gifts with the hungry gratitude i never learned in my years and years as a sad, scared, lonely boy.

so be patient with the trans girls in your life. better than that: be proactive, attentive, generous; be forceful, if you have to, and learn to distinguish real discomfort from the terrified reflex of self-denial that so many of us once learned to rely on.

and if you are so lucky as to love a trans girl, you must insist upon her. you must insist upon her happiness, her comfort, her pleasure, and her rest, because she may still not yet know how to make those demands for herself. if you can devote any amount of energy to becoming an engine that nurtures the flame of even a single tgirl then there is a place for you in trans heaven, which as far as i'm concerned is the only one worth going to

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Even if your transfem friends say they’re fine with being called bro they’d probably still prefer being adressed using feminine language. They might be afraid to tell you. Just call her girl.

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transfem trying to do another transfem’s makeup but she keeps getting distracted by how pretty her face is.

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this would fix me

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Thinking about brushing her hair out of the way so I can admire her face before we kiss

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i think trans women should get whatever they want for free forever.

weapons. a pizza. no taxes. titties. oncology. drugs. international espionage.

people who disagree are loser evil hellions.

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Cuddling trans girls is the best. They're so nice and soft to feel against your skin. It's a wonderful feeling, letting them nuzzle against your breast while you stroke their hair and tell them you love them. Things are scary and dangerous for us, but nothing matters in that moment. It's just you and her and your heart beating as one. Your mind connected in the shared thought of how much you love each other. It's taking her all in; her body, her mind, her scent, her breathing, her heartbeat, and realizing that you wouldn't trade anything to not be in that moment. That you will protect this girl for as long as you can, as long as there are stars above you. Knowing that this girl is being so vulnerable, that she's laying herself bare for you to dissect, that you are being just as vulnerable, that you love this girl so much it doesn't matter. It's the inherit sisterhood of transfemminity. It's beautiful. I love you so much sister.

t4t will save us all.

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suspiciously huggable transfem: ah don’t worry i don’t need any love or affection.

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Hearing a trans girl’s laugh would fix me

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those soft kiss where you keep smiling and giggling into each others mouths, and tugging each other forward for even more after pulling away, still keeping your hands against their waist, pinning them to whatever surface you can find, and kiss and kiss and

yep

that’s what i want

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big fan of women

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Hot take: trans girls should get more hugs.

Source: I want cuddles.

This has been my TEDTalk.

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We must destroy capitalism so there is more time for cuddling with the girls.