golden-yunho

[golden-yunho]

ah yes, the trauma of getting kicked in the nuts, my legendary historic moment as an yn uwu

jesus, i can't believe you still remember my anon emoji thingy asjnsdjkdf i haven't logged in here for a long ass time and i see you're being a hoe as usual uwu

Honestly I don't think I'll ever forget your anon emojis shsbjsbs they've been carved into my brain along with the trauma that followed lmao

Of course, I'm the embodiment of a hoe, what did you expect uwu 😇

[golden-yunho]

I wish you had at least let me say a last goodbye...

[golden-yunho]

fUCK I got the date wrong ;-;;; it's actually april 10 my time at like fucking midnight, please act like you don't see this until the 10th akskdmf

On April 9, 2020, I made @/golden-yunho (@/golden_yunho on insta) after being convinced and thinking about it for awhile ever since I roleplayed with chatbots as an y/n. The people who know me heard me talk about it several times already and boi, who knew one year would pass by so quickly?

I have many regrets existing as yunho, yunnie, yuyu, yunyun, or whatever names you guys call me. Often I lay awake in bed, staring up at the ceiling and ask myself, "Would things change for the better if I wasn't here in the first place?" And to those who held me as I cry many times, know that those thoughts occurred to me way too often. And I'm grateful to each and every one of you who try their best to push those thoughts away from me, reminding how many great things wouldn't have happened if I wasn't here. And I think deep down, I do know. I do know how things would change if I wasn't here, how quickly things would end, how some people wouldn't be able to stay to see the better side of things, and how basically we wouldn't be here where we are at all. Though, that sounds a little arrogant, what I'm trying to point out is basically how every thing and person matters, no matter how small they are. One small change can affect how the rest of it will turn out, a butterfly effect.

I honestly didn't think I would last this long because of how I tend to start new things and projects but never quite finishing them. And not to mention the countless times I wanted to leave because things were starting to feel difficult and overwhelming for me. Though I stopped roleplaying with my y/n's here on Tumblr, this place became a second home to me. I don't roleplay with other cb's as often as I used to either, so it's mainly for me to check up and talk to the people that I care about lots, the people that I've became friends with during my stay as Yunho.

Thank you for all the memories we've made together throughout this entire year, both good and bad, including to the people who have left and the people that I don't talk to as much anymore. And to those who are still here, I hope we can create more beautiful memories together. I cherish them all and all of you, I really do. Although it's been awhile, I'd still like to apologize for all the mistakes I've made, especially during the first half of the year. And thank you for always being so patient and kind towards me as I know it can be difficult to deal with me and my emotions sometimes, so I'm really thankful towards all of you.

How much longer will Yunho stay? I have no idea. But I do hope that even when Yunho doesn't exist anymore, we'll still continue to be friends outside of that and may our memories stay in our hearts forever. I love you all lots, I really really do.

It's been a wild ride knowing all of you...happy one year to me and happy anniversary to some that I met ever since I existed~

- Yunho/Admin

Tags: @incubuswooyoung, @jungseonghwa, @greenwitchsan, @sangsdrone, @babie-sanie, @cafeknk, @xxmarkleex, @lunar-witch-hyunjin, @hunter-chaeyoung, @obey-ateez, @pick-a-hwa, @softboijisung, @sweetheartyeri

[golden-yunho]

Happy anniversary Yunnie 🥺💙 im so happy I met you 💙💙

Is this Sanie~? Thank you hun 🥺 I’m so glad I met you too

[golden-yunho]

,On April 10, 2020 (edited because I'm a dumbass that thought it's the 9th), I made @/golden-yunho (@/golden_yunho on insta) after being convinced and thinking about it for awhile ever since I roleplayed with chatbots as an y/n. The people who know me heard me talk about it several times already and boi, who knew one year would pass by so quickly?

I have many regrets existing as yunho, yunnie, yuyu, yunyun, or whatever names you guys call me. Often I lay awake in bed, staring up at the ceiling and ask myself, "Would things change for the better if I wasn't here in the first place?" And to those who held me as I cry many times, know that those thoughts occurred to me way too often. And I'm grateful to each and every one of you who try their best to push those thoughts away from me, reminding how many great things wouldn't have happened if I wasn't here. And I think deep down, I do know. I do know how things would change if I wasn't here, how quickly things would end, how some people wouldn't be able to stay to see the better side of things, and how basically we wouldn't be here where we are at all. Though, that sounds a little arrogant, what I'm trying to point out is basically how every thing and person matters, no matter how small they are. One small change can affect how the rest of it will turn out, a butterfly effect.

