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i think it’s time i leave this blog.

i won’t delete it (i’ve done that before with a former blog that was way more popular and regretted it), but im not on here much anymore and i want to start a new chapter by leaving it dormant.

i think this blog served it’s purpose of my coping during the pandemic and during a time that was very difficult for me on personal level, outside of the pandemic.

highlights were finding the succession fandom, succession posting, and occasionally having a hit post.

i made some pretty angry, anxious, wild, emotional, and neurotic posts on here. i needed an outlet in my lonely life and i wanted an audience because sometimes you really want someone to witness your pain. i’m better now, though, so i wanna close what has been a very public, intense diary.

i’ve overshared more than i ever would’ve done in the past and more than i think i was ever actually comfortable with.

sorry to anyone i pissed off or made uncomfortable with my posting. i know i’ve bothered people — i’ve gotten into disagreements and had people unfollow me and all the unpleasant things.

i certainly wasn’t very happy during the majority of my time running this blog. and despite what it seemed like, i was always semi-conscious of how slightly unstable and trauma dump-y it all sounded? and i was unstable, and indeed, recovering from being traumatized. when you’re stressed, lonely, and (i hate to use this “excuse”) suffering with mental illness, you can become someone you don’t recognize — which was me during the majority of this blog. i had a lot of ugly, intense feelings (still do, tbh) that needed an out, and this is where i came to release them, because tumblr has always been that space for me where i could let go.

still, i’m kind of embarrassed by the way i acted and by some my posting, and i wanna be better.

and since i’ve gradually been recovering and feel better, this feels like the next best step. i’m still struggling with a lot of things, but i’ve moved into my life more, and i wanna continue doing that.

thank you to anyone who replied, listened, was kind, gave advice and support. thank you to anyone who has shared a fandom space with me!!!!! what a necessary coping mechanism getting feral about fictional characters can be (kendall roy #1 boy forever). it has all meant a lot!

goodbye for now!!!

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i think it’s time i leave this blog.

i won’t delete it (i’ve done that before with a former blog that was way more popular and regretted it), but im not on here much anymore and i want to start a new chapter by leaving it dormant.

i think this blog served it’s purpose of my coping during the pandemic and during a time that was very difficult for me on personal level, outside of the pandemic.

highlights were finding the succession fandom, succession posting, and occasionally having a hit post.

i made some pretty angry, anxious, wild, emotional, and neurotic posts on here. i needed an outlet in my lonely life and i wanted an audience because sometimes you really want someone to witness your pain. i’m better now, though, so i wanna close what has been a very public, intense diary.

i’ve overshared more than i ever would’ve done in the past and more than i think i was ever actually comfortable with.

sorry to anyone i pissed off or made uncomfortable with my posting. i know i’ve bothered people — i’ve gotten into disagreements and had people unfollow me and all the unpleasant things.

i certainly wasn’t very happy during the majority of my time running this blog. and despite what it seemed like, i was always semi-conscious of how slightly unstable and trauma dump-y it all sounded? and i was unstable, and indeed, recovering from being traumatized. when you’re stressed, lonely, and (i hate to use this “excuse”) suffering with mental illness, you can become someone you don’t recognize — which was me during the majority of this blog. i had a lot of ugly, intense feelings (still do, tbh) that needed an out, and this is where i came to release them, because tumblr has always been that space for me where i could let go.

still, i’m kind of embarrassed by the way i acted and by some my posting, and i wanna be better.

and since i’ve gradually been recovering and feel better, this feels like the next best step. i’m still struggling with a lot of things, but i’ve moved into my life more, and i wanna continue doing that.

thank you to anyone who replied, listened, was kind, gave advice and support. thank you to anyone who has shared a fandom space with me!!!!! what a necessary coping mechanism getting feral about fictional characters can be (kendall roy #1 boy forever). it has all meant a lot!

goodbye for now!!!

