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[fuckyourosie]

I want to know what it’s like to not feel suicidal, to not constantly wish I wasn’t here, to want to disappear... what’s it like to be normal? I can’t remember a time when I didn’t wish I wasn’t here.

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I’m a background character in everyone’s life. I’m not important to anyone. I don’t even matter.

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Dear me,

You're nothing .

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[fuckyourosie]

[fuckyourosie]

i’m scared that when you see my body,

you’ll count my scars,

and think that i’m a freak.

because they told me,

when you see my body,

and all my scars,

the only description for me left

is

w e a k.

[fuckyourosie]

You ever sit down and realize “nobody would be really surprised if I killed myself. I mean they’d be sad sure, but not surprised”

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I feel drained by my own existence, trapped in a mind I can’t control, lost in a life that doesn’t seem to be mine.

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I am a lost cause and no one will ever come looking for me.

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How is it possible to feel like you’re too much yet not enough at the same time?

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[fuckyourosie]

I want to jump into the ocean and float away. I know I’d die. Maybe that is what I want... I want to die. It’s easier to die than to stay alive.