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SAM WINCHESTER 12.14, "The Raid"

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making memes instead of writing.

bonus:

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prompts... anything w alpha john and alpha sam fighting/shouting/growling at each other w omega dean stuck in the middle not knowing how to appease both of them and losing his mind w distress <333

The prompt wasn't explicitly horny, so this isn't either, but I'm obsessed with it.

The headache burrowed behind Dean's eyes felt permenant these days.

Sam and John were fighting. Again.

If things had been bad before Sam presented, they were ten times worse now that he was carrying around the challenging scent of alpha. Even Dean felt the friction, although in a distinctly different way than John did. John felt his authority challenged. The hierarchy of domination was being threatened by Sam's very existence. And Dean felt that too. But his omega was more confused than anything. It loved pleasing John, it loved the happy little thrill that shot through his core whenever his dad put a comforting hand on his shoulder or said good job son.

It also loved it when Sam nestled up near him or looked at him.

The whole thing was confusing, and the two of them fighting wasn't helping.

"So you're leaving us, again." Sam's voice was flat. Dean wanted to push his shoulder against his little brother's, to comfort, to soothe. He kept to himself across the room, trying to focus on the gun he was cleaning.

John's tone was acid. "Well, son, I figured you'd have liked that given the snit you've been in lately."

A growl caught in Sam's chest. Dean's heart skipped a beat.

"How long are you gonna be gone this time? Until summer? Until we're out of money again?"

Dean winced internally. "Sam-"

"It's Dean's job to handle the money, are you saying he's not capable?"

Now Sam was actually mad, great. "I'm saying you're a piece of shit who makes Dean do everything so you can go play alpha hero away from your kids," Sam snarled.

"I've heard disrespect from you, but this is a new low." John's voice pitched low. "That's not just me you're disrespecting, that's Dean-"

"Okay guys," Dean said, raising his voice. It fell on death ears. Both alphas were getting closer and closer, eyes and teeth glinting in the evening light. Dean dropped the gun onto the table, frustrated, and stood up to get between them. Again, for the fourth time this week. "That's enough you two," he hissed, placing a hand on Sam's chest to push him away from John. His fingers somehow tangled with the collar, so he followed with him, getting Sammy to move a few feet across the room. "Sam, there's people dying. I think we can handle being on a low budget for a few weeks."

Sam's face was inscrutable as he stared at him. "Of course you take his side." Tone flat.

He pulled himself out of Dean's grip and left the room. Dean's chest felt like it had an empty hole in it.

John placed a hand on his shoulder, and some of the tension dropped. "He'll come around."

Then, softer, "good boy."

Dean's core tightened at the praise. Almost unconsciously, he barred his neck slightly. He could feel John's presence behind him, the warmth from his body seeping into the back of Dean's t-shirt.

As John's mouth pressed against his bare throat, just over the unmarked mating gland, in just the hint of a kiss, he could hear Sam loudly throwing stuff around in his room.

He wished he could please them both.

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SABLE!! i need to know if freak father sam ever crosses the.... you know line? does he make advances?? does dean jr make advances?? because he saw the nudes of his uncle and maybe that’s was his dad wants?? i'm torn on this but you’re expert so pls tell me 😫

Saskia!! Delicious question!! My answer isn’t very simple though there’s a few ways i like to envision Wincest Junior.

I think the most realistic writing of it would be Sam adamantly refusing to cross THAT line, but everything else goes. This isn’t quite as fun but i have reasons for it. For Sam, it would feel almost like a betrayal to Dean. To touch Dj the same way he did Dean, to love him the same, to treat him the same. He can’t do that because it’s not the same, no matter how much Sam and Dj want it to be, and it becomes so achingly clear whenever he indulges those thoughts. There’s also the fact that to be so intimate with Dj, he would be forced to acknowledge their differences in every way. Sam knows it wouldn’t satisfy him, not how Dean could, but there’s this cavern in his soul that he can’t help to try to fill with everything but sex with Dj.

Sometimes Sam thinks (knows) his son has picked up on it; becomes painfully aware when Dj practically climbs on his lap to show him something at 16. All Sam can do to control himself is let Dj do what he wants until he accepts Sam won’t react to it. It’s not like God’s watching when he jerks off to it later. Sam would take secret photos of Dj and print them out to keep in a similar but separate box to Dean’s. Occasionally he gets both Dj and Dean’s pictures out and stares at them next to each other. Despite their glaring similarities, all he can see are the small differences and it consumes him sometimes. Sam watches his son for far too long and far too often but he doesn’t touch. He won’t do what John did to Dean. (He doesn’t know John also followed Dean to his hookups and listened or watched him get fucked).

