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*dances in your inbox*

aww *claps to your dance*

I will try and open my free requests either tonight or within 3 days x I wish I had practised more during my time away but that isnt how it always works

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Yo welcome back! Feeling okay?

thank you x

I mean not wonderful but not really bad either;functionable and and crying everyday and able to look after my mother.

I also feel better equipped to deal with people and be more sociable x

my moms chemo results have been good, as it is stage 4 they cant ever say "cancer free" but they can say what organs cancer have stopped being detected in such as for her bones and lungs.

She will always need scans and anti cancer injections , prob her whole life and could need another round of chemo down the line but I am staying optimistic and so is she.

with my dad its been rough I just tell myself he is at peace , time helps heal wounds and I think me and my family give him a lovely personalised funeral , I and my family still get down days but all of us are stronger and brighter than before.

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Yay spam ask time ❤️

<3 AWW *pats your head*

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Thoughts on Big Jack Horner?

really good villain, I guess the joke about him is he is "irredeemable monster" he doe not have a sad villian back story

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still contact your mutuals?

yes but tbh for the longest time I had isolated myself and talked to very few people . I felt most comfortable taking to randompurr first , now I will just go with the flow so will prob talkto more if they are around x

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Sorry about your blorbo. Yeah they were used for a painting awhile ago. Yeah the pattern looked cool so they were recycled into a craft. Yeah they got turned into a tote bag. You can have the bag if you want it.

sounds neat (= a homemade bag

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OP! how are you?

Better, I was barely able to function before and everything was piling on me, now I am able to smile more and be strong , it has not been easy but I am functioning and better able to be there for people around me (=

I will have to open free requests soon xx

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Hey! you’re back ❤️

hi <3 ya its been rough but I am feeling a lot more functional and have a more healthy mindset.

My moms chemo has also been having good results so fingers crossed xx

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you still draw these days?

A little x I had not been as much due to me mourning but I was working on my ocs yesterday.

Hope to do free requests again soon xx

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Trout pillow for your oc?

hell yeah my OC Yin would love some!

here’s a bonus! Yin and Johnny with gourami fish set pillow thanks to @friendlystarfruit’s idea <3

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How are you feeling now

I had been pretty low.....now I am doing a bit better not like super duper but functional.

I'm sober and taking care of myself better

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what would you do if someone put meat in your salad?

I would cry x(

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:( op

hi sweetie do you need aa digital hug x?

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What are some things that you find genuinely funny and make you laugh??

impractical jokers xxx

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Hello sweetie I want to say I read you're previously posts and I'm very very very sorry for you're loss. Losing someone you love is honestly going to take time to heal. Please take the time you need. You don't need to worry about anything but please take care of you're mental health. My prayers and condolences go to your mother I hope she recovers. If you need anything please reach out to me. You're father is no longer suffering and is in heaven watching you and I know he he'll always be proud and love you.

A flower cross for you're father

Stay strong you got this 🙂

Blurry 🕯✝️

thank you sweetie xx Its been a rough time but at least at the moment I am somewhat more stable xx

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dude.....I burst into tears reading this........these artworks are so comforting and honestly....today is the day I wanna be nice to myself....treat myself as a friend , somebody that deserves to get better and feel loved

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hey beautiful angels sorry if I have not responded (to name a few names @blurryfangirlansuke and @randompurr ) I have been mourning my dad and worrying about my Moms health but........man you guys thankyou for your sweet words.......I am in tears I am thankful you are lovely people.........but I am a mess and just trying to get myself back on track <3 so I can talk to you guys again (=

Honestly.........I also feel a lot of deep shame I have been struggling with alcoholism and self harm, I have not been in a good place.........I feel deep disgust in myself with how self destructive I can be , but I wanna love myself and get on track and am taking steps toward that I have mad progress but with my dads passing I have had a blip, I also know as long as my Mom keeps kicking I will get through, she is my soulmate and I want her to live long and happy ......I wanna make her proud xxx

You are wee babes x <3 I am really thankful for your kindness xxxxxx