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There is no 'What If'

What if the sun sets a little bit later 

And the moon decides to show up when troubles are done?

What if we can get more than 24 hours a day

Or what if it was the other way around?

What if I was born a boy or in another lifetime or in a different culture?

What if we didn't meet or maybe we did but just later?

What if things were entirely different

And you liked me more than I liked you?

But no this isn't the case there are no what ifs

In whatever given lifetime, accept this as the truth.

I must turn my what ifs into what is and start living.

Because the sun won’t set a little it later

But it would surely end up dying..

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How Long Has It Been?

I already forgot the last time I wrote. I guess I’ve been too busy with everything else.. Well, I didn’t really forget to write for I’ve been keeping short poems in my notepad... I just took a looooong break! 

But now I am back though may not be entirely for good. I’m just going to enjoy and write again. :)

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GLCD 2013 x ST. MARIA DE MATTIAS ORPHANAGE

A fun day full of happiness and love! Goal achieved!

Thanks to all those who supported us in any way. We made these kids happy because of you guys!

We'll do our best to continue our vision and mission to simply give joy and inspire as many Philippine Charities are possible, one every Christmas season.

God bless us all and have a happy happy Christmas! :)

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“I have no problems with being single or being in a relationship but I have noticed that most people nowadays perceive being single as something peculiar. Being single is not a disease that needs constant check-ups or treatments. It doesn’t mean that there’s something wrong about you. So chill, my friend. Chill. Stop interrogating your friends why they’re still single like it’s an illegal act or something.”

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We are inviting you to join our outreach program with the kids of St. Maria de Mattias Center-Orphanage in Marikina Heights, Marikina City on December 8, 2013 from 1pm-5pm! All our previous volunteers are invited! New ones are very much welcome to join and celebrate the true meaning of Christmas with us!

St. Maria de Mattias Center-Orphanage currently shelters 14 indigent and abandoned girls aged 6-16y/o. It was founded by the Adorers of the Blood of Christ Sisters in the year 2001. From then on, they've been helping neglected girls by welcoming them into the orphanage, building their character and helping them go to school.

All kinds of donations are very much appreciated but they are in need of things which are easily consumed such as toiletries and school supplies as specified by Sister Flor, the very kind and accommodating nun we ambushed this afternoon during our visit! We are very much thankful to her for agreeing to our proposal on such very short notice!

JOIN US AS WE GIVE LOVE AND INSPIRE THE KIDS OF ST. MARIA DE MATTIAS CENTER-ORPHANAGE ON DECEMBER 8, 2013! We'll be posting more details soon so please keep posted!

Feel free to blog and tweet about us, share this event on Facebook and invite your friends! Let us build bridges from those who are willing to help to those who are in need of any kind of help! GIVE AND INSPIRE! SPREAD THIS CAUSE!

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If I win the lottery

I'd go to Med school, in a heartbeat. 

I chose not to pursue my dream of being a doctor because I want to earn money for my family asap. My parents are not getting any younger. They've sacrificed a lot for me and they've given me everything I needed. Now, it's payback time! I can never give back if I went to med school. Not even after I graduate! I'd have to undergo residency then fellowship and a loooooot of other trainings before I can be on my own. I'm not even sure if my parents would be around by that time. So I chose to leave that path behind and take another road. But if I win the lottery, so help me God, I'd pursue med. Not only will I have money during and after med, my family can also get everything they desire! PS. My best friend and I will study med together as well. If she wins, she'll pay for everything I need and vice versa! Lol.

I'd make my small charity group official! 

Do you know that you need a million in order to list and make a foundation official? Ironic, right?! If I win, I'd help more less fortunate groups and create more foundations too!

I'd travel the world.

Before I go to med school of course. Lol. I'd travel with my family and friends!

I'd build my dream home.

The one with a movie room, swimming pool, walk in closets for me and Ma, big kitchen and a big garden. Oh the one with a swing too!

