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I'm laughing the god's pocket trailer is just Caleb's lifeless corpse being dragged around various places

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where'd you go, love? The fandom misses you <3

/sings "where do you go to my lovely" @ u/

bless you! well, to be honest i'm not really as interested in antiviral any more (as much as i still love syd, and someone i know online watched the film the other day and i flipped the fuck out.) my fickle fandom heart, i'm afraid! 

also, some aspects of the caleb fandom/certain unnamed caleb blogs are generally not very nice and i sort of wanted to cha cha slide away from that big ole mess. 

but! if anyone wants to talk to me about antiviral/send me fic/cry re: syd march feels, give me a shout :) 

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Yet more evidence that antiviral is slowly but surely becoming reality

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how happy is the antiviral fandom rn that there's new pictures of caleb covered in blood floating around

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better not let him in [or: werewolves of beacon hills]

Isaac Lahey needs someone who isn't Derek Hale to sort his life out. Grace helps out. Feelings and shameless Lynard Skynyrd references ensue.

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Honesty Time: The Kiwi Experience

Okay, so as some of you know I went travelling in New Zealand quite recently. I wanted to write my feelings about the Kiwi Experience (the travel company I used) and my general travelling experiences, so - read ahead.

Probably the most depressing thing of people asking me if I had a great time in New Zealand after I got back. Because I basically have had to lie through my teeth and tell them how amazing it was. And sure, parts were amazing, and I met some really great people, but I also spent most of my time there feeling home sick and being really, really alone. A lot of this was due to my own mistakes and misconceptions I had about travelling. I was really homesick and I think this came from being at boarding school and shit, so yeah. 

Anyway. The most important thing about travelling is to know it's not for everybody. I was sort of forced into a gap year through circumstances and I didn't want to do any long-term travelling, but my parents convinced me to. I traveled for four months in New Zealand, spending some time with my family there. What I really wanted to talk about, however, was the Kiwi Experience.

One of the first things that the Kiwi Experience website tells you is that their tours are aimed at eighteen to thirty year olds. This is sort of a load of bull. I met one girl my age (eighteen, at the time) on the bus; one. And I must have been on a bus with a hundred different people (obviously more than once). The experience really caters towards people in their mid to late twenties, rather than pre-university students on gap years. You might think this makes the people you're travelling with more mature and interested in the culture of New Zealand. I actually found most of the people who were travelling on the bus more immature and rude than the seventeen and eighteen year olds I knew back home.

Another thing about the Kiwi Experience is that how much fun you'll have depends a huge amount on timing. I started my tour in Christchurch - what they don't really tell you is that most people start their tour in Auckland, and so by the time they get down to the south island everyone's made friends. This means the experience isn't exactly ideal for shy, socially awkward eighteen year olds travelling for the first time on their own (with most people I met, this was their second or third trip and many people traveled with friends). In fact, a lot of people say that travelling is a way of 'finding yourself' or 'coming out of your shell'. Again, it depends on what kind of person you are, but I found this a crock of shit. I had anxiety/stress dreams for the first month after I got home and have found myself with increased social anxiety, especially in shops or food places. And the Kiwi Experience really doesn't help with this. I'm not even THAT shy; I can hold a conversation on my own, but I find it helps when someone else initiates the conversation. No one really did for the first half of my trip because everyone had made their own groups by the time I started my trip. It really didn't help that everyone was so much older than me and travelling in pairs (not entirely the fault of the company but certainly not the product that was sold to me). It wasn't until I got to auckland and got a totally new bus-load of people that I made friends. The 'hop-on, hop-off' service that Kiwi Experience touts as one of its main selling points often means you can really easily lose track of people you've met.

A lot of their destinations are total crap, as well. Westport and Lake Tekapo, for example, were quite possibly the two most pointless places I've ever visited unless you were willing to spend a lot of money sky-diving in Lake Tekapo. 

Basically, I think the Kiwi Experience sells itself as this super friendly environment where it's really easy to make friends. And don't get me wrong, most of the bus drivers were great and really helpful - although I was told stories about bus drivers hitting on and kissing their passengers, which caused some of the girls to be quite upset (I only had one female driver the whole trip). But I definitely would not recommend travelling alone on the bus if you're young and a bit shy - it can often make things worse rather than better. 

(one last thing: the bus timetables were complicated as shit and I got stuck in Auckland for a fucking week. They will also deliberately drag out your bus journey so you arrive at youth hostels at the time they let you into your rooms at around one o clock. This can be nice but also means you end up spending the majority of your morning on the bus, and sometimes they drop you off at fucking stupid destinations just to waste time - e.g. 'puzzle world'. Don't get me started. I'd rather have been able to go to the hostel and relax in the reception than be sat on a hot stuffy noisy bus!)

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DOES NO ONE ELSE FIND THE FACT HE’S ACCEPTING MONEY DISTURBING

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neck kissing is honestly the hottest, most seductive thing anybody could ever do to me. if you kiss my neck, if you playfully bite my neck, if your tongue touches my neck i will melt in your fingertips.

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i just spoke to all my friends on skype and i didnt really realise how much i missed them and 2 of my best friends are visiting eachother and im fucking alone and the next seven months are just going to be shit and uni might not even be good and even when they come back for the holidays theyre gonna go back to all their uni friends and im going to still be here fucking alone and im so so shit and i cant get a fucking job and my mum is being fucking horrendous and

i feel like cutting again

hahaha

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WHAT THE FUCK HOW DID THIS HAPPEN

I JUST MET CALEB LANDRY JONES I’M HAVING HEART PALPITATIONS HE SAID HE LIKED MY GLOVES AND HE CALLED ME PRETTY I MIGHT DIE TODAY

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the protagonist in this film is basically sick as beans and intentionally farms diseases inside his body and hes an agonized pale weak mess but HIS HAIR IS SO PRETTY WHAT THE HELL???/ THATS NOT HOW BEING SICK WORKS

GOD I JUST WANNA BRUSH IT 

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got an iphone for my birthday

thank you world

also my parents

who

well they actually bought me the phone soooo

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I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW IN HALF AN HOUR THINK IM GONNA VOM

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the-flaming-nips said: 

And his face looks fine! We were all freaking out over nothing lol

lol you have no idea how happy i am that i don’t have to post that other photo

let us not speak of it again.

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watching teen wolf and isaac stabs jackson in the neck with a needle in a mildly erotic manner like

hey didn't i write a fic about this