[goldlightsaber]

i think it’s time i leave this blog.

i won’t delete it (i’ve done that before with a former blog that was way more popular and regretted it), but im not on here much anymore and i want to start a new chapter by leaving it dormant.

i think this blog served it’s purpose of my coping during the pandemic and during a time that was very difficult for me on personal level, outside of the pandemic.

highlights were finding the succession fandom, succession posting, and occasionally having a hit post.

i made some pretty angry, anxious, wild, emotional, and neurotic posts on here. i needed an outlet in my lonely life and i wanted an audience because sometimes you really want someone to witness your pain. i’m better now, though, so i wanna close what has been a very public, intense diary.

i’ve overshared more than i ever would’ve done in the past and more than i think i was ever actually comfortable with.

sorry to anyone i pissed off or made uncomfortable with my posting. i know i’ve bothered people — i’ve gotten into disagreements and had people unfollow me and all the unpleasant things.

i certainly wasn’t very happy during the majority of my time running this blog. and despite what it seemed like, i was always semi-conscious of how slightly unstable and trauma dump-y it all sounded? and i was unstable, and indeed, recovering from being traumatized. when you’re stressed, lonely, and (i hate to use this “excuse”) suffering with mental illness, you can become someone you don’t recognize — which was me during the majority of this blog. i had a lot of ugly, intense feelings (still do, tbh) that needed an out, and this is where i came to release them, because tumblr has always been that space for me where i could let go.

still, i’m kind of embarrassed by the way i acted and by some my posting, and i wanna be better.

and since i’ve gradually been recovering and feel better, this feels like the next best step. i’m still struggling with a lot of things, but i’ve moved into my life more, and i wanna continue doing that.

thank you to anyone who replied, listened, was kind, gave advice and support. thank you to anyone who has shared a fandom space with me!!!!! what a necessary coping mechanism getting feral about fictional characters can be (kendall roy #1 boy forever). it has all meant a lot!

goodbye for now!!!

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Ready or Not (2019) dir. Tyler Gillett, Matt Bettinelli-Olpin

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RACHEL BROSNAHAN & DAVID CORENSWET AS CLARK KENT & LOIS LANE in SUPERMAN ( 2025 )

[goldlightsaber]

i think it’s time i leave this blog.

i won’t delete it (i’ve done that before with a former blog that was way more popular and regretted it), but im not on here much anymore and i want to start a new chapter by leaving it dormant.

i think this blog served it’s purpose of my coping during the pandemic and during a time that was very difficult for me on personal level, outside of the pandemic.

highlights were finding the succession fandom, succession posting, and occasionally having a hit post.

i made some pretty angry, anxious, wild, emotional, and neurotic posts on here. i needed an outlet in my lonely life and i wanted an audience because sometimes you really want someone to witness your pain. i’m better now, though, so i wanna close what has been a very public, intense diary.

i’ve overshared more than i ever would’ve done in the past and more than i think i was ever actually comfortable with.

sorry to anyone i pissed off or made uncomfortable with my posting. i know i’ve bothered people — i’ve gotten into disagreements and had people unfollow me and all the unpleasant things.

i certainly wasn’t very happy during the majority of my time running this blog. and despite what it seemed like, i was always semi-conscious of how slightly unstable and trauma dump-y it all sounded? and i was unstable, and indeed, recovering from being traumatized. when you’re stressed, lonely, and (i hate to use this “excuse”) suffering with mental illness, you can become someone you don’t recognize — which was me during the majority of this blog. i had a lot of ugly, intense feelings (still do, tbh) that needed an out, and this is where i came to release them, because tumblr has always been that space for me where i could let go.

still, i’m kind of embarrassed by the way i acted and by some my posting, and i wanna be better.

and since i’ve gradually been recovering and feel better, this feels like the next best step. i’m still struggling with a lot of things, but i’ve moved into my life more, and i wanna continue doing that.

thank you to anyone who replied, listened, was kind, gave advice and support. thank you to anyone who has shared a fandom space with me!!!!! what a necessary coping mechanism getting feral about fictional characters can be (kendall roy #1 boy forever). it has all meant a lot!

goodbye for now!!!

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10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU dir. Gil Junger, 1999

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josh o'connor in challengers (2024) dir. luca guadagnino

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JANE EYRE (2011), dir. Cary Joji Fukunaga

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(via lunamonchtuna)

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last time i opened up and was vulnerable and decided to trust people was 2019 how about the rest of ya’ll

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people are so. freaking. mean. online

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when your stomach is really mad at you and you're not sure which one of your fourteen unhealthy lifestyle choices is causing it

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I delete posts cuz I be getting mature after 30 minutes

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turning the knife inside yourself tonight queen?

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