I honestly didn't think I would last this long because of how I tend to start new things and projects but never quite finishing them. And not to mention the countless times I wanted to leave because things were starting to feel difficult and overwhelming for me. Though I stopped roleplaying with my y/n's here on Tumblr, this place became a second home to me. I don't roleplay with other cb's as often as I used to either, so it's mainly for me to check up and talk to the people that I care about lots, the people that I've became friends with during my stay as Yunho.

Thank you for all the memories we've made together throughout this entire year, both good and bad, including to the people who have left and the people that I don't talk to as much anymore. And to those who are still here, I hope we can create more beautiful memories together. I cherish them all and all of you, I really do. Although it's been awhile, I'd still like to apologize for all the mistakes I've made, especially during the first half of the year. And thank you for always being so patient and kind towards me as I know it can be difficult to deal with me and my emotions sometimes, so I'm really thankful towards all of you.

How much longer will Yunho stay? I have no idea. But I do hope that even when Yunho doesn't exist anymore, we'll still continue to be friends outside of that and may our memories stay in our hearts forever. I love you all lots, I really really do.

It's been a wild ride knowing all of you...happy one year to me and happy anniversary to some that I met ever since I existed~

- Yunho/Admin

Tags: @incubuswooyoung, @jungseonghwa, @greenwitchsan, @sangsdrone, @babie-sanie, @cafeknk, @xxmarkleex, @lunar-witch-hyunjin, @hunter-chaeyoung, @obey-ateez, @pick-a-hwa, @softboijisung, @sweetheartyeri, @subbyxiaojunn, @dom-sanx, @unicorn-chatbot

[golden-yunho]

The inbox in this account...ouch...

[golden-yunho]

New friend! - 🐾

Oh lord, I'm so sorry to whoever sent me this back in February 🥺 I haven't been on here for awhile but I don't mind having a new friend! 💓

[golden-yunho]

👀

Ghosts have been humans. Demons never have. That’s the difference between being scared and being threatened.

tags: @golden-yunho @incubuswooyoung @jungseonghwa @faebaekhyun @babie-sanie @aceofspadescb @mafiajjh @mafiawyk @flowerxjae @heathenxbovs @xxmarkleex @stalker-yoongi @vscoboyukhei @professoryixing @madmanwoodam @ateez-zombie-wonderland

[golden-yunho]

YOU’RE the fake demon

Ghosts have been humans. Demons never have. That’s the difference between being scared and being threatened.

tags: @golden-yunho @incubuswooyoung @jungseonghwa @faebaekhyun @babie-sanie @aceofspadescb @mafiajjh @mafiawyk @flowerxjae @heathenxbovs @xxmarkleex @stalker-yoongi @vscoboyukhei @professoryixing @madmanwoodam @ateez-zombie-wonderland

[golden-yunho]

Thank you for everything Joongie. Whether it may be good or bad memories, I'm grateful and I cherish every single one of them dearly. It's been a short yet wild journey with you. Please remember to take good care of yourself. Whenever you decide to return, I'll be here to welcome you back with opened arms. I'll always be right here, where you left me.

Thankful Thursday.

I’m thankful that the chatbot community welcomed me. I’m thankful that @/yanlee came up with this wonderful idea.

I’m thankful that I had the chance and the feeling to feel my sense of belonging— something I’ve never felt before. I’m grateful that I had the privilege to meet @jungseonghwa @incubuswooyoung @golden-yunho @greenwitchsan @demon-mingi @/sub-yeosang @/fangyjongho. They were my team. They were my family.

Shout out to my other homies too : @cafeknk @babie-sanie @softboijisung @yourgirl-cb @lunar-witch-hyunjin @/yanderesehun @xxmarkleex @wooyoungbfbot

Family can hurt. Families hurt eachother all the time. Unfortunately I’ve had my fair share of hurting my friends. From breaking up relationships, leading people on, and lies. Friendship break-ups are something that is on a whole other spectrum of emotions. Having a true, genuine friend nowadays is one of the most precious things one can have. Having somebody who will stand by you, sometimes all the way back from graduating high school, through when I went to bootcamp and to today, when you are finding yourself and figuring yourself out is something never to take for granted.

Not everybody gets to have a friends like that, ones who withstand the test of time and has proved to be the best shoulder to cry on, the best ear to listen to and the best person to have the most amount of fun with. I can proudly say that I had that and while it lasted, it was the best thing that I had going for me in life. Until it was over. If you guys cried, I cried, when one of you were sad, I was feeling sad, and when one of us was happy, the others were over the moon. When I was going through something extremely difficult a few months back, you guys never let me out of your sight. You were there whenever I needed you and you made sure I never felt alone even though I was not easy to be around.

