#favorite person

[vilea777]

“i love you” until i’m sobbing because your tone slightly changed

[hanniballectercoded]

WILLWILLWILLWILLWILLWILLWILLWILLWILLWILL

[bedrotterthinner]

⚠️Asking BPD people for tips ⚠️

So I used to have a favorite person that I loved and obsessed over and he hurt me very badly. Not just him but several friends of his also partaking in hurting me. Of course one day he up and disappeared and I never got closure for all these complicated feelings.

I’m begging y’all. What do y’all do when you’re “relapsing” into old thought patterns about your ex FP? I’m dealing with anger, flashes of grief, self hatred, confusion, my mind going “WHY did he do that?” Helplessness etc. I need some advice or positive habits to help with this. Please. I’ve been dealing with this since 2020 and it’s starting to happen at least once a day.

I really hope this post wasn’t for nothing. It was hard just to put these thoughts into words on a screen.

[clovelie]

it's always "i love you even with your disorder!" until they don't understand your symptoms

[shesmanic]

I'm crying again

[geceninbaligi]

Everybody around me has some kind of dreams, goals for the future.

When I look at the future, it's just an empty darkness.

[guiltyidealist]

Latest hobby: radical self-acceptance codependency affirmations

I like to use over-the-top edgy imagery to invoke the ~emo~ sentiments we associate with edge, juxtaposing the aggressively self-loving text. accentuates the punk nature of radical acceptance

[shebeezee]

bpd develops for a reason. don’t ever let anyone make you forget that.

you were hurt and had no one when you needed it most. you’ve been through so much pain and trauma. regardless of what the world sees you as, this was the way your brain decided to cope. this was the only way your brain knew how to survive and keep you alive to this point. you’re amazing and i’m proud of you

[dumblr]

Take care always, my favorite person.

[n0wheret0run]

unwanted

[mothseatinghumanflesh]

[deadassjsawhitegirl]

"bpd is this" "bpd is that"

can i just say bpd is more than a favorite person? i understand that part as ive experienced it but thats not all there is

as someone who doesnt currently have a "fp" i hate that thats all bpd tumblr is. js shit about your feelings towards other people, i understand but oh my god i wish there was more. it feels like romanticism of the mental illness that people are gifted the option of assisted su!c!de for. and thats not fucking right.

im sorry if this sounds rude or anything but it just makes me feel really alone in my illness and thats a shitty feeling to have, esp as someone who has bpd.

[clovelie]

losing a fp feels like you just got your soul ripped out and now you're not even a human being anymore.

[shesmanic]

[geceninbaligi]

I feel numb. No tears, no anger, nothing. Just going through the same day again and again. I would rather just sleep without waking up.

[yourofficialdarling]

hold me. use me. love me. break me. care for me. make me bleed.