I'd buy my brother everything he wants.

Gadgets, cars and everything! As long as he'll get good grades and stay out of trouble, he'll get what he's been wanting. Of course I'd buy everything my parents want as well!

I'd start a business. 

Maybe I'd have that cafe I've always wanted or build condominiums or town houses! 

I'd buy everything I want.

My earthly desires are just simple... I want a car, gadgets, clothes, bags and shoes. Did I mention simple?

I'd put everything else left in the bank.

My mom would surely put more than half in the bank then just let the interest grow and grow! Then I can do everything else written above again.

That is if I win the lottery... Anyone can dream right? But if not I'd work hard to give my family everything they want, then myself next. ;)

Lord, please let me win the lottery so I can go to med school and give everything my fam want/need. =))

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CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE OR CHANGE THE LATITUDE

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. —VIKTOR FRANKL

Sometimes you wake up knowing what could happen and not knowing what to do. Or not wanting to face anything at all. There are times when you don't even know what could happen yet you just want to curl up back to bed, sleep and face whatever it is bothering you the next day. In reality, unless you're God, nobody knows anything about the future. And even if you sleep, you'll still wake up and eventually face everything. You can't run away forever. Maybe you're afraid, maybe you're tired or maybe you just don't want the role you're playing as of the moment. Well, either you change your situation or you change yourself. At least that's what Viktor Frankl said and it all makes perfect sense. Change your attitude or change latitude.

Well, if you are unhappy on where you are then go and do it right now. Don't waste more time being hard on yourself. Be brave and let go. Feel blessed to have the opportunity because not everyone has the choice to leave. Grab it! Keep on praying and one day you'll be at the right place, at the right time, surrounded by the right people.

Now if you can't say bye-bye just like that to where you are now then maybe you can say bye-bye to your old self..I meant the not-so-helpful-side of yourself. The person inside of you who's easily afraid..or that person who's always negative. My best friend gave me an advice to only invite positive, happy thoughts when faced with you're least favorite situations in life. Your mind does play a significant role in dealing with everyday's issues. If you want to be happy, then think happy thoughts. Associating happy thoughts, next to praying, is one of the best tricks you can do to live a positive life. If you're unhappy with a job and you can't resign now then always think that your job shouldn't take most of the space in your heart. Remember to always look out on the more relevant aspects of your life - your family and friends. They matter most. Your job, or whatever it is bothering you right now, is just temporary. Your loved ones will stay with you forever.

Change is one thing nobody can change. Well, that was a funny statement! Ironic, it is. But seriously, if you cannot change where you are, change who you are. Embrace change. Once you accept it, ready yourself to a greater, happier life!

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I WANT TO WRITE. SO I WILL.

I changed my header once again. I had this brilliant idea last night to motivate myself to keep writing. This is what I came up with. This was what my brain told me last night. So, no one could stop me! I'm palaban like that!

If given the chance I would love to write a column for a magazine or the newspaper about life... mainly inspirations...about getting through tough times or being a young adult or about a nurse's life. But even if nothing is impossible, this dream of mine is far from reality so I just have to keep this blog and keep writing.

I WANT TO WRITE, SO I WILL! 

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Maybe it's the hormones, maybe not.

I was on my way to work the other day and my tears were falling. This is too embarrassing to share but I pretended to have colds that time so people around me would stop giving me weird looks. I was completely unstable that day. I just wasn't myself.

I texted my bestest friends for comfort only to realize that it was a bad idea. My tears started to become uncontrollable. Knowing they're always there kept my tear glands working double time. I ended up walking to work with blurry eyes. I didn't know if I could surpass my 12-hour duty or if I can even afford a fake smile in front of my co-nurses and patients. I was lightheaded.. I felt like going home.

I caught myself staring at patient's charts and medicines. People were asking me if I was okay or if I had a problem. Of course, I did what I do best when I'm not okay. I flashed a big smile and told them otherwise. 