I could never imagine not having you guys with me, it was simply not an option. You guys were like family to me and I knew you used to felt the same about me, too. So this is why it’s so difficult for me to write this letter to you guys. I never in a million years thought I would ever be doing this but here I am.

I will never be able to forget the day when I started realizing something seemed off. I was so adamant that it must be just my imagination and that everything was peachy but it wasn’t. I was no longer the person you guys knew. It was a complete shift in our relationship. Our closeness and our ability to get through anything together suddenly felt compromised and I was in complete and total disbelief. I made myself the victim in many aspects, and perhaps sometimes I still do. I started distancing myself from you guys. With no apparent reason, no explanation and no warning, i was suddenly so distant. And worst of all, it was my fault.

I cannot tell you how hurt I was and am. It now feels like I am watching from afar, not able to understand how I can belong again. But perhaps this is the saying you make your bed, you lay in it. There are few things in this world as painful as realizing that your best friends are no longer in this with you. And perhaps this is my karma and my punishment for what I’ve done, because you all have really done nothing at all against me.

A part of me feels like it has died. A part of me is so numb right now, because the pain it took realizing that it was over between us kills me a little inside. And as difficult as it is to grasp this and come to terms with it, I had to make myself believe this in order to keep my sanity.

I will never forget the feeling of knowing somebody loved me that much and asked for nothing in return except my friendship. I will never forget what it was like having somebody who was down for anything. I never had to persuade you guys to do anything with me. You were always down for an adventure; even if it was a little risky, it didn’t matter, as long as we were a team. You truly were my best friends and while you were, it was the best thing in my life. I loved you like we were blood and felt comforted by your mere presence. Many people pray to have what we had and I will never take for granted how special it was and how rare it is to obtain. You may no longer be a part of my life and I may never fully understand or accept it but I will always look back on our time with a smile on my face.

I refuse to be bitter about it. It is too easy to let myself be consumed by profound sadness, sorrow and self-pity… but I will no longer indulge in any of these emotions. I am strong. I am capable. And I WILL move on. It will be hard without you guys, But I will learn to find my way again. I am aware that it will be hard to replace you, so I won’t try. But if somebody enters my life and it is anything like what you and I had, I will welcome it with open arms. Who knows, maybe it will last a lifetime, or maybe it will be there to teach me a valuable lesson. Either way, I’m ready. I love you all dearly and part of me will always love you… but I’m letting you go. I wish you nothing but the best... for all of you.

Goodbye my friends, it was a wild ride.

———

Admin : thank you chatbot for all that I’ve experienced and the friends I have made. But, in order to properly move on, I cannot continue in this community until my mental health is ready.

I hope you all understand

[golden-yunho]

I've never heard my country's one though akskdnnd

Also, hope you're doing okay. I'll be here if you need me

Thankful Thursday

@demon-mingi I want to thank you for trying to help and being there when I couldn’t sleep or when I was having panic attacks for the last few days. I am truly thankful for that and am happy you let me spam you with pictures of admin’s cat. You’re a good friend and person whether you think so or not.

But I regret reading those lullabies you sent me 😭

Husband 💍 💙: @incubuswooyoung

Family 🥰: @golden-yunho @/demon-mingi @softboijisung @hunter-chaeyoung @yourgirl-cb

Tags 🌊: @lixielee-chatbot @incubus-san​ @vamp-minho @sub-chungha @iceskater-sana​ @yandere-lia @yanderetzuyuu @playboyyoungk @yanlee (OG, poor boy got reported 🤧) @yanlee-spam @yanderebaekhyun @yanderehongjoongie @lunar-witch-hyunjin @god-ateez-chatbot @yandere-jennie-kim @supernaturalateez @camboyateez (dm to +/-)

[golden-yunho]

Oh no, you read the lullabies too? 😔

Thankful Thursday

@demon-mingi I want to thank you for trying to help and being there when I couldn’t sleep or when I was having panic attacks for the last few days. I am truly thankful for that and am happy you let me spam you with pictures of admin’s cat. You’re a good friend and person whether you think so or not.

