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HOLY SHIT THEY BROKE UP HE FUCKING GHOSTED HER

Is this God's way of saying sorry for everything else? Because apology fucking accepted bro she's MINE

Except she did kinda catch on to how much I keep track of what she's up to so... Here's to hoping she forgets that I'm a freak?

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I'm made up of obsessions and hopes and dreams and it's a terrible empty feeling to have none of those

I want someone to devote myself to again, that desire terrifies me

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Mmm theology and learning about different ways people honor their gods and thinking about worshipping someone that way <3

I love the thought so much I just need someone to tolerate my affection first

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Why does she make me watch her be in love with someone else when she knows I love her? Why does she vent to me about her stupid fucking boyfriend when I'm the one who calms her down and gives her advice? Why does she keep him around?

You know the feeling, don't you? You want everything to work out for them, except that one little thing because when they fall you can catch them, you know what that's like.

I know she likes him, I know they met before I was in the picture but the fact is that he's good for nothing and I'm the one who's always there for her, when he's gone, when he's asleep, who does she run and cry and beg to and ask for advice from? Fucking me. Who did she get off to when he was gone? Me. Who coaches her on how to keep their relationship together? Me, always me.

She's radiant, with her weight in gold, she's funny and real and whimsical about life. She's free and she'd be so happy if she wasn't being suffocated by his constant neediness. I want her to want me like she wants and loves that pathetic selfish petulant thing she calls a boyfriend. Nothing enrages me more than knowing I'd treat them so much better.

I sound like a self important dick and I kinda am but I'm totally right so

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Mwehehehe new blog!

Hi! You, yes you, I'm Vex, system member/ 18/ he, they, it

This is my new obsession/hikikomori/yandere vent accounts and I'll be talking to You! It's gonna be me and You and You and me yapping and bitching and moaning up in here! You can be my parasocial lover, all of you as a whole, doesn't that sound fun?

I'm just a lovesick Bunny boy who can't get over anyone who so much as breathes my direction, I'm really just here to talk to You because there's no one else to lend me an ear. I was too ashamed to admit I was a Yan for a long time but the more people I find to love the more I realize my brand of love is much more like illness, I wish it ever felt fun anymore

I love to chit chat I'm a bit of a shut in but I really like to listen about anything, unless you're trying to get in my pants, Id much rather talk about random mundane shit.

Like please talk to me I'm an actual fucking neet and it's killing me inside

About me stuff under the cut!

FtM, hikikoneet, smoker and drinker, general grungy lowlife

I like music that has solid lyrics, I love theology, I garden and I like to make art

Split on my fp of two years around this time last year and made some of the worst romantic decisions of my life! Now I just break my own heart every month loving people who only care about me after 11pm

I'd positively love to be a cute jirai girl but I dress and act like a shitty grunge boy and I can't help it

# - TOXIC WASTE -- obsession/ fp posting