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I don't understand. When I have something I feel is important to say I just can't say it. It won't come out. I can talk about to my headmates all day but when I try to put it to paper or say it out loud my brain scrambles the words to the point I literally cannot say them. I even forget the words I just thought about exist at all.

Sometimes something comes out, but its not usually what I meant to say.

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Plural Culture is sometimes wondering who you would be if you were never a system

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Shoutout to all the hosts who thought arguing with the guys in your head was a normal way of “thinking about things” 😭

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Plural Culture is "I know we just switched. I am absolutely not the person who was just fronting.

But who the fuck am I??"

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Reblog if you struggle with anxiety, depression, anorexia, bulimia, EDNOS, BPD, bipolar disorder, self harm, suicidal thoughts, PTSD, insomnia, or OCD.

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That’s a nice even number of alters you got there buddy, would be a shame if we… split another one ☻

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experienced a trauma recently? you may be entitled to: a new fucking guy in your head

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Talking to you, Elliot….please?😅

He will do amazing, help the system immensely, then just disappear again 😭

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Me, the host: *doesn't front for 3 days* wow that's spooky time is weird I don't like it

The alter that came out of a 11 year dormancy: you're telling me

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Real shit, dude. Just…yeah.

idk if im hearing voices because of headmates or psychosis

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A LOT OF THINGS CAN BE TRAUMATIC FOR CHILDREN UNDER THE AGE OF 10

I CAN'T STRESS THIS ENOUGH

WATCHING YOUR PARENTS FIGHT ALMOST EVERYDAY CAN BE TRAUMATIC

BULLYING CAN BE TRAUMATIC

BEING YELLED AT FOR DOING MINOR MISTAKE CAN BE TRAUMATIC

NOT GETTING PROPER ACCOMODATION AND COPING MECHANISM FOR YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS CAN BE TRAUMATIC

NEGLECT CAN BE TRAUMATIC

STRESSED OUT FROM BEING "GIFTED CHILD" CAN BE TRAUMATIC

YOU WERE A CHILD

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I’m gonna un-fakeclaim y’all real quick.

You’re a real system. You’re the realest system. Look at all your symptoms. You’re clearly a system. Think about your alters. Yep, everything about your alters, you’re def a system. Your system is full of variety? Yep, you’re real. Your system has little/no variety? You’re real. Omg, there’s no way you think you’re faking. You’re so real.

No no, imma stop you right there, because I know what you’re gonna say. “Oh but this and this and this-!” That doesn’t matter. You’re real. You’re a real and valid system.

Anyways imma head to bed now, goodnight all you very real systems!

- 🧿 (Luc)

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//tw mentions of denial and abuse//

something that really sucks for us and makes our denial worse is the lack of representation of covert systems

like... yeah obviously, there's not really going to be any because it's COVERT but it also makes us feel so fake

we don't lead a "double life" or whatever you want to call it no alter has friends irl that nobody else knows about no alter is joining a club without anybody else in the system knowing etc.

we don't switch and suddenly start walking or speaking with a different accent in public most of our switches are super discreet, like literally just pausing to take a deep breath, and then we keep going

our trauma is often invalidated because, honestly, from what i know, it's just 90% neglect and the other 10% are seeing our siblings being emotionally abused. which, yeah, was pretty bad but nowhere near as bad as the "typical" trauma we always hear about

it always makes us feel less valid and that's frustrating

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That moment when another alter said something really out of pocket and you reread the messages