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i just randomly remembered why I used to be so afraid of dogs when I was little-

So I was at my grandmas house and I went to the backyard to play. My grandparents had a dog named abby and she was a pit bull mix. She jumps a lot and gets really excited when seeing people. So one day I got too close to her and she jumped on me making me fall onto the hard cement floor. This was a long time ago so I don't remember much but I'm pretty sure I got knocked out😭 all I remember is waking up and Abby being right there and I heard my grandma coming over to help me up.

I genuinely think that traumatized me and made me deathly afraid of dogs after that.

I'm not afraid of dogs anymore but I just thought of it now.

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Sigh posting this on here‼️‼️‼️kinda scard uhm

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I jsut woke up and I had a dream about my friend that's been gone for awhile texting me😕

It felt so real ughrgsghrghshdhhzhahhe🐛

Its crazy bc this happend when my old friend said they couldn't talk to me and yk stopped talking to me and I kept having dreams about her coming back💔

FOR SOME REASON MY FRIEND KEPT MENTIONING ROBLOX CHARACTERS?? it was so weird and I think they were in like some poly cule or something

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Hi I'm mentally stable for right now let's hope nothing happens to ruin that 🫶

This was my vent blog but now it's more of a side blog for me to Yap and rant in🐛

Please call me Knife on this blog🦋

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Isolating myself from the outside w9rld and my friends c0r3 🫶

I'm such a h0rrible fr!3nd

I'm s0rry chat

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trophy ii pancake stimboard !

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"I'm Knife. And fuck anybody who say I'm not‼️"

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They are both me combined ‼️

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I'm literally them

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Urge to cut my hair anytime I want to cut my skin‼️

Can't let this win streak go chat!!

On the 9th month win streak can't lose this chat!!

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It almost about to be summer break, thank god. I can't wait to leave my old 'friends' behind 😞 and never think about him anymore 😒 or look at his ugly ass face

I'll miss my teachers tho :(

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Trying not to hate myself day one

Drawing my actual body type

Still not exactly what I look like but still.

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I actually have such an amazing mom I'm so grateful to have a mom like her.

Sigh if only I had enough courage to tell my mom how I really feel about my gender identity.

I'm waiting until I'm a certain age.

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I feel like a balloon filled with water wanting to burst at any second.

I need therapy but I don't deserve it

All I am is selfish. A selfish boy who isn't greatful for what he has.

Older me will see this and laugh probably 😭

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The urge to isolate myself from all of my friends and not talk to them because I think that they don't want to talk to me

I hate it so much. I just have deep gut feeling that they all hate me

Nobody wants to hear you Yap about some random dumb shit.

Just shut the fuck up izzac.

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Coming to the realization that my irl friends aren't even real friends, just school friends that I tallk to. I always feel so left out around them.

One of my friends will only talk to me when their other friends aren't around. It seems so fake to me. I can say hi to them when their around their friends but they just ignore me and act like I'm not there.

This feels so selfish. But I just genuinely feel lonely in school. And I can't meet any of my online friends.

I have hope for hs.

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When I want to talk to someone but I don't want to burden them with my problems. </3

Eugh.