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I love dreaming.

sometimes you just wake up after eight hours with nothing on your mind, other times you ascend from a beautifully crafted three-arc multi-million dollor production based on the media you consumed before falling asleep

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Beco+81 aka Beco Plus81 (Japanese, based Japan) - 星屑まみれ (I am surrounded by Stars), 2023, Drawings: Digital Art

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i should wake up and automatically be restored to full health, that's how sleeping should work, what is this horseshit

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“So often, a visit to a bookshop has cheered me, and reminded me that there are good things in the world.”

― Vincent van Gogh

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I apologise for not posting much. Frankly, it’s been a rough few months and I’m finally starting to heal. I suppose I’m kind of enjoying life now when I’m not being reminded of past trauma. As of late, my life has either been:

1. Hang out with friends online. Do art and play D&D together.

2. Lay in bed during the day when everyone is busy or sleeping and doom scroll, do more art or read.

3. Get triggered or have intrusive memories of past trauma and cry my eyes out.

My family also got a new python recently! A Stimsons python. We got a new vivarium, a heat pad, some bedding as well as some hides! Little guy is super cute. I’ve been holding them quite a bit. We don’t know their sex yet as they’re too young right now. I’ve been its main caretaker during the day when the rest of my family are working.

I start university in April! I’m doing psychology. I’m doing online university for my first year, and then I’ll go in person. It’s pretty cool!

My friends and I did our first DND session today and while it was a bit chaotic, it was honestly really fun! I couldn’t even begin to explain everything. It’s paper Mario themed, and my character is named Quill!

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Anaïs Nin, from a letter to Joaquin Nin, featured in Reunited: The Correspondence of Anais and Joaquin Nin, 1933-1940

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Here’s some art I did of my friend and I’s characters! This is from a roleplay we did together recently. Lumi (the blue one) is mine, and Redwood (the red one) is my friends. I also tried out a few settings on my art app to make it look like an old cartoon.

I’ve missed roleplaying a lot so it was nice to gern back into it! Fingers crossed that I’ll have more to post of Lumi and some of her other friends soon. I love her a lot.

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I’ve been kind of dead here. Sorry about that. I got back in contact with some old friends and we’ve been hanging out online a lot. It’s been really great! Also, happy belated new year!! I hope your new year has gone well. I applied to University today. Fingers crossed I’ll get in!

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To all of my closest friends

I love talking nonsense with you and I hope that we can talk nonsense with each other for the rest of our lives.

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Trying to lose weight for my PCOS while having very few foods I like due to sensory issues is extremely hard. I need advice!

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I was playing a new WolfQuest save and was doing so well until my children decided to leave the den and get lost while I was hunting, and by the time I got to them, coyotes had got their sooner. Two out of four pups died and now I'm gonna go cry.

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Something I need to remind myself:

It’s okay to have bad days.

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Sometimes I hate people. This is probably very bad very bad for my mental health.

— Tori Spring, Solitaire