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Hello again tumblr,

It’s been a couple years since I was last here and I’m back! After multiple academic and career conquers, I have now again hit a slump. and of course this distraught and burnt out me is back to seeking comfort in the anonymous veils of Tumblr. Despite an obvious burnout, I am at a critical stage of life and cannot possibly stop for any while long. so in order to keep working and keep pushing, I've decided to let Tumblr hold me accountable. I would be posting daily progresses and work updates here, for the rest of tis month. here's to you seeing more of me. Yay?

Day 1, I've pulled in a 2 hour study session. starting slow, but worth it.

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The feeling that I am co-habitating with myself and I feel extremely irrelevant in front of this person.

Probably the weirdest of my feelings?

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studio ghibli romances be like mmm what if we didn’t kiss, but instead both spiritually matured as people because we met each other

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On mutual identification.

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I've been thinking about you on this aeroplane.

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How do you react when your mom points out that you've become a bitch, pushing everyone away and are basically unlovable. How do you not introspect? How do you regain that confidence, which it took you years to build? How do you feel comfortable again? How do you go back to maa from mother again? How do you consider her your best friend again? How do you stop this anxiety?

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Coffee shops & studying come as a package…

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November 22, 2022

I’ve been feeling a little discouraged and run down lately. I haven’t been doing as well as I would like to in my classes, and it seems like I’m working hard and losing sleep for no reason. But I’m trying to remind myself to take things one day and one step at a time. And also to appreciate good things like sunsets, coffee, and seeing holiday decorations up around the city.

Today’s plan: finish my legal research final assignment, do my reading for my evening class, meet with my mentor, have a good dinner, do my readings for tomorrow, and go to sleep early. Let’s see how this goes.

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End semesters at a law school. Fucking stressing. But just 3 more exams to go so yeaaaaaah. We gonna do it. 😓👍

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I am so fucking in love. Always finding it in the wrong places tho.

Anyways, here's some pictures <3

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30.07.22

I just keep on over-expressing myself the moment someone opens up to me. And the constant feeling that I'm loosing touch with all the parts of me i actually liked. Somehow, at the same time, i feel like there's sooo much i need to tell someone, but can't really talk about it because it makes me feel vulnerable and weak?

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July days.

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Rainy days, deadlines and cozy cafes.

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Tujhme na Kami koi hai bas tera ye din bura hai.

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