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17.6.25 morning thoughts

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Hi Lena! Is that your horse in those photos?

Yes, it's my mum's horse so basically our family's horse :)

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My latest journal spread 💛💙

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Morning coffee in the garden

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Trying to take a pretty photo of flowers in front of Epona but instead he tries to eat them

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I was talking with this guy (as friends) for a few weeks and we seemed to vibe. But last night while I was taking about feeling depressed and suicidal the past few days he, totally out of blue, ignored everything I wrote and started talking about "body counts" and how "men are always more pure than women". There were no signs whatsoever he was one of those... I called him out and blocked him on the spot, not even waiting for a reply. So much for making friends 😒

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First selfie in years. I've been feeling so ugly I couldn't stand seeing my face. It just took time to get used to not wearing make up and how different my face looks as I've gained weight. You can barely see my nose freckles, though, but trust me, there's plenty!

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"but there is something that happens when you are told you are too much. you begin to ask everyone, "how small would you like me?""

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Ever shared something you wrote that expressed something that meant a lot to you and was cathartic to put in words, and all they said was "that's deep" or something just as uninterested and invalidating? Like, okay this thing that brings me hope and lifts me up is nothing to you?

Then I shared it with someone else (who was struggling, too) and they were left speechless, and told me they'd need to think and ponder about those words I wrote, and thanked me. And that they had no idea I was so creative. Perhaps my words will bring hope to them just as much they did to me.

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"In the darkest hour, I long for the light. I only sleep for the hope of another dawn. Sometimes my heart still aches. Oh, but it beats still, too; for love makes my blood flow. I may hurt still but joy has become my home. I always return home."

I started writing this during a moment I was hurting yet the words lead to something hopeful. The text on the page is missing a word in these photos, but here it is anyway.

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I couldn't post this directly but check this out of you're vibing with my summer posts 🌿💚💜

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My latest journal spreads 🌿

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Good morning

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Hiatus from simming

I'll be focusing on enjoying the summer and I'll be posting my photography instead of Sims. I'll return back to simming once I get another SSD and switch to Linux. Until then, no sims content here.

Hope y'all enjoy summer (or whatever season it is for you) 💚🌿🌻

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Coffee with a bumblebee ☕🐝

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Wild flowers