Also in this version I am very partial to the idea of Sam having a second son (like John with Adam) that he doesn’t learn about until the kids a teenager. He looks eerily similar to a young Dean when Sam meets him at a bar the kid’s definitely too young to be at but he’s just drunk enough to convince himself it’s Dean and they fuck in a motel. Then he finds out a few weeks later that that was his son (the mother reaches out) and well.. the damage is already done. His second born becomes his outlet for all of the feelings he refuses to put on Dj. Of course Dean jr knows nothing about this, he only hates whoever or whatever steals Sam’s attention from him.

Now Dean jr on the other hand, would do anything to please Sam and keep his attention. Much like his late uncle. There’s a big difference though— Dj inherited his dads manipulation skills. He’s careful about it, trying to turn into Dean so his Dad will love him the same. After he finds the tapes he starts slowly showing more skin because he’s too hot, or needs to wash his clothes, etc. Dj leaves the door to the bathroom open “accidentally” every once in a while then more and more until it’s normal. Dj masturbates a bit too loud in his room when he knows Sam is home. Dj eats his food too sultry to not be intentional but it’s not like his Dad is gonna say anything about it. Oh but he wants him to.

Dj knows exactly what he’s doing and it’s to his endless frustration that Sam doesn’t do anything about it. Dj knows from the tapes that Sam can and will get rough and take what he wants, so what does it mean that he won’t with him? Is he still too different? Is he still not enough?

He intentionally wears Sam’s dirty clothes around the house that are always oversized. He finds bracelets that look like his ones Dean wore when he was younger and never takes em off. He tries to get Dean’s scent down (he never can, the impala and hunting is integral to it) and he touches Sam any chance he gets. Sometimes he’ll make an inappropriate joke just to see his Dad twitch and pray he finally breaks. He never does. Dj obeys his father so well, he’s such a good son. He cleans Sam’s guns for him at the kitchen table, only when Sam’s home to see of course, he cooks dinner for them when he has a long work day. He’s perfect. He also pushes and gets defensive and hostile when Sam has been too calm too long. There was a time when he ran away as a teenager and sought out monster trouble so Sam would have to go save him and hopefully be reminded of his old hunts with Dean. It was his worst idea. He’d never seen or heard Sam so angry in his life.

However! Even with all of this, I personally like to think that after all that time holding himself back, when he gets old enough to start having memory problems, Dj jumps on that immediately. So Sam doesn’t think he ever crossed that line. And he didn’t, when he was of sound mind, but Dj cherishes the memories of his aged father treating him like Dean (thinking he was Dean) even if it wasn’t real.

Now that’s my realistic answer but I do have fantasies/preferences outside that! I love love love Sam only crossing that line when he’s drunk, just like his daddy. The reminders of Dean just in drinking itself, the loosened control, Dj wearing Dean’s clothes.. it happens enough that Dj starts trying to make it happen. Up to personal preference if Sam remembers doing it, I like when he truly thinks he’s never crossed that line because he forgets about drunk fucking Dj into his mattress when he’s a few whiskies too deep.

There’s also the scenario where Sam descends into a different madness and tries to focus solely on Dj, to a point where sometimes he won’t realize he’s trying to shape him into his brother. It’s just so easy to get lost in his son, to escape his grief through Dj’s touch and loving innocence. He’s so much like Dean but he’s not, and sometimes Sam can momentarily forget Dean as he memorizes the unique texture of Dj’s skin, lips, insides— the different pressure and higher pitched noises. It’s easier to indulge and forget than to face and regret.

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by @GhostyRT_19

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one of my favorite brands of full house wincest is john fucking dean and sam knowing it and hating john for it. because of course his father would do something so sick. of course john would ask dean to give up that to him on top of everything else. sam’s blood boils because that should be him dean is under.

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this has prob been done before but whateva

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i know jensen would’ve acted the hell out of a scene where dean gives birth

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Special Children :: All Hell Breaks Loose

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by 麦乐飞侠_

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i'm thinking about sam and dean growing up together and all the last times they shared; the last game they played outside, the last bed they were allowed to share, the last bath they had together, the last haircut dean gave sam before his bangs completely covered his eyes, the last time they sparred together and who won, the last meal, touch, laugh, the last everything before sam got grown and became a man somehow right in front of dean's eyes, hauled ass to cali for a better life. when dean was alone, he found himself replaying all those moments, thinking of things he took for granted now he'll never get to do again. he wondered if sam was ever thinking about him too.

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sam gets so upset at the idea of being controlled by his father and brother and then tries to get jack to be a useful tool to get mary back.... crunchy tbh

Sam major issue has always been with control and being put in the little kid corner, which is why it’s really good character design for him to have a specific box that he puts Dean in, and totally down to manipulate other people. He adores Jack, but a lot of people forget that they bonded in the first place because he needed to be on Jack’s good side to get Mary back.

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I think abt this every day of my fucking life !!!!!! A MOTHER BEAR.

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sam’s the type to interrogate demons about what happened to dean in hell because dean refuses to talk about it

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And as far as Dad goes, I dream about Dad all the time. You do?