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[helensdashconfessionals]

i had such a shocking revelation today. For awhile I thought I might be on the asexual-aromantic spectrum (and that still might be!) I always felt like I never NEEDED romance or sex in my life- I never envisioned having a relationship like that with somebody. I need family, friends, acquaintances, community... just never lovers or partners.

However, I never felt really connected to the labels aromantic or asexual, or any kind of MOGAI-type terms under that spectrum either.

I respect the hell out of people who use those identities, and I'll always stand with them against ignorance, harm, and bigotry towards ace & aro people- full stop. But I never really felt apart of their groups.

However... that leads to the revelation. I recently joined the workforce, with a few jobs under my belt now. I'm currently working at a really short term that I found through my recruiter at a temping agency. It's great, it feels busy but casual, and I'm having a good time. My job was only supposed to last 1 months, but it feels like I fit so well there, my boss is keeping me on for a few more weeks. You could say the job and I are...compatible.

Okay, my problem: have I just replaced having a romantic relationship with having a job? Think about it- I'm basically passionate about nothing else except working. I dress up SPECIFICALLY better than I do around most people to go to work- not because I have to for company policy, because I want to. I think about it when I'm away, and I think about my future with my job like we might sign a pre-nup or something. I kinda view past jobs like exes, even.

Like, I'm joking but I'm actually not. Does anyone else kinda feel this way?

I'm really sorry to put this kinda trivial thing in the ace tag, but I want to relate to someone. I swear this is funny to me but not a shit post. Does anyone feel like they put pseudo romantic energy towards other aspects of their life?