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Caught him looking at a certain someone 👀

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Did anyone else think of this when first hearing those lyrics? No? Just me? Well alright then.

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This line in Octavia's song punched me in the chest. I felt it so deep in my soul. My dad has been in and out of my life pretty much through all of it. We talk on the phone occasionally and now that I'm an adult he tries to 'know me' but he doesn't actually KNOW me.

He doesn't know my favorite foods, my favorite shows. Doesn't know that I want to be an author. He knows I draw and comments on Facebook when I post them but that feels mostly for show, so that to his friends and family he looks like a dad who cares.

In truth he only cares because I'm the last of his five daughters who gives him the time of day.

He doesn't know me. He only knows my name.

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Today I am feeling... lost? Numb? Sick? I don't really know. I am so baffled because I did what I was supposed to do. I did the research, I went in person and voted. I even voted early. I did everything I was supposed to do and it feels like it meant nothing.

The part that makes me even more sick is that in the state of Florida (where I voted) The Abortion Act had more yes votes than no votes but it still lost because it didn't make it to 66% of the vote. Why should it have to? Shouldn't the most votes automatically win? Why do we have to meet a percentage?

I knew Trump was going to win Florida. I am surrounded by racist, homophobic, heartless assholes everywhere I go. I knew the name of the game in this state. But I had hoped that my vote would add up elsewhere and it would make a difference.

I feel betrayed by my family who all voted for him, I feel suffocated by the people around me who are going to be even worse now that he is president.

I spent the last 4 years he was president feeling like I couldn't breathe. Every day I was afraid he would piss off the wrong people and we would end up in world war 3! It's going to be another 4 years of feeling like I can't breathe. Another 4 years of women dying in parking lots and being powerless to speak up against men wanting to control their bodies and their lives.

I'm just so tired. I did what I was supposed to do and I'm so tired.

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Tumblr this is not fair

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I was listening to the Circe saga and Odysseus told Eurylochus that "there isn't a length I wouldn't go if it were you I had to save."

Oh how fast things turn 😭

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Odysseus in the Troy Saga: I would trade the world to see my son and wife!

Odysseus in the Thunder Saga: *trades his crews lives to see his son and wife*

Me somehow blindsided by these turn of events:

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Zeus in the Troy Saga: The blood on your hands is something you won't lose, all you can choose is who's.

Zeus in the Thunder Saga: You or your crew? Choose bitch!

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The moment Stolas stepped into that party I asked "so where's Dennis?" And I was not disappointed 🤣

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After taking some time to think about the ending of Full Moon and seeing others reaction to it, I feel like people are quick to side with Stolas and be mad at Blitz for how he acted. Sure, the fandom is seeing both people as flawed, and they are, but Blitz is definitely getting the brunt of the blame. I feel like a big reason for that is because we the fandom are in the same place as Stolas.

Stolas (and us) knew this talk was coming. Stolas (and us) thought over every outcome, considered the conversation and what might be said. Stolas (and us) had time to dwell on all of it. Blitz on the other hand was completely blindsided by it and with his inferiority complex, that's just a recipe for disaster.

He never thought stolas could actually love him, so he played it off as a joke. Once he realized it wasn't he didn't know what to think, and stolas didn't really give him the chance to stop and think about it because he was already telling Blitz goodbye.

I'm sure stolas telling him goodbye so easily after saying all that only solidified how easy it is for royals to walk away from people like him.

Then stolas says he thinks highly of blitz and is hurt about how he thinks of him and that's when blitz remembers that Stolas can be hurt and he tries to apologize and talk it out.

We and Stolas have been planning this talk for months but we have to remember that for Blitz, it completely came out of left field and he's going to need some time to sit with Stolas's confession and really let it sink in.

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His top eyes are crying too!!!😭

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"Don't bow to that one! He bows to us! Idiot!"

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How is Black Butler not trending on Tumblr? It's THE Tumblr show!

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Finally got around to making my own demonsona for Hazbin Hotel! Camilla Alexandra was one of the most famous pop stars in the world while alive. In order to become that famous though, you need to get your hands a little dirty. She would sabotage other idols that were a threat, and if they couldn’t be scared away, they would have to be removed forcefully. Permanently.

Her human life ended at 24 when an obsessed fan shot her while she was performing on stage.

In Hell, she works for Vox, making music videos and songs that help him control people to buy more Voxtech products. Though she works for him, Camilla thinks Vox is a joke and wishes she could work with Alastor instead, creating new music to be played on his radio broadcast and hopefully one day, becoming an overlord herself.

She is close to Angel Dust and has even written a few songs for his music videos. Angel tries to get her to stay at the Hazbin Hotel, but who needs redemption when you can be famous and powerful?

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Most likely unpopular opinion about The Circe Saga from Epic the Musical, but I didn't like puppeteer. It just all sounded so... off? Idk how to explain it. Maybe it was Odysseus's delivery but he sounded like a robot to me. There was no emotion in his voice and it didn't even seem like he really cared about his men. Even the way he first asks "back so soon? Where is the rest of your crew?" He tells Odysseus they got turned into pigs and there's no urgency in his voice. He just plainly says "we have to save them." He has the tone as if he shrugged and said "I'll go save them then I guess."

Perhaps he's still petty about the whole crew opening the bag thing? I really don't know.

It could just be me. Maybe with a few more listens I'll change my mind, but I've never not instantly liked a song from Epic before.

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These Fizz faces be cute though!

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I just really like this face Fizz is giving to Ozzie. That’s a ‘we have been together for years and I can see past your bullshit schemes’ face.