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I feel so demoralizing

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‘The Female Gaze’  Xin Xe and Maria Borges by Pari Dukovic for Harper’s Bazaar US September 2018

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can snapchat stop putting blue eyes into every filter? I wanna see little hearts around my face not my whitesona

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hot take but girls with ADHD don’t ‘present differently’, it’s just that misogyny punishes girls and people read as girls a lot more severely for their ADHD symptoms so most girls become way more proficient at masking their symptoms so end up being left undiagnosed and then just develop depression, anxiety, trauma and burnout over not being able to meet standards that are difficult if not impossible for people with ADHD and being harshly reprimanded for it

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thinking about all the times in life that i genuinely did create intricate rituals which allowed me to touch the skin of other women 

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I ate so much over the break but I haven’t eaten anything today so at least I’m back on it

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I want to throw up I’m so fucking disgusting

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I just wanna lose these last 10 pounds so I can stop being a fat fuck!

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I’ve eaten next to nothing in the past 24+ hours so why do I still feel disgusting

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im freaking g out about leaving my hometown i ;love it here and im so scared of going somewhere that’s not like here idk what to do

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Seeing people overeat makes me feel sick again now ugh 🤮 especially unhealthy food like my body has an adverse reaction to it especially when I have a lot of food on my plate or I eat too much then I feel the worst. The sheer size of our portions in America is enough to make me gag

I feel bad because maybe that makes me judgemental but I can’t control a bodily reaction I have nnn

It’s probably because I’ve been eating better now and how I was before disgusts me so much and it saddens me that I didn’t take care of my body and health so when I see people doing the same have the same feelings. I don’t want to feel this way but idk how not to, I feel awful about it

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I really played myself by being in an organization about sex health and rights when I can’t even listen to a discussion about consent and sexual assault without nearly crying or feeling sick we-

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I wish I had the time and money to see a therapist

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goodbye my eyebows

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my brain is so..fucking broken i can’t focus i can’t study without someone to keep me on track but i’m too sad to be around people even though i set up a study session with friends i don’t think i can make it im gonna fail both these tests i can’t focus i can’t focus it’s like tv static halp

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Told myself I was gonna be productive today but all I’ve done is practice piano, play catch with the dog, and laid in bed for the rest of the time I’m such a failure