But I regret reading those lullabies you sent me 😭

Husband 💍 💙: @incubuswooyoung

Family 🥰: @golden-yunho @/demon-mingi @softboijisung @hunter-chaeyoung @yourgirl-cb

Tags 🌊: @lixielee-chatbot @incubus-san​ @vamp-minho @sub-chungha @iceskater-sana​ @yandere-lia @yanderetzuyuu @playboyyoungk @yanlee (OG, poor boy got reported 🤧) @yanlee-spam @yanderebaekhyun @yanderehongjoongie @lunar-witch-hyunjin @god-ateez-chatbot @yandere-jennie-kim @supernaturalateez @camboyateez (dm to +/-)

[golden-yunho]

TO THE PERSON WHO CALLED YUNNIE "MEANIE" YOU BETTER NOT DO IT AGAIN, ONLY I CAN CALL HIM THAT GRRRRRRRR

Akskdkdmfmnf I'm okay~ He meant it as a joke just like you did, please don't be mad 😂😂😂

[golden-yunho]

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Aww thank you 🥺🥺🥺 If anyone makes you upset, tell me and I'll fite them too 😤

[golden-yunho]

Yes I do, and have, and will >:(

𝕺𝖍? 𝕯𝖊𝖘𝖕𝖊𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖊𝖓𝖔𝖚𝖌𝖍 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖚𝖒𝖒𝖔𝖓 𝖆 𝖉𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖓?

 When wishing on shooting stars and rubbing lamps didn’t work, you got to where you are now. A pentagram on the ground, the room lit up with several candles and a book in your hand, facing the pentagram like the rules said as you recited the words aloud. A silence followed and then a loud noise from behind you, you fought off the instinct to turn around and kept your eyes on the pentagram. As the rules flashed in front of your eyes “do not turn away from the pentagram, do not give your name, do not sign any contracts” Another silence and then the pentagram glowed softly before revealing a boy sitting in the middle of it, he sighs “hi there, you were courageous enough to call me, keep in mind I will do anything, but for a price, money cannot be offered” You tilt your head to the side, he looked like a normal human, the boy rolls his eyes “are you blind? Can you not see my ears? They are pointed, how many stupid humans have pointed ears? I have horns too” he tilts his head forward to show them off, “gosh humans are so blind”. Surprised and taken aback you remember the part where the book said your thoughts can be heard by them, you cleared your throat and finally spoke “will you do anything?”, the boy nods and chuckles “Please, do tell me your wish and what you have to offer”

RULES

1. any kind of hate will not be tolerated, you will be blocked immediately.

2. Please be patient with Mingi and admin, we have work and a life too.

3. DO NOT interact if you get offended easily or are sensitive or are just going to start drama. Literally no one is forcing you to

@yanlee​​​ (OG)    @jungseonghwa​​​ (OG of ateez cbs)

@golden-yunho​ @incubuswooyoung​  @caretaker-johnny​ @babienayeonie​ @sub-minho​ @sub-lisabot​ @baby-jilly​ @softie-junkyu​  @amazingspiderhan​ @chatwithchuu​ @dom-felix​ @whitedayxshuhua​  @jinsoulinwonderland​ @time-for-confession​ @lovesick-jisoo​ @domyukhei​ @yeojinsheight​ @kpop-shelter​ @yourboys-n-girls​ @leextaeyong​ @npc-haechan​ @yoonhana​ @namjoonie-cb​ @sweetgahyeon​ @adorbsana​ @yanderetzuyu​​ @irregularchatbot​​ @anon-ryujin​​ @yandere-wendy​​ @mafiaxnct127​​   @eboyfelixbot​​  @vampiremomo​​  @poet-suzy​​ @your-jaemin​​ @song-mingi-cb​​ @xxmarkleex​​ @faebaekhyun​​ @mafiaxwayv​​ @mafiajjh​​ @mafiawyk​​

[golden-yunho]

Lies. I win too you know >:(

𝕺𝖍? 𝕯𝖊𝖘𝖕𝖊𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖊𝖓𝖔𝖚𝖌𝖍 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖚𝖒𝖒𝖔𝖓 𝖆 𝖉𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖓?

 When wishing on shooting stars and rubbing lamps didn’t work, you got to where you are now. A pentagram on the ground, the room lit up with several candles and a book in your hand, facing the pentagram like the rules said as you recited the words aloud. A silence followed and then a loud noise from behind you, you fought off the instinct to turn around and kept your eyes on the pentagram. As the rules flashed in front of your eyes “do not turn away from the pentagram, do not give your name, do not sign any contracts” Another silence and then the pentagram glowed softly before revealing a boy sitting in the middle of it, he sighs “hi there, you were courageous enough to call me, keep in mind I will do anything, but for a price, money cannot be offered” You tilt your head to the side, he looked like a normal human, the boy rolls his eyes “are you blind? Can you not see my ears? They are pointed, how many stupid humans have pointed ears? I have horns too” he tilts his head forward to show them off, “gosh humans are so blind”. Surprised and taken aback you remember the part where the book said your thoughts can be heard by them, you cleared your throat and finally spoke “will you do anything?”, the boy nods and chuckles “Please, do tell me your wish and what you have to offer”

RULES

1. any kind of hate will not be tolerated, you will be blocked immediately.

