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I can't stop thinking about Lycaon in the "He who returns from the abyss" cutscene. Like, I think a lot about the entire clip (and rewatch it religiously) because of Hugo asking for praise ofc, but also a lot of Lycaon's body language in it is so telling of how he feels regarding Hugo, since this is all previous to their conversation and them making "peace" with the way they split.

Now, I mentioned on this post how Lycaon is loyal to Hugo even at this stage, and it shows in how he cares about his well being, but I want to go deeper about two specific things in that clip.

First, is how he rushes at Hugo when he sees him in that state.

I want to point out how he stops himself from touching him at first, because that's what's been making me crazy. Physical touch seems to be a big no-no now, when probably in the past he would've had no issue lifting Hugo's face to properly check on him.

Still, Lycaon's face cannot hide at all how distressed he is regarding Hugo, eyes scanning him entirely to try and understand what happened. Even his face looks so much kinder here; truly a vulnerable moment for Lycaon.

The second one is, to me, the best one; is this little tap on the back of the chair:

He's standing straight and at a lose of words, but that little tap is amazing. It's not a stretch for me to say he wanted to care for Hugo properly, seeing him so weak and playing it off as a joke even when it was evident he went through tremendous damage in both mind and body. This gesture shows how Lycaon is doing his best to keep his distance, because he's conscious they're not what they used to be, but again, his undying loyalty that makes him be at Hugo's side for whatever he needs shows; a habit he's trying to control.

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Hugo is really quite a case regarding his relationship with Lycaon.

He craves Lycaon's company and attention, but his self-loathing keeps getting in the way, stopping him from being fully honest about wanting to be friends again. Lycaon too is a curious case because, rather than falling for the taunting whenever they meet, he's serious, can even joke around, and displays actual concern for Hugo, even when Hugo dismisses him (at times gently, other times rudely)

But I feel the key to their current relationship is in one trust event that has them talking about their past. In here, Hugo can't help feel guilty about Lycaon's legs, only to have Lycaon say this:

That's when it hit me. Lycaon is waiting to have Hugo back, but this can only happen when Hugo heals and attains the peace he wanted after forgiving himself. At least we know he's already on that difficult path, but he's doing it on his own.

What makes this duo so special is that Lycaon knows this and has seen through all of Hugo's barriers, and is more than ready to being his friend again, but he's patiently waiting for Hugo to feel like someone capable to mend their relationship.

Like, ofc is hilarious to see them bickering, but Hugo's trust events are illuminating as we see the classic "Friends to enemies" trope not be reduced to them arguing whenever they see each other, but actually be awkward in the other's presence, or even being able to lovingly reminisce about their youth together, then deeply regret how bad decisions and miscommunication stopped them from helping each other, and the guilt they both feel regarding how things ended.

Hugo's the only one that participates in the intense teasing, and that's because constant taunting is his self-defense mechanism, since he refuses to be vulnerable to the only person that could see the worst of him; the memories of their separation play a part in his refusal to accepting Lycaon's help. However, he ignores that this time around, Lycaon wouldn't abandon him.

If anything, Lycaon is waiting for the instant Hugo's defenses break down to immediately catch him and be together again. And Hugo is.... Open to this, since another trust event has him saying that, depending on the future, Lycaon could be either friend or foe ( though we know he's betting on being together once again)

For Lycaon and Hugo, the resolution of their complex relationship is simply a matter of time now that they're in each other's lives once more, and destiny keeps making them cross paths constantly for a reason.

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(no children, the mountain goats/US politics)

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i'm sorry i don't know what came inside me. came into me. came over me. sorry.

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I have something to post but 💀

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im gonna getcha! im gonna getcha!!!

omg stoppp!!! hehe ^_^ !!!!

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Type of shit I been on lately

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quick sketch

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Mockingbird era lycahugo you make me so so sad

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EVERYONE(!) I’m blazing this post because at this pace we might barely hit 1,000,000 signatures—or just fall short. PLEASE reblog this post, no matter where you are from, so we can reach as many EU citizens as possible and end this horrible practice!

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stuff happening on r/discoelysium

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Suns out. flowers are blooming. birds are chirping. yaoi shit is happening to me. maybe it'll all be ok

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you're cute and it's tuesday

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POND FRIENDS

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OH THATS GORE!!!!!!! THATS GORE OF MY COMFORT CHARACTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😄😄😄😁😁😀😀😄😁🙌🙌🙏🙌🙌🙏🙌