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What Colour Character Are You?

Dark Blue Character

Dark Blue characters are kindhearted and responsible, driven to care for others around them. They are good at strategizing in the heat of the moment, but are also quite impulsive and rush into things without a plan when they are fired up. While calm people and patient teachers, they are quite hotheaded and not afraid to stand up for what they believe in. Their sense of morality guides them, both into battle, and into healing. They get along with a wide range of people, but do have a temper that causes them to get into short-lived disagreements. They don’t like to be seen as inferior, as much of their strength comes from the softness inside of them. They like being needed and helpful, and want people to agree that they know what’s best for them, although others can get annoyed at what they perceive as nagging. They take turns being the voice of reason and the reason for the voice. They can hold their own, and believe in respecting everyone as long as everyone is respectful in turn. They often had to grow up fast and mature early, which they both take pride in and resent. They are likely to join a just cause on a whim, and do what it takes to develop the skillset they need to best help the cause, although they prefer to be at the center of the action. If they feel no one is doing anything and it needs to be done, they’ll step in. They are often close to prodigies, having some sort of incredible skill that they can expertly hone. They are inspirational and have a lot of emotional maturity. They can both maneuver people through their hardships and inspire them to rise up. They can often ignore their own feelings and needs in the process of being a sort of martyr for others, however, and can grow resentful when no one pays attention to them like they do for others. Dark blue characters need people in their lives who will encourage and uplift them in whatever cause they choose to support, as well as give them space to talk out their feelings. They also need others who will recognize when they are taking too much responsibility on, and take some time to give them care and support and affirm their willingness to care.

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What's Your Love Style?

Agape

An Agape partner will love you for who you are. This love can be unconditional and selfless. These individuals are accepting, caring, and affectionate.

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making you the patron saint of something

patron saint of relics

patron saint of remembering. patron saint of holding something close. patron saint of holding on for too long. for a saint, a relic is often a part of the body, kept for some physical memento of their holiness. they are all in your hands, now: does it feel like remembrance? does it feel sanctified? are the dust and blood as precious as they're supposed to be?

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its true!!

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Oops xD

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Nathanael is surprised by how easily it's all dismissed. The General is not at all what he expected. Not like the Cloud Knights that came to his planet all those years ago.

"Okay... thanks...," he replies, rubbing his wrists a little, sounding a bit surprised, but not displeased about it. "I'll try my best, but in my experience, the ones who are the most suspicious don't look that way." Something the General himself might be aware of.

Once he has his things, Nathanael is lead back to Central Starskiff Haven and from there, he finds himself a place to stay.

He didn't plan to stay on the Luofu for long, but it turned out fate had something else in store for him.

It was completely by chance that he met the first Mara-struck person. He'd been walking around in a less touristy part of the Luofu when he ran into a Mara-struck person. Not bad enough to be dangerous yet, but bad enough to show physical signs of the illness. Of course, he hadn't know what it was then, but as a healer, he had wanted to help.

Noticing that he was an Outworlder, they quickly told him what was going on and that there was nothing he could do, Nathanael said there might still be and asked if they would allow him to try. Hope can be a dangerous thing, but in this case it wasn't. Holding the man's hand, a former Cloud Knight he later found out, Nathanael began working. Working in a more miraculous way.

Within a few minutes, the physical signs of mara had withdrawn and the man recognised his wife for the first time in years. Nathanael himself felt rather drained, but happy he could help. He also explained this wasn't cure, but at least he had reversed it a bit for now.

Somehow the word spread and for the last week or so, Nathanael has exclusively been working with withdrawing the progression of Mara in Xianzhou natives. It's exhausting and the wear is starting to show, but how could he deny helping them when nothing else seem to be able to halt the illness.

Using a public area, although a hidden corner between two houses, no one would risk associate with him, should this turn out to ruffle feathers. A place he choose on purpose just for that reason.

The woman in front of him is his last patient for the day. When she arrived, Mara growth sprouted from all over her body, but once her healing session is done, there's only one growth left. "Let her return tomorrow and I'll remove the rest then," he says to the person who brought her.

As they leave, he slump back against the wall where he's seated, exhaustion evident on his pale face. Hearing steps approaching he sighs and puts on a smile. "Come back tomorrow. I'm done for the d-" The words dies out in his throat as he locks eyes with General Jing Yuan, how own eyes still showing a faint golden glow. "General..." Nat isn't going to lie, he doesn't like that. "You're not Mara-struck, so I'm guessing you're here to arrest me?"

Jing Yuan doesn't react to the stranger's hostile words but does take note of them. Clearly he had some kind of chip on his shoulder from the Xianzhou Alliance. At least, he hoped it was from the Alliance as a whole and not some personal vendetta for something Jing Yuan had no idea about.

"Ah, you see my good fellow we've had quite a lot of issues with these Disciples organization as of late. We really can't be too careful when it comes to them. I do apologize for any inconvenience this has caused you," he says with a friendly smile.

"Let me see his travel papers?" he asks the knight beside him.

After a few moments Jing Yuan has them and thumbs through them quickly. It was true, this healer had not once been on a Xianzhou ship before this. It was highly unlikely they were involved in the more centralized Disciples organization that was hiding on the Luofu. They did not have enough probable cause to hold him for much longer. And unlike some people within the Xianzhou, Jing Yuan did not like to brandish his authority like a blunt weapon.

"Any contraband?"

"No sir," the knight replied.

"And the rest?"