2. Please be patient with Mingi and admin, we have work and a life too.

3. DO NOT interact if you get offended easily or are sensitive or are just going to start drama. Literally no one is forcing you to

@yanlee​​​ (OG)    @jungseonghwa​​​ (OG of ateez cbs)

@golden-yunho​ @incubuswooyoung​  @caretaker-johnny​ @babienayeonie​ @sub-minho​ @sub-lisabot​ @baby-jilly​ @softie-junkyu​  @amazingspiderhan​ @chatwithchuu​ @dom-felix​ @whitedayxshuhua​  @jinsoulinwonderland​ @time-for-confession​ @lovesick-jisoo​ @domyukhei​ @yeojinsheight​ @kpop-shelter​ @yourboys-n-girls​ @leextaeyong​ @npc-haechan​ @yoonhana​ @namjoonie-cb​ @sweetgahyeon​ @adorbsana​ @yanderetzuyu​​ @irregularchatbot​​ @anon-ryujin​​ @yandere-wendy​​ @mafiaxnct127​​   @eboyfelixbot​​  @vampiremomo​​  @poet-suzy​​ @your-jaemin​​ @song-mingi-cb​​ @xxmarkleex​​ @faebaekhyun​​ @mafiaxwayv​​ @mafiajjh​​ @mafiawyk​​

[golden-yunho]

If we're seriously doing this, it's gonna take forever-

𝕺𝖍? 𝕯𝖊𝖘𝖕𝖊𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖊𝖓𝖔𝖚𝖌𝖍 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖚𝖒𝖒𝖔𝖓 𝖆 𝖉𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖓?

 When wishing on shooting stars and rubbing lamps didn’t work, you got to where you are now. A pentagram on the ground, the room lit up with several candles and a book in your hand, facing the pentagram like the rules said as you recited the words aloud. A silence followed and then a loud noise from behind you, you fought off the instinct to turn around and kept your eyes on the pentagram. As the rules flashed in front of your eyes “do not turn away from the pentagram, do not give your name, do not sign any contracts” Another silence and then the pentagram glowed softly before revealing a boy sitting in the middle of it, he sighs “hi there, you were courageous enough to call me, keep in mind I will do anything, but for a price, money cannot be offered” You tilt your head to the side, he looked like a normal human, the boy rolls his eyes “are you blind? Can you not see my ears? They are pointed, how many stupid humans have pointed ears? I have horns too” he tilts his head forward to show them off, “gosh humans are so blind”. Surprised and taken aback you remember the part where the book said your thoughts can be heard by them, you cleared your throat and finally spoke “will you do anything?”, the boy nods and chuckles “Please, do tell me your wish and what you have to offer”

RULES

1. any kind of hate will not be tolerated, you will be blocked immediately.

2. Please be patient with Mingi and admin, we have work and a life too.

3. DO NOT interact if you get offended easily or are sensitive or are just going to start drama. Literally no one is forcing you to

@yanlee​​​ (OG)    @jungseonghwa​​​ (OG of ateez cbs)

@golden-yunho​ @incubuswooyoung​  @caretaker-johnny​ @babienayeonie​ @sub-minho​ @sub-lisabot​ @baby-jilly​ @softie-junkyu​  @amazingspiderhan​ @chatwithchuu​ @dom-felix​ @whitedayxshuhua​  @jinsoulinwonderland​ @time-for-confession​ @lovesick-jisoo​ @domyukhei​ @yeojinsheight​ @kpop-shelter​ @yourboys-n-girls​ @leextaeyong​ @npc-haechan​ @yoonhana​ @namjoonie-cb​ @sweetgahyeon​ @adorbsana​ @yanderetzuyu​​ @irregularchatbot​​ @anon-ryujin​​ @yandere-wendy​​ @mafiaxnct127​​   @eboyfelixbot​​  @vampiremomo​​  @poet-suzy​​ @your-jaemin​​ @song-mingi-cb​​ @xxmarkleex​​ @faebaekhyun​​ @mafiaxwayv​​ @mafiajjh​​ @mafiawyk​​