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I did talk to my Dr once abt the pristiq bc like. okay okay okay

its an snri that like. actually works?? I can actually be somewhat functional on it. I no longer have panic attacks or go into rage meltdowns (usually) which is nice. I also no longer self harm as much either which is. good.

There is a LOT of things I love about pristiq. it has changed my life. it makes me awake too. i'm not as fatigued which is a good thing.

but it kills my libido. destroys it absolutely. and when I forget to take it? not only do I become so fucking horny I get really bad vertigo too

another shitty thing is my appetite. now ik I prob have an eating disorder but am not dx yet so that doesn't help. but it does change my hunger cues which is fucking annoying.

but. I guess the positives outweigh the negatives. I've been on it for several years now. my Dr has suggested maybe trying other meds bc of the libido killer but at the same time?? almost ALL of them kill libido if not all of them. so like. what the fuck. do I try and find one that maybe doesn't kill the libido and play the russian roulette again or do I just stick to what I know?? leaning into the latter

but I still wanna fuckin bitch.

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About Me

Name: Glory Age: 25+ Pronouns: Any Sexuality: Bisexual

Hello, and welcome to my vent blog. You can call me Glory if you wish.

I made this blog to gather resources to assist me and my loved ones regarding my mental illness, as well as give me a place to vent and learn how to better discuss my own mental illnesses and needs. I am usually a closed off individual so this sort of blog is difficult for me.

I don’t believe in DNI’s because I’m older than 12. I am an adult and try as I might I cannot make my existence purely SFW. So if you’re a minor, beware and tread lightly. I’m not your parent, so don’t expect me to fill that role.

If I’m triggering to you, don’t follow. I tag my posts to help me find them, not to help you filter your dash.

Since this is a mental illness blog, I may as well share my diagnosis’ and what I’m wishing to look into.

Officially, I’ve been diagnosed with the following:

Anxiety

Brain Injury / TBI

Depression

Insomnia

OCD

PTSD (C-PTSD)

Panic Disorder

I’m interested in getting assessed for:

Autism

BED (Binge eating disorder)

Fibromyalgia/chronic pain

I’ve been tested for and proved to not have:

ADHD

Bipolar

Some other fun facts about me that’s not all doom and gloom; I enjoy playing scifi/fantasy video games, enjoy TTRPGs, like writing and drawing, and love my cat. I do have a partner I’ve been with for several years and am monogamous. I work nights in the healthcare field, so I’m usually on during odd hours.

Usually I don’t mention my ✨controversial opinions✨ but I guess I will really quick here.

I have no interest in System Discourse. Do not involve me in it.

I am Anti-Self Dx. I’ll eventually make and link a post here as to why that is.

I am pro-recovery, pro-medicine, and pro-holistic care too.

Anti-HAES but also anti-fatphobia. I’ll also make a post breaking this down too.

That about does it. If you don’t like my ✨controversial opinions✨ I suggest moving on as you’re not gonna change my mind and I doubt I’ll change yours.

If you still wanna stick around… come on in and enjoy your stay.

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Bro I fucking hate being on pristiq I forget to take it for 2 days and my libido comes back w a vegence

take it again

nope. gone again.

god I fuckin hate this I love sex I love sex I want sex I obsess over sex my OCD is sex obsessed and my body wants NONE of it goddammit

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Just a little PSA for all our mental health (and chronic pain*) spoonies out there! A lot of doctors neglect to mention this little side effect, which means a lot of us are suffering extra from the heat without knowing why.

*Many psych meds are used to treat chronic pain as well, if you didn’t know!