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tony stark. who wants to be loved like a dog who does tricks. He wants to be loved because he’s him, and the genius is just a bonus. He wants to be loved in a way where he knows they’d still love him if he was stupid.

I love when a character wants to be someone's dog so so bad. Dont mean it in a sexual way (although that can also be a part of it) I mean like. Let me be your loyal companion let me stay by your side give me a purpose in exchange for endless unconditional love let me stop being a person love me like it's my only use. Love me like that's the only thing I was made for. As you can tell. I'm normal.

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something so beautiful about characters at their worst, knowing this is the version of themselves that they are most scared and ashamed of. watching someone in pain is similar to watching them admit the things they don’t want to know about themselves. Similarly, people wallow in their sadness and observe their own habits in their misery because it feels like knowing themselves. When all else fails, at least they know that this version of themselves exists and can survive the current circumstances. Remain in sadness past its expiration date is like a turtle staying in its shell far past when the danger passes.

uncomfortable, yes. But safe. The safest you can get.

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FIRST step to enjoying any media is getting attached to the character whose suicidal tendencies are the most obvious

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sometimes i get a little emotional when i remember that tony stark has a reputation for being a paternal figure within the fandom even though he’s left behind every child-figure he’s had. Because yes he was doomed to tragedy but it’s the love that counts. It’s the love that matters, even if it can’t last forever.

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“I found a bike in a back alley. Good condition, other than the dust. It’s been there a while. I guess someone forgot about it… and, y’know, maybe it’s the lack of food or something that’s getting to my head, but i sat on that alley floor looking at the bike and cried. Because… someone forgot about it, y’know? There was nothing wrong with it, but it was left behind. And I thought about bringing it home, but it wouldn’t fit in the elevator and it wouldn’t be allowed up the stairs. So… even though someone wants it, it’s still going to be left again. And- god, even if i could bring it home, i can’t bring in every forgotten thing. I don’t have the space. There’s too much forgotten. I walked home without the bike, but i can’t stop thinking about it. How much of this city is… lost? Drifting? Forgotten?

I’ve taken to asking to see the lost and found different places. I tell them i lost a hoodie, and i look through the box. I don’t take anything. I think i just… I want to be prepared, if someone’s looking for something. I want to be able to say ‘you’re missing a green water bottle? It’s on the corner of first and thirty-second, in that coffee shop!’. I want to be able to reunite the lost things with anyone looking for them. But… that hasn’t happened yet. Nobody is looking. At least, nobody I see. In this city, if you lose something, you mourn it. You don’t look. It’s gone, long gone. But it’s- it’s not! It’s not. It’s right there, waiting, but- but they’ve moved on.

They throw out the stuff in the list and found after a few weeks, sometimes days. I wonder if, at some point, I’ll start digging through the landfill the way i dig through the lost and found. Not to reunite anymore. Just to… y’know. Let the things know someone still wants them.

even if it’s not the people who lost them.”

(a post nwh peter monologue)

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just a look into my sick and twisted mind

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obsessed with jesus characters

characters who seem like they should have exclusionary and bigoted ideals and values but they just don’t. and people do not believe them, no matter what they do.

and jesus characters, characters who recognize objectively that their own suffering is well worth the repercussions, so they inflict suffering onto themselves with no hesitancy… just with some fear. They don’t want to hurt, but they know it is what is best. They’ll walk towards their death but their breath will shudder.

and also. jesus characters who are seen as untouchable by the people who also want to be untouchable (aristocrats, rich, politicians, aspiring holier-than-thou’s) but is actually entirely approachable and makes which friends with those who see him as simply another person (children and fisherman and sex workers). He is a mirror, and treats people with the same friendliness they would give others.

And jesus characters who are forced into social circles by their status, but really, they’d rather be alone. and they’ll play the game and be with people, but will always retreat when they need to feel like themselves again. Retreating to a solitary place to be alone with one’s thoughts, despite the whole world looking for them and their attention.

And jesus characters, who would despise how the fandom characterizes them.

I like jesus characters.

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there’s a world somewhere where tony died in that wormhole and they grieved him, but then realized that he has more iron man suits. they are still functional, all in their own, without a pilot.

There’s a world in which an iron man suit continued helping the avengers long after tony’s death. and everyone calls the suit “tony” and acts as though there is a pilot within the suit. There isn’t, but it’s easier to pretend there could be.

Pepper kisses the faceplate. Steve jokes that tony’s body is now as strong as he is. Bruce learns more mechanics just so he can “stitch up” “tony” after battles.

And they all love him. and he is long gone.

and it was, in fact, much easier to love him once he was Iron Man and nothing else.

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i think tony looked into that wormhole the way a surfer looks at the word through the hole of sunlight in the crashing wave. It’s knowing that this is exactly where he wants to be, even if it means he breaks his body and heart to get there. And everyone watching knows that he is alone inside the wave, and what happens now is between him and poseidon. He caught the wave and wont ever be the same, one way or the other.

No wonder he comes out the other side with a taste for broken boards and saltwater up his nose. no wonder he’s a little more scared of and allured by impact pressure. He saw inside the eye of a wave and the eye of the sky, and he met eyes with god in that moment.

I don’t know. i think the feeling of flying into the wormhole felt a lot like that calm when the wave crashes over you and you’re still standing, for now.

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post nwh peter getting hurt and ignoring it like always until it gets infected and he’s like. okay yeah somethings actually wrong.

and he has to face that he doesn’t have the option to get help anymore, even though he finally admitted he needed it

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anyone else rocking with tony stark having a dissociative disorder. Personally big fan

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fic from tony’s perspective after getting back from the ship at the start of endgame

where he holds it together fine at first. Long enough to find out who is alive and who isn’t. but the MOMENT he is alone, reality starts to slip and his body doesn’t feel real and the things around him don’t quite feel there and he keeps forgetting that things exist outside his head. And he’s so heavily dissociated that when steve comes in to check on him, he’s 90% sure it’s his brain messing with him, and tony refuses to let steve near enough to touch him because he KNOWS what happens if people touch him in his nightmares.

Tony, very very out of it and dissociated, interacting with a steve who didn’t know how bad it could get

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it’s just occurred to me that there could in theory be an obediah allusion in doomsday. If doom acts friendly towards peter in order to use his talent.

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if BND ends up being lighthearted and not devastating i’m gonna need an edit of it to Mirrorball by taylor swift because nothing will convince me that his lightheartedness isn’t performance, even to us as the audience

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ok specific but i love ship dynamic where character A would stand on the ledge of a train station with their back to the rails and wouldn’t flinch as character B approaches because either they fall on the tracks or there’s a train behind and they get kissed and either option works for them

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“Tony, you’d kill yourself if it meant you got to be the center of attention” and tony nods because he would, because usually it’s Iron Man or The Stark Heir or Playboy Tony who is the center of attention, or who gets ANY attention, and he’s starting to think that maybe tony himself as he is is invincible, and he has to put on a show in order to be looked at. and he would die if it meant getting proof to the contrary. but he knows he’ll never get it.

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peter, out of desperation, starts applying to jobs AS spider-man. like. hello i’m spiderman can i be a barista.

series of short clips of him in full spider man suit voice moderator answering “can you speak about a time you failed” “how would your friends describe you” “Tell me about yourself!”