After a few hours, I was feeling better. The people around me infected me with the only virus my system could afford to catch, the happy virus. I caught myself laughing and feeling good. My duty was going smoothly as prayed. I was back on track.

I went home with again a happy heart. I don't know if I was happy because I was finally on my way home or because I was just happy. 

After a few days, the monthly bwisita arrived and kept me thinking if it was only chemical or really emotional.

Was/Am I really unhappy or was it just plain PMS? If I am unhappy then why?

And why am I writing about this when I feel happy right now. Gosh, am I a bipolar?

Forgive this post. I just wanna write about it. 

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When your heart is happy, it shows. :>

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LOVE, HOPE, BE HAPPY. Give Love on Christmas Day Group's fundraising for this GLCD2013! What do you guys think? Keep posted for more info! :)

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Road To Take

Decision making isn't my favorite thing to do. It's hard for me to decide, period. Choosing where to eat is a dilemma, picking what to eat is another problemo. It's just that there are so many restaurants out there and it drives me crazy to single out one. So when asked where to eat, I just answer "anywhere". But in real life, I can't answer the same when faced with different, multiple roads ahead. I can't just go with the flow or cover my eyes, turn three times and point on a road to take. Just no.

I am not proud of this but I think there are other people experiencing the same. I guess I can call this a mid-20's crisis? I am now 23 and I am practicing the degree I took in college. Isn't that the way it's supposed to be? Isn't that the plan? To graduate and to practice what you learned? Then why am I thinking otherwise? Why am I thinking of taking a u-turn or a left turn or maybe a right? I don't know. I just don't and it worries me. A lot.

The plan is to have the job that I love and come home to the people I love. Don't get me wrong, I admire my profession. It's the noblest job on Earth. I think the problem is with me. I don't think I'm fit for this. I don't think I've got what it takes to be 100% at this. It saddens me 'cause I don't have the guts to just quit and face other possibilities out there. I fear that this is all I've got, that this is all I am made to do. After all this is all I know, professionally. It scares me because if I let go and take a different road, I might fail and regret what I've done.

I also think about my parents although they told me that they'll support me in whatever decision I make. The problem is, I don't know what to do! I don't want to fail myself.. I don't what to fail them.

Right now, I like what I do. I think I'm blessed to be of service to others. Am I happy with my job? I don't know. Sometimes I am happy, other times I go home with a straight face. Am I happy with the people I work with? Yes! Do I feel like taking another road? Sometimes.

But which is the right road to walk through? I don't care if it's bumpy as long as I'm happy.

I don't know. The best that I can do right now is to cherish where I am and pray that one day, everything will be okay...

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Hi. :)

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Happy Father's Day dearest Papa! Salamat dahil lagi mo akong inaantay makauwi parati at sa paghatid sa akin just to make sure I'm always safe. Salamat din again for helping me get that Starbucks planner kahit lunod na tayo pareho sa kape. Hihi. Thank you for sacrificing almost 20 years of working away from us to provide us with everything we need. We love you and we appreciate everything that you have done and you continue to do for our family. Love you always, Pa.

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LTMF: 25

Dear Future:

I just turned 23 years old..that means 23 years of hoping and waiting for you. Will I meet you before I age another year?

I hope so.

If not, I'll continue praying for you, for us. Soon, our own forever will finally start.

See you soon, love. See you soon.

Your Future,

Joan

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Simple birthday celebration! Tried Chocolat's Tiramisu this time because we already have tried all their Chocolate Cakes! I must say that it's my newest fave. My brother brought his Stapegi (that's how we call it lol) and had a simple merienda then headed to Mom & Tina's Bakery Cafe in Katipunan for dinner. :)

I got everything I want and need for my 23rd - my family. 

Thank You Lord for another year. Give me and my entire fam mooooooooooooooooreee years!

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Happy mother's day to my superduperwoman, MY MAMA! I love you forever and ever! :)