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it's already the second week of the half term and I've done NOTHING

how am i gonna come back from this

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i think i fell off

i've lost all of my academic rigour

(which was already limited)

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My favorite jokes are about mispronouncing philosophers' names but I'm afraid it's a nietzsche subgenre

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or not! they didnt let me. I cried a lot. I think my head of year hates me. but at least it's mutual

I've unfortunately dropped a level further maths

I feel like such a failure

Even though I know it's probably the right decision

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And now I dropped sociology!

Back to further maths I go ^^

I've unfortunately dropped a level further maths

I feel like such a failure

Even though I know it's probably the right decision

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I've unfortunately dropped a level further maths

I feel like such a failure

Even though I know it's probably the right decision

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a fun new way to remember the sin/cos/tan graphs:

in Christianity sinning is a result of The Fall

to fall is to move from a higher to a lower level

this means sin, unlike cos, must go through zero. this is because zero is lower than one.

sinning doesn't result in ultimate ascension to Heaven (unless atoned for), which is why the sin graph will continue to alternate between lower and higher.

the tan graph can only go higher up to Heaven (because it isn't sinful)

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a library is where I feel most at home. surrounded by words and knowledge, even the smallest space can feel grand as I gaze upon it in awe. wether a tiny cozy library, like the one at my school, or a large spacious one, they are places that I can feel truly comfortable and at peace in. suddenly all other worries are meaningless and I can focus only on the task in front of me. I can walk down rows of books, study quietly at a desk, or sit in a corner reading: all with the muffled blanket of quiet yet constant background noise.

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first day of mocks done. it actually wasn't anywhere near as bad I thought it would be? i wrote so much in sociology and actually kind of knew what I was doing in maths

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my thoughts about upcoming mocks:

these exams are the least important I'll ever do in sixth form. therefore I can fuck them up if circumstance dictates it necessary (it does)

i've been so depressed for the past month or so that I gave up on revision entirely. i have 6 exams, for 4 subjects this week and realistically no last minute studying I can do now will make a particularly significant difference.

if I were to pull all-nighters or spend all my time studying then yes I could potentially get slightly better grades. but is it worth it if in the long run my productivity would be weakened? i can't burn myself out in one week, when I have a whole two years ahead of me.

i predict myself an A in philosophy, a B in sociology, C in maths and a D in further maths. will I be happy with it? of course not. but I know i can do better. this isn't a true reflection of my intellectual abilities so all it will do is motivate me. it'll be a warning of exactly what I don't want in any future exams.

I know I'll do badly on these exams. but I also know that I have high aims for myself. I know I want to exceed academically. and just because I've had a rough start of year 12, I truly believe if I change my mindset and become more disciplined I can leave school with top grades.

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the sexual tension between teachers and making the exam nothing like the course

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best of luck

we'll both need it

mocks are in 9 days and ive been too depressed to study over the holidays. im so insanely fucked

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mocks are in 9 days and ive been too depressed to study over the holidays. im so insanely fucked

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the year has arrived and it's a perfect square year! I have no clue if that's a good or a bad sign but we'll see