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I want my body torn apart

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Day 6:

I think I binge. I have Arfid so my only safe foods are ones that have a lot of calories and sometimes I like eat an entire pizza in one sitting so yknow… I would count that

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Day 5:

I think I’m losing weight to look better. My grandma is the size of a twig and always makes fun of my weight so that as well. I suppose I’m also doing it because I don’t want to be the fattest one in my dance class lmao

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Day 4:

I would have to say my greatest fears are being forced to stop and getting fat. None of the symptoms really worry me but I don’t want to get fat if I recover

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Day 3

I’m not gonna put a picture but def wonyoung. Her thigh gap, the way her ribs show so clearly and how thin her arms are! Literally goals.

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Day 2!:

I’m 5’4, I am pretty happy with my height. If I were to change anything I would probably be a little taller like 5’6 or smth but I don’t really care

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I'm gonna try and do this since I actually need to lock tf in for my dance competitions coming up. Really don't wanna be fat on stage.

Day 1:

cw: 117.9lbs

gw:110lbs

ugw:90lbs

Sw: like 130 or smth I don't remember

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I’ve let myself gain so much weight, I’m definitely the biggest in my ballet class. Imma try and go on tumblr more to get triggered back into actually starving

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One of my cuts almost got infected and I didn’t cut in a month T_T I js cut again today and I’m only hitting cat scratches I feel like shit

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The world is going to shit, why not kill myself before I see it (๑>◡<๑)

Been planning what I wanna try, probably going to a park and doing it there but idk

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Finally had the guts to try and go deeper soooo deepest cuts I’ve had for a long time! I hope they will scar really nicely, though they just kept bleeding so I had to go through a ton of tissues:’)

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Not real!

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I wish I had more irls who supported me cutting and did it aswell cuz I js want someone to cut w and for them to js randomly send me a pic of their fresh cuts and say mean shit to get to me to cut aswell😔

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Cut session!!! Super fun, loved it but got interrupted by someone coming home :( only some styros cuz my razor is dull and I don’t want to get a different one. Hope these don’t bleed for long cuz I have dance tonight and I can’t bleed through my tights again.. but recently I’ve js been cutting for fun cuz no one suspects that me wearing long pants is suspicious:)))) but it’s been my favorite hobby

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So I was cutting like normal and going great and all. I fucking ran out of space on my left thigh, I can’t go any lower cuz if I do you can see it when I’m at dance, and I can’t go any higher cuz I already have a shit ton of scars and I don’t like cutting on scars. I also don’t wanna start my right thing cuz it hurts like a bitch to start a new place so idk what to do

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Bro I wish I could cut on my arms but like my parents already know about it and it’s the first place they check so all I have now is the scars to admire😔 but the cuts on my legs are gonna scar amazingly! Wish they were deeper so they would be larger tho :’)

Sfx! Fake scars

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Finally cut for the first time in like three weeks, it felt sooo good. Only some styros and babies, but it still was pretty good

Sfx!!

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Y’all I’m actually such a big back, I ate like half a large pizza, and now I want to cut😔