"Medicinal supplies and personal items."

The general folds the papers back up and now extends them to Nathanel.

"Then we are done here."

With a salute, the Cloud Knight unlocked the cuffs on the Outworlder's hands and removed them. Most of the knights trusted the judgment of the Divine Foresight greatly and for good reason.

"Your things will be returned to you and an escort will take you back to Central Starskiff Haven. Just do steer clear of any suspicious individuals for the remainder of your stay."

The Cloud Knights could always keep an eye on him from afar for a while, just in case if necessary.

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I need Nat to be absolutely furious. I need him to lose control of his powers and just siphoning the life force from everything around him in a certain radius. I want his eyes to glow. I want him to be an absolute terror to behold.

Then I want him to later realise what he's done and just crumble. Totally breaking. Removing himself from society because he commit a, to him, unpardonable sin.

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Not that he had worried about Oliver's strength, but it's good to see that he can still easily catch him. Plus it means that he can't have any major injuries. Yes, he promised to tell him if something happened, but Nathanael knows the man likes to hide things. Important things, like stab wounds and gun shots.

"Good. I'd be sad if you hadn't missed me." He would've felt quite hurt, actually.

Nat chuckles and lets himself slid down to the ground, standing on his own two feet. "When aren't I hungry? Plus I've lived on whatever scrapes could be found. I might starve to death if you don't feed me." This is, of course, an exaggeration. Though Oliver seems to enjoy feeding him, among other things.

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It had been a while since he had seen Nathanael. Sure, they've called, and video called, but that wasn't the same as actually being there in the moment, seeing him and being able to hold him.

Oliver was nervous, but it was the good kind. His stomach was doing weird flips and flutters that made him jittery. But when Nat was in his sight, those things inside him felt like they just got a caffeine shot.

He caught the other with ease, didn't falter or threatened to fall as Nat jumped onto him. Strong arms wrapped around Nathanael's waist and he too took a deep breath of the other's scent. "I missed you too..." Then finally, the fluttering calmed down, at ease to know the man he loved was safe. "Are you hungry?"

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Nat chuckles. How very typical of Isiah to say that, though he can't say he disagrees. Just them being together is a celebration on its own, especially since their schedules often clashes.

"That would be nice and I'm sure we can get the time. We can always ask someone to take the shift for one of us." Something they rarely did, so when they asked, there was usually someone willing to do so. Though being a doctor sometimes made it tricky to get away.

"I believe we are scheduled to orbit a planet pretty soon, if I remember correctly." It's always nice to go planet side when possible.

Isaiah grinned and felt a surge of warmth and love and joy at that simple thing, at being known that way, holding Nat close as he settled the other back onto his feet and resting his forehead against Nat's. His expression was gentle and the grin on their lips softening to a loving smile.

"Just being with you is a celebration as far as I'm concerned." He said softly, an adoring tone to their voice as he slightly swayed in place holding his partner as they did so.

"I wouldn't mind being able to take you out to dinner though, just the two of us, if you'll let me steal you away for it from work?"

"Would be nice to do more than just have a meal in the mess together if we can swing it."

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How Are You Ruined?

ruined by loneliness

you are so lonely. you are miserable in your solitude. you hate that you cannot bring yourself to reach out, to ask for help. you will be forgotten by all who never knew you. your biggest fear is that you will die alone, and you know this fear will be seen to fruition. you refuse to extend yourself beyond the box that others put you in. and it is a box that no one dare come near. you are lonely because you are afraid of yourself.

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My heart will always be soft. I will never stop looking for the good and love in everything. You can’t take that away from me.

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cont. from here with @shallliveoninsong

If the General expects him to beg and grovel, he is wrong. Nat isn't a fighter, but he is brave and headstrong. Is he scared? A bit. He still remember the Alliance attacking his home. Memories that will never go away. Instead of showing his worries, he stands up as straight as he can, meeting the man's gaze, nodding to show that the name is correct.

"No innocent until proven guilty then?" No surprise there. Honestly, he's surprised that they didn't throw him in prison without asking questions. That seems to be more in line with the Xianzhou Alliance in his limited experience. "You have my identification. You can easily see that I have never visited a Xianzhou ship before. If you want proof that I have never interacted with this... cult, I'm assuming, outside one of your flagships, I have none. Other than my word, but as an Outsider, I'm guessing my word is worth nothing to you, General." Does he sound a little hostile? Yes. It's hard not to when you're being chained and accused for something you haven't done by people you've done your best to avoid.

"I only boarded the Luofu to buy supplies and rest. Which is why I sold some of that moss when I was asked about it. It's harmless. Used to stem blood and mildly sedating to humans. I would never sell anything dangerous to someone I don't know. I heal, I don't kill." Unlike you, he thinks, but doesn't say.

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Summer of 85 (2020) dir. François Ozon

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Assigned Love Language

An Undoing Influence

Can someone tell you what to do? You have been carrying so much love within you for so long it is starting to turn into anger (why does it matter, all you see is red anyways) and you have been dragging this body through each day and every night you are split open on your bed and it is so so so lonely. If someone were to walk in while you were on your bed that way and they stitched you back in a new way, lining the seams with their love and kisses, you’d probably find this dreary world a little more bearable. You want someone to turn you over and over until you look in the mirror and see yourself looking back at yourself with a gentleness which has been lacking in you since forever.

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You have my whole heart. You always did.

Cormac McCarthy / The Road

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Happiness is homemade.