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hm. not sure how i feel about multiple hook ups now having called me pretty/beautiful. on one hand it is flattering and i want to Just be flattered. on the other hand, lately it feels like dysphoria has been chomping at the bit for smth to latch into that proves im not ~really~ a man or whatever, and this seems like a perfect candidate to beat myself up with…. but like i said, i Want to just let it be, like, a compliment and not smth i let dysphoria take from me. easier said than done i suppose :/

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i was planning out romance novel stuff and i realized that my fav couple dynamics to write are Still influenced by my favorite ships and maybe always will be. if u read one of my books in a few years and see hints of klance/kagehina/davekat, mind ur business

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got a $3 tank top from tj maxx

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Twin Peaks: Fire Walk With Me // Plainwater: Essays and Poetry- The Interviews (III) by Anne Carson

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Wes Walker

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Get Out of My House - Miya Folick

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a week and a half til i get notes back from my agent on book3. should i spend this free time writing trans gay porn

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Cis people think trans people have this:

Deadname

Chosen name

But honestly we really have:

Name

Other name

Deadname

Business name

Old nickname only some people have rights to use

Online name

Extra special secret name you don’t get to know, unless… ;)

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“When you write a book you’re full of expectations, you make plans, you think it will turn this way or that. Yet the moment of true joy comes when you have no clue as to what you’re doing, when one phrase follows another and you’re there witnessing what comes to the surface. Traditional structures and rhymes require a similar unconscious engagement, when sound comes over sense, for instance. I’ve thrown out pieces of mine because I had them all figured out beforehand—I was hovering over the text. Books are born once they surpass you.”

— Alejandro Zambra, in his conversation with Daniel Alarcón for BOMB

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i actually do think it’s anti-feminist to be fatphobic and yes i do mean that

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happy juneteenth but dont forget that prisoners are legally allowed to be subject to slave labor and also black people are disproportionately arrested and subjected to that legality. happy juneteenth but slavery still lives in america. america is still dependant on slave labor.

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The White Hind by Beth Cavener

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it pisses me off SO bad how transphobes have so effectively used sports to launder transphobia and misogyny to people. like does nobody remember like ~5-10 years ago when it was a MAJOR feminist talking point to argue for desegregating sports and going by skill level instead of gender separation??? and now, because so many cis people hate trans people so violently and think we should be excluded from all aspects of public life, you’ve got a whole bunch of women who call themselves feminists laundering misogynistic talking points about how “women are just inherently weaker and worse at athletics than men :(( it’s just biology and women are inherently inferior :(( this is definitely not misogyny that’s unsupported by science, women are just weaker and worse at things :((“ like girl open your ears and listen to what you’re saying!!

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couldnt sleep, drinking decaf coffee and writing an outline for this next chapter of ttir. pls god let this be a sign that im getting out of writers block and enjoying writing again

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unfortunately the only answer to most of my problems in life rn is to lock into writing book3 and actually finish a full first draft

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so far i have smoked a lot of weed by the pool and read several gay romance novels, doing so-so on not panicking, still have not fucked another tguy tho 😔

pride month 2025 goals

fuck another trans guy

read as many gay romance novels as possible

smoke weed by the pool

try not to panic about what my agent is gonna say about my book3 outline

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Hare By: Douglas English From: Lebensbilder aus der Tierwelt 1910